Yesterday… what a
tiring day.. started of with not enuf sleep. Then chit chat with hubby boy for
quite a long time. I mean… from here to there. It’s like never ending topics from
around the world. Then we chat about the past when it come to relationship
topics. ~.~ struggling…?? Cannot move forword… things don’t work out. Sound familiar..?
well… all I can say is how much can u endure and fight it out when it’s blunt. We
chat about during my stay at bkt.jalil during my internship. I guess no one
knows what happen. Coz I blog den delete, blog den delete. I dun want those
unhappy memories stay in. I am
speechless and just keep on tearing when he keep bringing up those events and
happenings during that time. L it just make me sad and I can get over it. Is like I ald
forgetting but pop… I remembered again. Hahaha! Even now it’s still bitter. Mayb
u’ll understand or u say I take things complicated. Just take ur right hand,
put on ur left chest and ask yourself
“What have I done to
make her happy during her stay..?”
Bear in mind bitter
memories cannot be changed into sweet ones. They remain the same when
everything is able to change. Grateful that it teaches me lesson and brought
courage for me to be better.
I din want to talk
much coz it’ll only bring greater hurts. I don’t want to provoke nor give
chance for this memory to grow. Lets just give it away slowly and do our best
in the future. Can't we just leave this..? my heart hurts and it gives me
headache badly. L