Fake self limitation

Since I have some time to shout out, let have some fun blogging. Hehe

A lot of things can be said here. All walks of life. Different people encounter different situation. 

Just recently:

A: the dramatic review of how should a group of people book hotel for accommodation oversea for the first time. Haha… I won’t say my judgement is correct or others are wrong. Instead, I would really sit down, listen to you and understand from what point of view you stand so stiff. I want to understand and see it from your perspective. Teach me will you..? If you can’t persuade me, and you just do whatever you want that is not convincing enough as of what we suggested, I see a problem there and must have a solution right..?

B: the young hot teen that in love. Many mystery and question marks from passerby of their life. We guess a lot, ask a lot and observe much. All you can do, as long as both of you are blissful. This is much more important than any other people judgment. 

C: the 18 years old bride, my neighbor and 40 years old groom. In life, everything is possible. I am sorry to be rude and bless both of you to have a happy family and new start. It’s a tough road, tougher than what I am facing. I am really impressed by her survival skill that never gives up no matter what. Please lead a good life!

D: huh… I dunnoe what kind of love season is this. Is either I make that person cry or emo or I just ask something very wrong at the very time. Hahaha… twice + my bestie got willingly cheated by his ex n sometimes is her current bf. Once it’s a past tense, just let it go bah, hai zi. Don’t ever cling on something that doesn't belong to you. Lao tian yeye had prepared something better for you.

Recently I had finished reading a book tittle How to get from where you Are to where you want to Be. So it’s A-> B.

And I noticed, this is just an ordinary book. For what people living on this earth need this kind of inspirational book..? What for I am spending hours and hours reading many them..? Slowly I noticed, human being is really terrible. Really stupid for not doing what they want, getting lead by the blind and continue to follow the blind, limiting oneself to enjoy whatever we had in this world, this current spinning beautiful awesome world. While reading these books, I see the world as a better place not because everyone changed to be good. But because I changed to see the good in everything even very very worst situation. How worst can it be when you still alive..?

Why do you have a miserable job..?

Why do you have a miserable relationship..?

Why do you skip classes..?

Why do you sleep in class..?

Why do you think living penniless is suffering..?

Why do you ever jealous of someone doing better than you..?

Why do you must have the latest designer brand pieces of clothes, handbag, shoes n etc..?

Why do you demand so much and making your life look so pathetic..?

Ans: Get a life babe~ if you don’t like what you’re doing right now, make the leap and do what you want that can achieve what you like. Because doing what you like -> searching happiness eventually life is so much fun.

Because you love your job, even if washing 8 hours of laundry is fun to you.

Because that is not someone for you, and you held on tight, that’s why you are hurting you yourself. No one words nor can thinking hurt you and only you yourself for not going out of the barrier / limitation you made for yourself. Try taking a step out. I bet 99% of you don’t want. Simply because of the clingy feeling you had. after break up, u said i still miss him at nights. What do you get from closing yourself inside the cell..?

5 years ago, he said he love you, it’s true that you are his love for his lifetime. Sweet right. 

Now, he told you he no longer in love with you, he also meant it! So, his lifetime for you are the duration of 5 years.

After leaving, he is a newborn again.

No worries, you can continue to have that clingy feeling for anyone that hurt you or u cannot let got. One fine day, when you took the step out, finally and you’ll find how wasted those moments are. Well, you may find it’s good that u mourn for your relationship so called that you treasured that relationship. HA-HA-HA. Tell me, are you still going to be the same again and again after getting hurt or your heart got a deep scar and you acting as if everything is back to original state. Even you, who keeping the relation is tired and can’t stand any longer, Nobody is going to blame you to go through and pass away those painful moment. You no need to report nor tell anyone. As long as you’re happy, it’s good enough for the first step. I am telling this, because I see no point in it. Oopsi… please move on. look forward!

Me, myself too did something stupid like this. I got sad for some fake reasons and make myself enclosed. I persuade people to let go, yet myself can’t let go of some bad memories that happen in my relationship. Eventually holding negativity brings negativity. Somehow and sometime the ticking bomb explodes. After that I just notice this is so stupid and ridiculous. I’m holding on something does not even exist that I limited myself for loving him more, caring him more and making him miserable for not knowing anything while I act like I am so generous that holding those freaking stupid grudges when he let go of everything and willing to make our love life better day after day. Finally it tore him off. He is patient enough to wait for me. Thank god I realize soon when looking him suffering much and I am making myself suffer but now able moving forward. When I am awake, it is the worst nightmare that is lucky for I am able to get rid of it as soon as possible. Let’s create and walk a funky life. When your relationship can fix, held tight yea. Don’t ever give up!

If you don’t enjoy anything that you do now, quit! Stop wasting and just see what you interest most and get your own life. You got a life when you pursue for your own dreams. It’s easy like body building, spending time with friends, travelling and more. Most people are half awake or dead walking. Yea.. They aren't living to the fullest. Do they really understand their life purpose..? I see many multimillionaires enjoying their life while being rich. It’s because they know what they are doing, why they are there and achieve their dream. Making them rich is a side dish, but the passion they life while doing what they love and created and epic lifetime is what they will never forget in their life. Their challenges and breakthrough is a love.

That’s all from me. Every day is freaking interesting in this funky life especially being born in Generation Y enjoying everything through a click and some touch. :P

and i am facing all kinds of assignments, exam, conflicts yet life still goes on right...

Powerful choleric + Introvert = Teddy Lim

Am so not me to leave my blog not updated. Last time is like weekly or fortnightly. Now… since I’ve decided to update those stories that are interesting in walks of life, I will not put in my boring daily routine. 

So, if you’ve read/ listen/ once people told you about personality; there is 4 main group types and from these four, you can mix and match that would become 16 types of personalities that created mostly who we are now. Hehe.. Each of the personality has their unique way of behaving. It is seriously an eye opening event. Correct me if I am giving wrong information. For more details please read this book “Personality Plus”.

Sorry that it's in Malay. I tried to produce one but failed.

Before you’re pointing finger at others, look at yourself first. Don’t always find fault n weakness in others. Bak kata pepatah, “ kuman di seberang nampak, gajah di depan tidak dilihat”. Firstly, look into the mirror.

Who are you..?

How well you know yourself and accepted yourself to be the way it is..?

Then, you can comment on others. If you’re not that good after all, you are most welcome to shut up :D Most misunderstanding happen due to lack of communication and understanding. Communication is freaking important in any event to anyone. Don’t be shy about it. Understanding is your willingness to know. If you don’t take initiative to communicate, will you ever get the information to understand..?

So, after living for 21yrs, I understand myself day by day. It ain’t an easy process. Coz I change every second. Any minute, my decision may be different according to mentality n situation as well as mood. See, there is a lot of a factor. However, some of the most inner; core of yourself will never change that easily not matter what happen. For example, my powerful choleric personality. Inside me, I've a very strong powerful choleric; a possessive me. I noticed it during my primary school while doing group projects. My friend mentions to me for the very first time that she does not want to join me. And that she would not want to be my friend anymore. Of course I got hurt. But, I slowly analyze myself. Did I make the wrong decision..? I've hurt my friend. I apologize if I ever offended her and let’s be friend again. I treasure my friends very much that motivate me to change for a better person. Slowly, I am more open minded. Ask Mei Kee how tremendously I've changed compared to 10 yrs back. You’ll be shocked the powerful +dictator me n now the considerate cute teddy. Haha..

Yea.. I joined many many activities back then and meet different types of people. So, I try to understand that everyone have their very unique attitude and personality. When you deal with them according to their most comfortable way, it’ll be good. You may not be their best, yet it is not the worst.

When someone tells me, he or she got attitude problem, I don’t discriminate. I understand that they are not to the extend thinking in other people point of view. I took initiative to communicate and understand their perspective is limited. Hence, they are unable to join the crowd. Give them time and practice. Whatever I know shall remain silent. Slowly, they grow and learn themselves.

Below is a text I copied from Facebook. I found it interesting and would like to share. Hehe.. T.T somehow the text was removed. It had gone missing. Haizz…  There is a lot of stuff about introvert. And I can explain each unique character of an introvert since I am one of them. One of it, introvert doesn't like to social. Yea.. I agree with it very much. Not that social is a bad thing, is just I don’t feel comfortable. You’re like being someone else coz  you need to pretend you’re listening n pay attention while my mind is flattering to another sky. Haha.. I force myself to listen because it’s rude when people is talking you don’t give attention. After social, I am like dead tired. I've limit in my social battery. After some time, I must go home! Is a must. I need my own space. Without doing anything all by myself, I still feel happy. Ask an introvert, have they every feel lonely alone..? I might say yes to set you back but I actually enjoy every seconds of it. Muahaha.. My friend named it, “she is in her own world”; my reply is I'm loving it!

With this missing introvert text, you could actually get to understand me more without me expressing. Many question marks about why I behave like that also will be gone. By then, without more, you could guess my next move. Isn't it awesome to express and not impress yourself..? I felt like I am light weighted.

I'm sorry. Sincerely deep inside my heart,

I felt guilty for hurting you my friend,

Tongue has no bone,

Yet it’s sharp enough to stab into your heart,

Your tears are my weaknesses,

I hope, wish and pray that you’ll be happy no matter what you do,

Promise me you’ll stay strong.

God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let GO!

My Rommate, Michevil.

Instead of letting u guys know my week 3 boringly, why not I tell you a tale.

Thank you for coming to my life.

Hi, room-mate J I doubt one fine day you will be reading this. Finger cross. :P

Do u ever have the experience to share the same room with a stranger..?

Since young, I don’t sleep alone. Never! It just doesn't work. I’ll feel lonely. Trust me, it’s lonely. I'm a little chick. Little chick will die if u rear them alone. Till now, I've encounter 2 girls as my room-mate  Thank god both were nice human. I mean they are compatible with my attitude. Not everyone can endure whatever the others are doing. Imagine we… wait.. No need for imagine. We had different background, memories, beliefs, growing up environment, teachings, and perceptions. When there is no communication, everything can be so wrong. Yea, I've encounter that. Hmnn.. Shall I reflect what kind of room-mate I am.. I think I'm neutral. Of course no. I am someone who got a strong attitude de. Haha… My first was Lay Hoong. She is from Cheras. Also my senior during diploma. By fate, we stayed at NO.1 house. Sharing the room at downstairs of a 12 rooms, able to accommodate 20paxs terrace house. Look how marvellous this house is! OMG… soon, very soon, around 6 months later, we shifted out together gather because we beh-tahan the agent and the horrible house. Speaking of this house gave me goose bumps. It shall not be told any more. It’s nightmare.

Actually my main topic is Miche Miche. Since I moved in here, an apartment, I've waited a room-mate  Desperately I guess. Coz renting a middle room all by myself is a little burden. Secondly, I wanted a companion. Hmn.. When you’re out in this cool society, you would want someone with you. No matter how quiet each other is, no talking or asking question, still, there is someone know about your existence that you’re safe and sound sleeping on that bed every night.

I’m actually grateful for Miche existence in my life. I think she is created by my imagination. In an ideal, my minds of course I want share a middle room. In reality, it’s just an ngam ngam, just right, no little, no extra of space if 2 person stay together gather. Plus the no Wi-Fi, no air conditioner, 5^th floor staying with owner condition. I doubt any girls would want to stay a place like that. But there is. She is Miche. Starting, we did have some manner with each other. Hahaha.. This is common I guess. Not to say now we do not have. Now, we are more comfortable with each other, Moreover, interesting facts how she get to know me and the room. I guess it’s the law of attraction. My desire is so great that everything made possible. I remembered that time was during my 1^st intern. Mean 1.3.2011. 2 years ago. I was just about to give up on this room, this house and stay with some other house sharing with others. Blame financial burden. I really really didn’t want to leave this house, this room. I found comfort and care by my owner. They are more humane and compassionate to any other person I found when I all alone at KL. It is better to stay with owner as there will be someone taking care of the house condition rather than all students. If you experience before, some people can just be ignorant enough not to care the other person life or death. It’s so common here. That’s why I dislike KL. It’s a place full of selfishness. Rare. Really rare to find a soul that will at least have a second thought for another person. Then I got to know Miche from FB that connect us from finding room at Taylor’s page. I am so hoping that she will share the room with me. We chat quite a while. I told her everything about Taylors that I know as a friend/ stranger point of view and then the relationship grew. Soon, she gave up on the room she booked. With help from Win Jen, my ex housemate, she took pictures of our house. I posted it online so Miche can have a brief imagination of the house. She mentions that the room was quite small. She din mind. I said I would sacrifice the study table. The bed frame is hers and the bed would be mine. She needs to bring her own mattress. This was how desperate I was. However, I was honest and sincere. I did tell her everything so her expectation is not fall when she stayed here.

This is how we started. We had dinner for the first night. And then, continuously sleep together gather lor.

Haizzz… When the room has 2 different owners, both different personalities, problem started.

I woke up later. I set my alarm once and when the first ring happens, I off it. Her alarm ring for 5 times before she actually wakes up. And alarm sometimes can’t wake her up at all.

She wash all her clothes once a week, not even bother to take back/ fold from the hanging area, while I squeeze all my clothes together with hers.

I sleep decently, although every night I need to make noise (speak to hubby boy before oioi). She had automatic orchestra on for whole night. But I like it actually. I sleep soundly when there is snore. I got used to it trained by mom. Haha..

I cooked for her, washed her clothes (not now anymore) did all I could.

I clean too much. Weekly I sweep the floor. Monthly washed the toilet and wipe the windows in our room. She is someone who has a maid to clean her house.

Yes. I admit I am damn stressed up and hate it to clean the toilet. I normally do it during my hatred mood. The toilet stinks. So, I deep scrub every possible corner. In the end of the day, I’m a happy kid. Coz when the toilet smells good and clean, all my anger is removed. I got this weird attitude don’t know from where. I guess I learnt it from movie. To use up the extra violent energy towards dirt.

Sometimes, her architecture stuff is messy, and I am an organized freak. No eyes see.

And she is someone who can sleep late at night while I love to go to bed early.

Just yesterday I was so frustrated that she did not throw rubbish and the floor was full of our hair. 

Huh.. It’s been there for like a week. We no longer stay with owner. So most of the stuff we need to take care by ourselves. (i am also pms-ing that time)

There was her mattress she brought from Seremban that needed to be thrown away. She can be very ignorant and kept it there till I don’t know when. There is no harm if she keeps on keeping it. I just wonder, like how does she thinks that nothing seem she can be responsible of.

 Guess what, despite all, I am able to accept who she is and she never complaint my bossy-ness attitude. She did follow my advice. Miche never dislike my powerful choleric attitude. Maybe she does but never once voice out in front of me. >< She is very guai.

On the other hand, we did share a unique relationship. I was surprised when she mentioned her uncle stayed at Seremban, my hometown. Later did I know her uncle just stay behind my house. Small world aite. There was once we took train and went Seremban together. She got wedding to attend and I fetched her back. There was once she got her bag snatched and couldn’t contact anyone. She was scared, crying and stayed at Damansara police station. I remembered that day was my Diploma result announcement day. If I was not mistaken her uncle came all the way from Seremban just to find her. Imagine a girl without phone, no money, no house keys. Basically nothing. No food, no place to stay and shocked after getting snatched. Crying badly and luckily she got an uncle who is willing to take care of her. I’m worried about her too that night hoping everything is ease for her.

We may not be perfect to each other, but we do appreciate each other existence. There is nothing difficult to share a room with another person. Just tolerate each other assuming that the person is having a hard time too. We know each of us had our problem to face. Have our course work to do. Have social conflict. We are being parted with family members to achieve our dreams. Nobody cooks for us. Nobody washes our clothes. Nobody nag us (maybe through phone). All we want after whole hectic day entertaining everyone was a place for comfort, rest and be ourselves. Do things we love to, slack as much as we want like how we used to do in our actual home. 

I may not be with you for long. There is only another year to go. And I’m done with Taylors. I hope we can have a great last year together. Just cook dinner, tong sui and pillow talk.

I felt warm when Miche say, you’re back late tonight.

I felt warm that you care for me.

I felt warm when I say, did you slept at studio room yesterday..? You’re not home last night.

I felt warm when we greeted each other goodnight.

I felt warm when we cooked together.

I felt warm when we ate together.

I felt warm when we did spring cleaning together.

I felt warm when I am watching drama and you’re looking at it too and laugh.

I felt warm when we understand each other preference without many words.

And this is the only picture we had despite staying together gather for 2 yrs ++.

 and got 3rd party also. T.T

Okayy.. i do wish you could help to wash toilet and throw rubbish @.@

T3ddy 

XOXO

Hehe.. I kept this topic very long le. Now got the feel to shout out! Coz just finish my IMC midterm and tomorrow is PH. Credit to PH I don’t want to do anything. Tonight, let it be my night wills you..? <3 data-blogger-escaped-font="">

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Sem 4 Week 2

Hey you there… how was ur Monday..? good, bad, terrible, awesome..? haha… my lundi ( Monday in French) . yea.. gonna use all sort of languages I can. Practice make perfect mah. Went back to uni late. Coz went to tapao at my favourite store for dry noodles before heading back to hostel. Upon reaching home sweet home, quickly bath n nom nom. Ran to class. English… L since primary I dun really like English. I know it is important. Just. . .  after that we got quite a long break. Went to mamak n tea tea with friends. After that had French class. I’m really at the back of this language. It had been 1 year since I graduated diploma. Lol… time strike like lighting. After class, Elaine, ah young n I went to had dinner near our house. It was the nasi lemak berempah pjs 7. First time there after hearing about their infamous chick. Not bad. Though it looks like normal coconut rice with friend chicken, everything was well done. The chicken is soft although I took the breast part. Not dry but juicy. The rice is just nice. The sambal is a little spicy yet brought some special aroma n u feel like taking another bite with rice. The peanuts is mix with anchovies. Other than that, they provide mini  shrimps for u. imagine a little spicy and salty. Very appetizing. The environment is not that dirty compare to any hawker stall. A little adds on is, the whole family is helping out the business. Dunnoe y, I just got good feeling. Next, we head to 99 speedmart. Hapi me got to buy milk milk. Trying to drink milk n get fair. Trololol… I am someone who anti milk. Very young I abandon that milk bottle. Now starting to accept it again.

Mardi- class started late around 11am. Got my own sweet time to prepare myself. After 1^st class, we went to IKEA for lunch. Nom nom nom… all food was nice. Is just that I don’t take beef. I tried half meatballs. After 1^st bite… I don’t feel like taking 2^nd bite. Hmnn.. my bad. Ironically I can take Korean stir-fried beef a little. Went back class just on time. Haha.. first day meeting with Dr.catheryn. omg… she is resembling someone. Have u ever heard of ppl only work half a year and the others 6 months off to vacation or do something they like..? Thou I know this is possible, but I did not see it in me yet. To have financial stability is not that easy. She must have put in a lot of effort n gone through a lot. At night, randomly went out yam cha with them. Hahas.. beloved gong cha. Then  saw someone bought taro yam. T.T so sad. My taro yam.. went back at 12am slept at 2am. Try to make notes.

Marcredi- class started at 8am. And ends at 11am. 4hrs break in between. T.T din go home. Din get to sleep. Din make notes also. Tired~~ after finishing last class, quickly went home and sleep 99. Ahh.. nice. Tonight gonna be my night. :P

Jeudi- class at 8am. T.T time not enuf to use errr… today got 4 classes+ a long break. After last class, I actually wanna go home. Bounded by heavy rain. Cnt go back. So stay at mamak n yam cha with friends. So tired. Tonight got so many things to do summore. Arghh.. however, there is something that gave me motivation to continue battle. Coz I know, when people around me is happy, I’ll be happy too. Nyek nyek~ shall not reveal what is I am having in my sleeves. Ciao.. need to study, and pack pack for tomolo go home ceremony. -.-‘’

Vendredi- Dimanche:

The best thing is be able to meet ppl who u treasure. Glad that popo, my ah ma is healthy again. After her fall last year, she suffered terribly. Lucky.. I’m.. n we are all lucky to have her back. J and it’s getting more n more lovelier when I attended chua chua bufdae on Saturday night. Ahh.. the five of us. Ponteng queen they named. N Sunday is a slow day. Huh.. trying to finish my e-portfolio. Will make sure it’s a nice one. I got a feeling like going back to queen guide project while doing e-portfolio. Same trouble occours, same same pattern/ template. Is just that it’s different content now.