needs

What can i ask for, when the most basic is not even there. *Sighs*

互相残杀!

I waited you for the whole night. And this is what i get. Good. Keep it up. Continue doing this to each other and i'm pretty sure that you will never get to see my smiling face anymore.















i like you very much. can you don't hurt me..?
it's okie. not like you are going to care or comfort me also. For you, it's always not your fault. it's mine. Sorry~

is it really so difficult to put a little effort and sacrifice for me..?

overtime

j'ai apprendre ma leçon~!!!! i'll remember this forever. will not touch beer anymore until i'm physically and mentally recover.  vomited for 3.5 times and hangover for few hours. luckilly daddy is available to chat with me. i'm better after eating apple. i guess rm50, i not only experience barrel beer but also process of drunk-ing and vomiting. another thing money can't buy is daddy's advise. i shall be a better good girl from now on~ i've my ideal idol already. there is no reason i can't be success like them.

Week 11 Term 5

Week 11

Wednesday- went back to sunway. 3pm for F&B commis. Hmnn.. not bad. at first I tot was a waste of time. At least we got some exposure on how final in term 6 gonna be like. Hehe.. went home and study for law. @.@

Thursday- law tests. Law law law… after paper, went home to study French and English. Dunnoe y feel so relaks. Took a nap. Woke up study French. Hmnn… doesn’t feel like studying. Wanna sleep but keep rolling on bed. Maybe I feel excited about 16.12. can’t deny the fact that this date bring great impact on me. I am an emotional people. I wish this day I can spend with someone important. Maybe we cannot have fine food but I don’t mind. I don’t mind eating hawker stall. I just wish you were here accompanying me on this memorable day. But we are living in a realistic world. People don’t see the value in it. Money money money. Busy busy busy. Time time time. I don’t wish to surrender just like this. I hope I can go against it but I remain quite. Well... I’m just standing in his point of view. The day has past means it’s over. Even if we celebrate on another day, for me, it will not be the same anymore. It’s just like valentine and bufdae. I hope to spend it with somebody special and not anybody. if you say can we celebrate now, I’ll reply nah… it’s fine and I am broke now. If things like this is not important for you, I shall not hold a grudge on it too. Let things flow by itself is the best!

Celebrated my Christmas yesterday with uni’s friends. freaking awesome day. How am I suppose to store them in my memory so that they are fresh all the time. Hehehhee…. On the 16^th which was Friday, we had French and English final paper. After 5pm, we are all officially freeeee… yahuuu… then we went to sunway pyramid. Some hunting for present while some finding for wrappers and boxes. Elaine, lauren and I did some shopping too. Nothing good was found. Hehe.. after that, I quickly went back home to pack some stuff like presents and daily routine care products. Coz imma gonna sleep together with elaino that night. Hehe.. once reach, we went to put things and settle a while. Then, eat nasi goring kampong. !@@##$$%^^ the fried rice is super good yet super spicy. Arghhh…. After that, kickstart my present surprise. Hehe… do and do. No matter how tiring, I must keep it done so they can get surprise gift on that very special day. I’m so guilty that I cannot prepare for all on time. There are still certain people that not yet recive. In progress… hahhaas… je suis desole~ slept at 4am.

Saturday- 17^th

Woke up by ben’s morning call. Quickly continue doing ponda and wrap all of them. Huh~ shower and wake elaino up. hahaha… took a pic of her when she is sleeping. Her sleeping style is damn imba. Sleep with her phone beside like talking and the main thing is thr is connection with Daniel lerh. Their conversation is not off. @.@ packed and get ready. Imma bought the wrong size box. Went sunway to change. After that headed to Ben’s apartment. After he got ready, we wanted to eat pasta buffet nearby his place. However, it’s not available on weekend. Yeerssszzz… went to giant kelana jaya to eat KFC à sushi king. Hahahas… had my dunnoe what set. It was yummie. Then everyone gather at Ben’s place. We are heading to i-city shah alam. Yuhuuu… it was raining heavily. Went to play laser tag. Nyahahhaha… it was fun and a new experience. Laser tag tag tag tag… shout’s from elaino. Ivan’s secret hiding place and running here and thr. One word FUN. Hehe.. after play, next destination is to Mr.Adrian’s house. His house is well decorated. Everything has a touch. His toilets, bedroom, guestroom, living room and kitchen. His house is not common. Is like a ikea showhouse with a beautiful decorated Christmas tree. Hahahas.. coz most of his things bought from ikea. Hahahas.. that day, ah young ni got rape by those guys. Muaahhaa… Then we go to pasar malam together with jervonn and catherine. At first I tot just walk walk around and have dinner. Mana tau I shop with elaino. Bought this and that. Seriously cheap and nice looking. That’s y it attract us. Hehe.. we even buy until no money. Elaino need to walk all the way till the end for atm. Pai she arhh.. I din bring much cash. So, I owe her RM45 and zhen han Rm5.50 for pan mee. I think I owe zhen han a lot. Coz he fetch me home always. I dunnoe how to say thanks. Perhaps a gift. But what ya..???? sakit-nya kepala. Among everyone, I am the only one that did not walk the whole pasar malam. I got stranded at that one stall. Huh~ after some time, we are called to balik. Hahahas.. reached mr.adrian rumah. We started our climax activity. Hehe… 

mr.adrian’s gift was indeed to me. Wahahhaa.. it was a French dictionary. I don’t have one and always wanted to have one. Now I got it. Thank cute very much sir. I’ll use it forever. After diploma still got degree. It will be very very useful.

Peter by zhen han – police underwear.

Ivan by ah young ni- Malaysia ball

Lewlica by ben- catty

Karen by peter- catty

Mr.lim by Karen- tumblr

Ben by lewlica- tumblr

Ah young ni by eujin kor- shirt

Zhen han by mr.lim- shirt

Mr.adrian by teddy- decoration things

Yi ling by Elaine- soaps

Elaine by ivan- domokun with a lot newspaper. =.=’’’

Conclusion, you get to see 2 pair of people give the same things. Lewlica and Karen receive and gift the same presents. Hahahas…

Last but not least, each of us got a gingerbread kid from lewlica. Ah young ni, ivan, ben and panda got my handmade jumping clay. They are so happy to receive my mini gifts. Je suis happy. I’m in love to see their reaction once they saw what they get. It’s like happily ever after. My effort is appreciated. Thank god. Hehe..

We had some chat zone with snacks and drinks provided by mr.adrian. mr.lim was sick and unable to join us. L chat and chat and chat. It’s around 1.30am. we are tired and yi ling start to fall sick already. Quickly say our farewell and went home. Thanks zhen han for sending us. Went home, bath and sleep. It’s tiring~ before sleep, I recall what we have done whole day. Sleep with smile. Hehe..

Sunday- woke up naturally, roll and roll on bed. Slowly clean everywhere, packed, have a light brunch and start my journey. Dunnoe y, I am enjoying taking public transport and kinda like the feel. I am getting use to it already. Adapting real well. Muahaha… reached home. And now, I’m getting ready for Overtime later with ma darlings.. muahahha…

Week 10 Term 5

I’ve forgotten that there are rules to follow in love. Maybe some will continue to follow while some take things for granted. And some go beyond limit. Never disturb or involve in the activities of your partner. No matter how much you wanna be with them, just let go and dun give a damn. Be honest. You may not know how deep you can hurt the person although it’s just a white lie. Never demand never request never expect. Never question why. Just answer tres bien. Never show your true feeling. In your opinion it’s just simple care. But for him, it will be control, burden and torturing. Things will never be the same anymore. Some little tradition you wish to follow might not interest him anymore. Just accept fact that people change throughout time. This is reality and my fantasy love life can only happen in my dream.

Before criticize, look at yourself and judge. I am not that good either. I do have my weaknesses. I follow my heart to deal with things while you think logically. That’s why we are different.

No matter what happen, you can never complaint. Because your soul mate is choosen and accepted by you. Even if he bully or doesn’t treat you good, you can only say sorry to yourself. Cannot blame others and cannot tell others, Nobody will understand especially him.

Week 10

Monday- is a hapi hapi day. Went to uni with eugin kor and sau sau Karen. Hehee… early in the morning got called to wake up by hubby boy. What a lovely morning. Ate cornflakes as breakfast. Quickly went back to my apartment and take bath. Huh… I’m late. Hehe… then, got back home early coz got no mr.kenny class. But tomolo got his assessment. Hmnn.. studied and sleep early. coz very tired.!

Tuesday- class at 10am. But we are the judge for thinking skill. First day of presentation by group 1,2,3. Walao e… new experience through this project for being a judge. Get to see ivan’s the other side. Shooting ppl side. =.=’’’ then continue for account class and law. Account need to do as much as possible. Coz Saturday is account as first exam. And law is freaking complicated. Gotta work out on it. There goes midterm assessment from mr.kenny at week 10. Ishh.. anyway, six questions and there are all good. Hahahas…At home, did account prepare for exam.

Wednesday- Law class at 8am. Esshhh… then got a long break. We went to grub and library theatre. Was so sleepy for the whole day. Got chef shaari test. 20 true or false questions and .. .  hahhaas… went home and prepared dinner. Hmn.. studied for mr.gopi assessment.

Thursday- went to Mr.Adrian cubicle. Checked that they have airasia promotion. Wanted to go Bangkok. Look at bank account and cancel that plan. No money. Where also cannot go. >< presentation from 2^nd group. I think first group is better. Hahahs.. went for kitchen class. This time, it’s gao gao lik. There is a lot of strange object in the tool box. Hahhahaa.s…

Friday- woke up early and went uni to study for assessment. Quite well. And then went out to have lunch. After French, it’s mr.kenny final assessment. We draw names to pick ppl who we are giving gifts. Very happy. Then we deliberate the champion for DH40 thinking skill assignment. Chat until 7pm lerh. It was fun. Ahahhas.. Went home after that. Cooked egg toast. Wash clothes packed luggage and slept at 10.30pm. it was too tiring and I not yet study for account!

Saturday- woke up at 6am. Study study study account. Luckilly still got some time for me to sleep. Woke again quicky get ready and go uni.  Sat for account paper. What… the objectives is more difficult than subjective Haizzz… took bus to pudu. Got sesated at kl for awhile. Hmnn.. dislike. Then found Pudu bus station. Went back sban. Reached, went to tapao food with mom. Mom say, tomolo follow me go kl. I said I don’t want. Then mom force me to go. If not she will go alone. As the youngest, just follow only lorh. Then mei kee said she is at Times Square. I am around that area also what. Ishhh.. anyway, my plan is to shop at Terminal one. Hiak hiak~! Went to try dresses nearby my house. Not very fitting. Then went to boyfie house. Slept while he played Dota. At night, need to go cousins bufdae party. Went with boyfie and mummy. Hmnn,…. Eat , walked around and talked. Quite romantic. Hehe.. on lappie, download drama and sleep..zzz

Sunday-  woke up, get ready and went to kl. Uncle fetched us from Sri Petaling. I freakingly dislike dislike dislike going there. Going to a place that doesn’t belong to me. I don’t like. There is a gap between us by money. Anyway, the show just start for a while and ended soon went cousin sister is sick and send us to Mid Valley. Shop with mommy at there. Bounce into lai ma and family. I’m so happy to see them. ^^ urghhh.. after shop then only saw a lot of things ngam me at momoe. Hmnn.. should have go there earlier. And then mom din get to buy her dinner dress. I spend quite a lot. Bags, clothes and shoes. Haizz… sinful sinful. But I feel like buying more better if I can buy whole range. Haha.. So, I decide maybe I cancel going to penang and shop more. Teehee…

Week11

Monday- huh…. I am stuck with all presents for the whole day. You guys better appreciate what I do for you all. And of course, I sincerely hope all of you like it. Hehee… is a little little surprise. ^^

Tuesday- here I am now. Sitting in front of lappie. Should be studying for French and Law. Hmnn.. later will kickstart. Mom went to try evening dress with auntie. Leaving me at home foodless. Ishh.. k la. Story stop till here. good luck to all my friends that sit for exams. 

and festive mood is officially ON!

Week 7 Term 5

It seems like moi did not blog for a while. Hehe.. get back in line. Coz I seriously wanna keep all my memories in words. They will be gone when people grow up. Sometimes I think back my childhood. I tot of, ehh… I used to do this, like that when I am that age. I use to think back my primary and secondary activities. Hmn.. tertiary activity is a little cacat-ed. I did not get to do things I want. Coz I got some other burden which say NO. For example, I wish I can drop by kl during weekdays. But transport is a main problem and most importantly, KL is different from Seremban. Not say u want go then can reach ald. Hehe…

So fast already reach Thursday of week 7. I remembered we need to submit articles and sit for our mid-term assessment. Huh.. Luckilly it was about eco-tourism. Hence, I can still remember some points that our group presented. After that, had our usual kitchen class. This time, we cooked salmon pate salad as starter, chicken for main course and crepe as dessert. During break time, I stayed back and fried French fries. Hapi hapi. Hahahas… the class ended earlier and we keep washing washing till finish. First time efficient sial.. hehe…

Friday- Beverage study class cancelled. Went for French class and straight head back to Seremban. This time, I brought a guest back together. It was Miche Miche. Hehee… She is attending her cousin wedding at PD and her uncle lives near my house. Weird right. We are actually this close to each other. This is first event of what I say “yuen fen”. Hahas.. Karen fetch us to Bandar Tasik Selatan. Thanks Karen. I owe u one chatime. Hahahhas… From there, we took ktm to Seremban. At thr, meet someone special. It was boyfiee… hehehe.. he missed a train. Therefore, he got to meet us.  2^nd event of “yuen fen”. Then we stop at NIlai. Koko and ah yee bring us back to Seremban. Reach le, we went to Sin Yit Sing for dinner at 11pm. Hhahaha… Miche got to try fish head meehon and salted eggie crabbie. That time, I feel like bringing my gang of friends to come Seremban and feed them till fat fat. Hahahas… Send her home and I back to mine too. Hehe… From the dinner, I tot of 1 thing. That is not to be so calculative. Not everything can be count. Many of us I mean me myself, I am stubborn in this. Sometimes I think not to owe people so I give exact amount. But some people refuse to take exact amount. I know some of you don’t mind the small amount of things. But I . . .  haizzz… Hmnn… I just got to know this lately. So, I will slowly learn this. Please forgive me if I am being too calculative. I know is a bad attitude. Will slowly be more lenient in future. Hehe.. One thing I can for sure is, if I am rich, this is not even a thing for me to tot of.

Saturday- went to hubby’s house whole day. When I’m back home, I got to know that, tomorrow is my cousin brother’s wedding. Too sudden. I did not even bring my make up set back. Huhu… 

Sunday- woke up early, dress up and went for yam cha sessions. Too my surprise, I saw Geraldine’s family. They are from the girl side. Hmnn.. this will be the 3^rd event of “yuen fen”. Why I say this is because Geraldine and I had been 11years of schoolmate. Out of a sudden, we became relatives. So koko’s wedding, we plan to invite them. Hehe… At night, went to Nilai Loong Sing for dinner. First time had my Buddha Jump over the Wall. All I can say is those expensive herbs thrown into the jug and slow cook. So the taste is kinda traditional. After dinner, 2^nd koko fetched me back to Sunway. Of course I took this opportunity to carry lotsa stuff. LOL. Reached home and dummmp….. sleep. Tired~

Week 8

Monday- yawn… class as usual. Is just we got French assignment at computer lab. At night start to prepare rdod miss Vivian notes for Wednesday assesment.

Tuesday- same same. During finance class, I skipped half of the class and went loitering at lab to print notes. Hehe.. and law class at that time is seriously serious boring lorh. Hehe… Continue to draft notes. Hehe…

Wednesday- early in the freaking morning is law. Sleepy. Can’t even concentrate. Weird thing is after that class, I am very energetic. Lol… study study study for RDOD arhhh… I din even get to study. Draft notes oni. Hehe.. Btw, that time we are actually preparing Ivan’s present. It was a book. And I think we scribble the book a lot. Cacated but memorable. Imagine he read the bookie 10years later. Sure there will be some sentimental moment of he misses us. Awwww… As usual, Chef Shaari class, nobody listen. Haha… During evening, we went to kitchen for tomrrow’s event mise en place. Our pastry side has everything ready thanks to Chef Karam. So, we helped appetizer and main course side. Around 9-ish… I went home. Rest well. But I am damn damn damn hungry. I did not eat anything except sweet potato tong sui. Arghhh… cannot keep tummy full. Woke up and grab a mamee monster. Still hungry but too late to cook Maggie ald. Somemore watching last episode of Forensic Hero during midnight is a wrong choice. Haizzz…

Thursday- Finance class was cancelled out of sudden. Lecturer sick for the 3574-times. Hahahs… then English got some debate at lecture theatre. Some of us present our article at there. I still not yet present o. >< after lunchie, we went to kitchen and start preparing. Do ar do… and our final product was too great to be true. It’s amazing attractic+ elegant. Have fun joining kitchen team and let go f&b team for once. Hehe.. And it’s different experience. I din noe kitchen actually end much more earlier than f&b. They still need to wash, count, arrange and briefing. Huh.. long process ehh… Hmn.. that night I have a tummy upset. Went to toilet for three times and spoilt 3 toilets. Oppsie… and the food I taste that night, I can’t remember their flavor. Coz I am sick. >< While waiting for Zhen Han and Lauren, both Lings and me chit chat till more and more not sleepy. Hoho… hmn… like this already one week. Time flies. Tomorrow go back Seremban le. Hehe..

Friday- urghhh… having a hard time to wake up. The bed and my body is like attached for thousands of years. Went to class, had lunch at dai chou. During evening, I quickly take bus to pasar seni. This time, I wanna try taking bus go back. I am not willing to take KTM le. It’s too terrible. As long as still early traffic is not bad, bus is the smarter choice. Hehe.. I reached Seremban at 6 o’clock. If ktm, sure wait 99. Manage to peep a while a Terminal. Ahhh… it’s Year End Sale. I wish I could go shopping. Don’t lock me at home pls… send me out somewhere. Hehe.. I gotta feeling of going to Times Square next week. At night, went to Hawaii for dinner. Very full. Hehe..

Saturday- a wake that doesn’t need alarm. Blissful. Hehe.. Went to hubby’s place and spend whole day relaxing. Huhu~

Week 9

Monday- today is public holiday. Yeshhhhh.. I am still at Seremban lorh. Tomorrow morning oni go back. Teehee… J in a dilemma weather should I go back Seremban this weekend or stay at kl. Hehe..

Tuesday- class at 1.30pm. So, woke up early went to buy breakfast and withdraw money. Hehe.. reached kl around 11am. Start to watch drama and move on slowly. Everything was slow and steady. Nyek nyek~ went for class as usual. Came back and prepared dinner. Very tired and slept quite early.

Wednesday- today got law class and rdod practical assessment. Class finished at 12noon. But I’m back at home at 1.30. stupid Taylor’s printing system. Keep cutting my money. Ishhh… Reached home and start my happy happy galla time. Hahahas… Firstly took bath. Weather too hot ald. Then watch the curse of royal healm. From epi8à epi 21. . Geng mou..? During that time, I got myself some yam ice-cream with nuts topping. At night, I cooked chicken porridge. Quite successful sial. I am so enjoying lerh. Hoho…

Thursday- Start my day with account mini test. Then English presentation and FO practical assessment. Voila~ all pass smoothly. Hehe.. Went to see Sir Adrian to make the thinking skill trophy. At night, I cooked long bean and fried chicken. They are yummieh till max. I am getting better and better in cooking jor. Hehe.. Seriously in dilemma. However, I’ve decide not to go back this week. Nx week after finance test, I just go back bah. Or stay at kl study also okie. Hhehe.. planned to go Broga Hill on Saturday. And Sunday go kl gai gai with boyfie. Suddenly heard news of boyfie wanna go Melaka with juniors. Dunnoe y my eyes teared. Am I sad bcoz I am going to walk in the mall alone..? or sad being ditch although I am the one who date him 1^st..? or sad because the scar is not recovered yet and got tear off again..? whatever it is, who am I to make decision for him..? I seriously cannot take the responsibility. I scared that he will regret! And then we chat for sometime at night. Huh~ again communication saved the day. A little toleration and support to change plan. Boyfie going to meet them on Friday after test and come back on Saturday. Sunday plan still go on. That time, I am freakingly happy. Somehow he had changed! To be a better man for me. Hahahas… Doesn’t need to shed a tear anymore. Fall into sleep with happy heart. ^^

Friday- again 8am class since Wednesday. Hmnn.. opera class was kinda fun actually. Sit there click here and there to answer question. Hahas.. and then Mr.Gopi class. Hmnn… next Friday is his final assessment. We went to Sukimye for lunch. I fell in love to eat with them every Friday. Is like a very signature place for most of us gather, chat and eat. Heard that we got less than 10days to meet each other. So, see my cutie little face more bah. Dun stalk me at Fb when you get to see a live one now. Teehee.. Had French class. Went home and start preparing tong yuan tong sui and fried rice. Eat and watch dramas. Is so relaxing. When I am eating tong yuan I think back my past. I use to hate this glutinous ball. As I grow older, I see things differently. Things that I dislike, became like, things I like, I treasured. A bowl of tong yuan showed me that when we are at different age, far from home, and alone, we accept things differently. And a good achievement is, I dunnoe how I manage to keep RM34 till now for this whole week. It seem like I don’t have the chance to spend. Hapi hapi. Before sleep, just got message from boyfie. He is at Melaka. I thought he will be playing and forget about me. Who knows he actually got flu and needed rest. Talked for a while before sleep. Yes, all I need is to know that you’re safe and sound. A little of bedtime stories can make me fall in love also. And we postpone Broga to Sunday because it rain.

Saturday- Woke up late in the morning. And then continue drama-ing. Prepare food for myself, bath and sit in front of lappie. Is such a nice weather for walk walk. I am in a good mood too. Spending some me time is a must to have a clear mindset. Hmn… I felt quite bad. I am planning to work during holiday and now ended up holiday being fully booked by family and friends. When tot of spending money, I am a little afraid. And my fellow friends are enquiring which intake I’ll go next year. The answer is I don’t know. If my sponsorship people want me to join april, I just need to guai guai de follow. If I can choose, I’ll choose September intake. Then I can spend some time earn pocket money to survive. Drag my degree to a longer period so I can graduate later. Last time, I use to think to graduate faster will be better. but now, i wanna drag my uni lifetime. hahahas... maybe after internship, we all know what is work life going to be like ady.

Sunday- slept quite late and woke up early. prepared myself. make up and dress up properly for the first time. so i can have a proper date. hehe.. went to Times Square. walk and walk. then hubby boy came. ate lunch. continue to shop. hmn.. spend quite a lot for a pair of heels and shoes. then bought all time favourite moisturizer and salt bath. this time is hubby boy's turn to eat lunch. continue shopping. plan to go petaling street. it was raining heavily at night. so can only walk walk at sg wang. Bought nothing at sg.wang. their clothes doesn't match me aldy. had dinner and went back sri petaling. very tiring. ><

invi~

i am so useless... i don't know how to make you understand what i want. hmnnn... sad arghh... i know it's small and not really important. but somehow it affects me. i just got a little not understand. :'(

The same movie. when i asked, you say you are going to download. i understand and accept this situation to download and watch instead of going to cinema.
You and went and watch with your friends...
when the movie is already downloaded inside your lappie.
Am i invi to you..?

I just don't understand you that well~

Week 6 Term 5

Huh…ha..hu.. ha.. till now, it has come to week 6. Thought that week 5 and 7 will be the terrible, who knows week 6 is the paling susah one. Aichocoooo... hahhaa… Well.. something memorable happen when you’re busy. J

Beginning of the week already get my mind set. I won’t be going back to Seremban. As Monday is a public holiday and Saturday got replacement class. Staying 1 day at Kl is not that terrible either. Sommore I got my assignment and assessment to rush on.

Tuesday itself already got Law tests. Hahas.. The lecturer was kind enuf to walk outside and make a chance for others. Ahem… Among all, I am quite proud that Ivan did himself all the way. “Ada tulang nafas” in Chinese. Then got meeting about our PA event. OMG…. I jump ship went to Kitchen. Unbelievable right. I am a F&B freak. I really cannot believe I actually wanna make pastry. Hahahha… Sometimes different environment can learn different things too. Enuf of F&B for a moment. Wakkakaa… While having discussions, I went off. Went to SunwAy with win jen and miche. OMGoshhh.. each time I went grocery shopping with miche, we sure buy a lot a lot. Luckilly this time I control myself, imagine the snacks I have at home and think of my Chocolatier. Hence, I spent lesser. Teehee….  

Wednesday, We need to hand up RDOD assignment. Mizzy was kind to let us extend the time. Vee.. I wonder is a good thing or bad one. Got the news that Mei Kee and Jean is coming on Friday. Wulalala~ is a brand new happy day. Quickly went on9 to check time.

Thursday, huh... at last we can take a breath. It’s Front Office. Not so tough and can go home early. hehe.. But hor, I remember I study till quite late. Ohh… Friday got Beverage study and French assessment. Poor thing for my friends that have service class yesterday night. Hmnn… This time I gonna burn my ass. I did not get to prepare for any assessment. I just realize how much time I spend on cooking. Opps… but gotta admit that I love it. ^^ You’re the apple on my eye’s ticket booked. Yesshhh.. At last can get to watch. Chat with daddy for some time. I know I got assessment, but when the timing is right and topic is available, I don’t feel like turning it down. I guess it’s magic. Hehe.. And I got a little surprise. Daddy said he might be coming. His words gave me thousand and 1 energy to study. Felt happy and energies.

Friday, Tadaa… the day had come. I am freaking tired. It came out that the assessment was quite easy but I study a lot of others thing. And French, I manage to do slowly. I am quite panic during French assessment as I don’t get to write. My hand hurts when I move em. Ewww…. Then, I still make mistake because I did not focus 100% to read bookie. Anyway, I promise myself to be good and score at final. I want my results to be as wonderful like me. Hehe.. Ahh…. I dress up like a hip-hop girl that day. Yo..babe.. wassup. Hahaha… After class, went home to take a shower. Thinking of taking a nap coz I seriously look like a zombie. Since jean+ Mei Kee+ petra were here, decided to go Sunway earlier. Wal walk around, chat here and there. Stop by chatime. Tried Strawberry au lait. Hmnn.. okie.. but can only drink once. Coz it’s creamy. I prefer roasted milky tea more.

You’re the apple of my eye…

Another awesome piece of work. It make me teared. Each time I step into cinema, I teared. It makes me feel those wonderful times when I’m in high school with my gang of girls. From this movie, I can see how strong the guy was in love with the girl when the guy ran and kiss the groom imagining he is her. It means how badly the guy wants her. However, they don’t get together in the end. Sometimes, things you don’t get will remain as perfect till the end. When you get it, you might neglect and appreciate less. Throughout the movie, many hilarious scene. Hahahhahahaha.. Laugh out loud. Daddy went to bbq party. I guess he is busy playing. So, shouldn’t disturb much. A goodnight message will do. J I thought this can persuade myself but it’s not the thing. After the movie, I tot of something’s. Fell asleep with tears that night. Hoohohoh…

After Friday is Saturday. Brand new day… Woke up feeling tired. Went to uni for Law assignment. Then, I saw him…. It’s daddy. Shout in heart…. Voila….!!!!! Unbelievable. Karen fetched him to Taylor’s. Thank cute very muchie ah sou… hahhaas.. This will be the 3^rd time he visit me. He was very tired so he went home to sleep. This time, Josephine and terry are in the house. A little afraid and awkward. Hehe… Before daddy can get into this house, he went to another block and another house. I am blurred. Luckilly ben reminded. If not, he will continue stuck in front of the gate. Ahhahas.. Continue with class and went for shooting again. It was peter got raped by yi ling. Hehe.. After shooting, we decided to have dinner 1^st. Too late and hungry for cooking. Ate at Zhia’s Kitchen. Nom nom nom. Some of them din see daddy before worh.. Now oni I notice. Hehe.. After that, went back home. I tot it was very late at night. Who knows it’s just 9pm. But I’m sleepy. We watched Forensic Hero’s while I do some assignment. When everything is done, we slept at opposite room. Drop some Teddy’s Dream aroma theraphy. Smell’s good. Hehe.. Chit chat a while. Chest to chest, nose to nose, we were just that close in this single bed. hahahahs... Was very very very very the tired and slowly fell asleep in his arms . . . 

Sunday morning… woke up and I saw daddy’s face beside me. Felt extremely happy and glad. He is sleeping next to me the whole night. Hahas.. After brush teeth teeth, grab a Snickers walk to Speedmart. We bought eggs and bread. But the journey was thoughtful. Hehe.. Reached home and I quickly prepare lunch. We had turkey ham and seaweed soup with rice. We watched Forensic hero. Btw, dessert of the lunch was Yam ice-creamo with nuts.. Lovely… hehe.. had snacks too.. Cheezels bbq is yummie. Around evening I start to boil red bean soup. And I am quite worry he got no transport to go back. I know daddy seldom+ dislike taking public transport. Somemore it’s far and waste time. So. . . . hmnn… butterfly in my tummy. Somemore I not yet write my essay. I don’t like keeping my work and not finishing them. I don’t like! In the end, he decided to take public transport also. Sighs… Then I cook salty eggie, mushroom chicken and bean curd for dinner. Got red bean soup for supper. Whole day internet line got problem. So daddy help me to fix. Arghh.. did not get to study or write my essay. Quickly start drafting. That time, I am a little tired ald. Cook and wash. Anyway, essay still need to be written. When I am at 2^nd paragraphs, I gave up. That time, terrible sleepy. It was him. Daddy accompany me and guide me to finish the rest. Thanks to him, I’ve finish my essay earlier. At that time, I am soo touched. He did not read his notes and help me to think. Awww… hahaahs… When everything finished, quickly went to bed thinking I got assessment the next day.

Week 7

 Monday blue~

Woke up at 8am and start preparing breakfast for me, miche and daddy. It was “ai xin” breakfast k. hehe.. Dress up and go to class. Thinking got English tests. Mana tau postpone to Thursday. Aiyak.. Anyway, I am extreme happy when I know I’ve done my essay. Just found out my articles not enuf and got problem with pasting. Ewww… And daddy went to take U623à to pasar à U70. Hmnn.. he came down earlier and need to walk to pasar. An hour journey became 3 hours. I know something like that will happen. Coz I’ve experienced plenty of time. I thought he might get to escape. It’s okie. Now he knows how to go back already. Hehe.. My Finance+ English is 80% finished. So, I am quite relaxed. Hehe.. watched new drama liao.

Tuesday- Went for French replacement class and got 4 hours break. Found a lot of articles that time. Today we are supposing to hand up Law assignment. Because editing video and shooting is most of their part, I felt like I did nothing. Hmn.. and I felt sorry for ah young. He had a tough time editing those videos. I really hope that we can actually did it earlier, got time for him to edit, able to criticize and improve. I always believe that hard work always pays. Since it’s a last minute work we can oni get 18/20. All I can say that is, ah young is very professional in editing videos and he look handsome when he is seriously serious. Huh… Hopefully next round we can be “shang shing” a bit. Don’t all kelam-kabut and do last minute. I believe last minute work is a no quality work. Be prepared. I cooked porridge for dinner. Hooray.. First time work with salted eggies and century egg. It turns out to be perfect. Yummy-licious. Wakakkaa… And I touch up on my assignment bit by bit and watch drama’s. Too relax for me to study. Ishhh.. wake up!

Today is Mercredi… Went to class 8am feeling very sleepy. Hehe.. Went for pastry class. We made poached pear and trifle. The bread dough.. aiyalkk.. forgot to bake. Tomolo need to make again. Suddenly rain heavily when we wanna go home. I am thinking, it’s nice to walk under the rain with music... Once I reached home, drizzling and rain stopped. Haizzz… Need to cook dinner now but owner is using kitchen. Took this opportunity to blog everything. Tonight, I will finalize my draft with essay and articles. Everything will be complete by tomolo. Voila… I wanna have a semi nice weekend. Coz I know I don’t deserve to have a wonderful one as my screw my mid-term. Final is my chance to score. I play hard and study smart.

One question at the moment,

Very brave accept it as a challenge or avoid it as a problem..?

too many work to do

Inner peace inner peace…

Ohm mali mali ohm…

I’m trying.. trying very best not to rely. Trying very best to be independent in all aspect. Taking responsibility of my life à future. Well, just let me do things I want and be myself. I am happy now. Who care if it’s a critic or compliment. I live my own life. I don’t satisfied people who are a random passerby in my life. I love+protect those who care for me nia. J

One question… till now, I still wondering is grooming very important..? 

is 1^st impressions > your character+ attitude..? 

if it’s that important, I guarantee you will judge me wrongly. Hahhahaas…

I am a person who rather you

“Hate me for who I am, but not love me for who I am not”

Week 5 Term 5

Hehehehe… freaking exhausted!

Yeap… at last week 5 had ended smoothly. Smurfilly ends…

Worked for Westin who organized TGA international golf tournament. Not really into the tournament compare to F1 but got to see the way they work and so on. At this event, I did something terrible and I foresee I will not do such thing again. Not until I am in desperate mode. I am clear about that but too embrassing to be mention here. Guilty is in me and I’m sorry. 

Well 2 days of work made me earned RM250 pocket money. *tink tink* cashier sound. $$$ however, they cut off rm30 for some epf thingy. Hmmn.. whatever. I’ve decided to buy I-pod touch. It’s just rm700 and it’s white in colour. I plan to named it white chocolate. Nyek nyek nyek.. with this i-touch, I can do my hobby, reading/ listening to radio/ watch drama anywhr and anytime. Main reason I want it is because I needed one ald. My handphone is sick nowadays. I seriously cannot afford+ not interested in i-phone. This is the best choice!

After this event, I felt that, time will pass no matter how u spent it. You spent it wisely or just wasted hours and hours in FB, dramas, sleeping or day-dreaming. Hence, putting some time in work to earn easy cash , studies as i'm still a student, assignment, outing with friends can make my day full. It will be tough if I don’t manage them well. But but but… you will feel it is worth it coz time will NOT go back to that moment which you should had done something with your friends. And I get to create more memories in my life! I want to earn money by my own effort and buy things that I want. Like that, I won’t feel guilty or unhappy because of no money to spend. I’ll get satisfaction and proud of myself. Not every child relies on their parents to solve their own financial problem. At least I did my best before I burden my family members.  

Monday had a talk about a lady who became first in French service competition. After that did some mise en place for the next day service. Huh…Did a little assignment. tired sial…

Tuesday… went to uni and start preparing for the dinner. Had lunch together and prepare together. Practice together and serve together. We did food presentation on BE MY GUEST! It reminds me of fan dance.. aww… We did a great job that day. I am looking up on everyone and I am definitely born to serve. Hehe.. Continue on assignment. I seriously want to eat the ice-cream I bought. Everytime also cannot get to eat. And my fruit rojak. Arghhhhh….

Wednesday... After four days of service, at last I take a day break from F&B. Class ended up early and I can help but to take a nap. After that cooked dinner. Spare some time to chat with hubby and studied for finance test the next day.

Thursday.. Had account assessment early in the morning. After that is English class and is a free thing. Met juniors to discuss about their assignment. Great. They did not have any idea yet. Olalala~ And went for service class. Haizzz… service again. This time, we did a better job. Ended earlier and getting there. Just a little more and we will be strong. PSR report… T.T After bath, I had some chit chat time with hubby. I guess he really miss me badly that he chat with me until late night. Huh… it’s 2am. And I continue doing assignment + packing until 3.3oam.

Friday… Omgoshhh.. I am late late late…Should woke up at 8am-à 9.30am ald. Class is at 10am. Oh my… quickly rush rush. Need to print and hand up assignment. Luckilly I’m on time. Phew~ had porridge for lunch. Tummy is not feeling well. Went to take train and go back Seremban. Although it’s 1 hour kl-sban. It took me 3hours to reach. Ishhh.. because of holiday everywhere is jam. KTM stuck like hell. I did not complaint anything. Without ktm, how am I suppose to go home every weekend. So, shh… inner peace. J

The routine for this week is very pack. I am up and down. Barely have enough time for other things. It’s a good sign. My life is happening. Is just everyday also not enough of sleep. I got the feel of doing queen guide. No matter how impossible the task is, it will be done by tomorrow.

Saturday- means today. I went out with jean+ mei kee. Sing k as usual. We are the best companion to sing k. hehehe… coz inside the room got 3 mic oni ma. kekez… Walk walk around. Did not see anything nice. So, keep my money for I touch better. Anything that require me to spend $, please don’t offer me. I’m gonna reject you. ^^ 

Week 3 Term 5

Yet another hassle week after everything. HUhu....
Last Monday planned for stayover at Suriamas. However, i cannot make it coz i've promise win jen to cook tom yam for that night. Sorry elaino+ the gang. :)

Last Tuesday, it was sushi bonanza. We went to nom nom nom at Sunway Pyramid as class started late. We do drop by Mentari Court for bubble tea. I was too blooded full with sushi~ <3
At night, we cooked simple yet yummie dish as dinner. Herbed chicken, steam tauhu, last but not least is my kei ma's awesome sambal. We did boil red bean+ tong yuan as dessert! How full i am. arhhh... And after everything, we went to RT cakehouse and grab some pastry. Miche is in love with black sesame nowadays. And i would say it's healthy. So, no doubt eating more healthy food right. hehe... ^^

Last Wednesday, woke up early in the morning beriya-iya prepare lunch for myself and miche and breakfast for win jen. Thanks to win jen, our lunchbox we prepare on time! We had sorta nasi lemak and red bean desserts as lunch. muahahhaha... At night, we went to connought pasar malam with miche miche and win jen. Walk in rain. So damn romantic lorh. Ate some junk and snacks. After that, we headed to William's Corner. OMGosashhhh~~~
We ate garlic cheese naan, sandwiches and my roti special with a big glass of Herb's Longan. We ate like gg.com.very full. And again miche bought black sesame cake. lalalala~

Last Thursday after class, we headed to NSK a wholesale hypermarket i would say to buy some grocery and fresh ingredients for BBQ... First time being at there and we all buy like there's no limit in out purse. Everything look so tempting. aww... hahahas... At last, we spent RM 250 for bbq stuff and me myself very kind, spend Rm15 for food again! Bought rojak sauce, peanuts and seaweed. All gonna be awesome to prepare food at home. I'm so in love with food~ After NSK, we headed to OUG pasar malam. muahhaha.. When there is a pasar malam, there will be asam laksa!!! Ate asam laksa for dinner. Slurppps till max. Btw, i drink bitter water to prepare myself not to fall sick after bbq. When home and start washing+ trimming+ marinating stuff till midnight. arghhhh.. i wish someone could save me. I don't have enough sleep. Everytime is like head-ache and i've got no time to finish up my assignment. I don't so work at night to take care of my skin. Woke up early in the morning to cook yummie food and i like it. So, assignment has been abandon. :(

Last Friday Night~
After class, actually all of us don't have the mood to have class. lalalalaa~ still need to stay back for some westine meeting. On and all, we are ready to go. hehe... Yi ling+ zhen han + lauren and i in the car. Tutu~ went to kepong le. On the way, very understanding de zhen han on soft music to keep us asleep. Thank cute. ^.^ Firstly stopped at IKEA. WE ( elaino, yi ling, lauren, meeee) bought the same ikea lamp. It's white in colour and damn cun-ted. i'm in love with it and no doubt need to own it. hahahas... After ikea and went to ivan;s house. Hmmnnn... His house design is very modern and unique together with some feng shui. Ahhh.. the batman glass is so outstanding. And his room. At such a young age he ald got a nice bedroom with walk in closet attached with toilet. Ewww...somehow resembles that man. @.@
it was raining heavily when we reach and never stop. We started bbq quite late. Hmnn... i do learn that bbq doesn't need to have a lot of charcoal for the first time. Ate, chat, clean up and ready to sleep. Nooooo~ nobody is allowed to sleep. Hence, it's the true or dare sessions. What a scary game i would say. Is also first time playing. one of the most embarrassing moment of life! =.=''' Slept at 5am.

Next day, Saturday woke up and sleep again. HOhoho... Prepared ourselves with brunch. And everyone seem to be post hyperactive syndrome. Sit and stare and do nothing. Everyone is tired ba..hahahas... Around 4-ishh we ciao~ Took ktm from kepong straight back to Seremban. Woohooo... i do scard take the wrong train. But it was fast, guranteed a seat. Nice nice also.
Reached home at 6pm. After 30minutes i fell asleep till next day. O.o
at last~ i get to rest well. phewww....

i am like a zombie now. being a mass of matter and soul is nowhere to be found. i wonder who snatch my soul away without me noticing.

Invincible Boyfriend 3

Dear daddy,

Today teddy woke up and receive a message to call daddy in the morning. Because yesterday night cannot reach daddy. L Teddy woke up at 6am and of course not wanting to disturb daddy. In addition, back to our normal life, where we only chat at night, teddy not willing to spoil that. A whole day was busy. 10am went to uni to find junior as teddy became mentor for DH40. Then went to Sushi King and had Sushi Bonanza. Muahahhahaha… Love Love the food. Hapi hapi.. Go class, went home and start cooking. Yay.. Today cook de dish very yummie o. Got steam tauhu, sambal and herbal chicken. Nom Nom Nom… hahahhaass… Then got make red bean tong sui add “tuan tuan yuan yuan de tang yuan”. Yipie… After that went to RT cake house bought cheese cake and jelly. Slurpssss…. Tummy is so full e. hehe.. When daddy called, teddy is not settle yet. Still got pots to wash, things to organize. So cannot concentrate to talk to daddy. This is what teddy want to tell daddy about teddy’s day. Guess there is not enough time, teddy just need 15more minutes to settle everything. Sorry~

Teddy felt that, maybe when the other soul is busy, the one missing badly+ want to go oioi just can only wait patiently or sleep alone. So sad right….

Teddy just want to have a goodnight talk with daddy.

Goodnight daddy… muaccckss…. Muaexxxx… mmmuahhh… meeemmuacckss… so many “mek mek” because daddy miss miss teddy and teddy did miss miss daddy too. Hahahhas… I love you,daddy!  

Invincible Boyfriend 2

Dear daddy:

Tonight daddy is at junior’s house when teddy called. Daddy half way game so didn’t get to tam tam teddy go oioi. Teddy just want to say I miss you. Gudnight daddy. mmuaccksz… I love you. Like this jiu can sleep well+ dream of daddy le. ;-) 

Week 2 Term 5

Bonjour~ hahhahas... Let see what teddy has done for last week.

MOnday blue- After class straight away went home. Take a nap. Re-arranged my room with miche. After that, cook burger as dinner. Sinful xia with the cheese+ burger patties+ eggs at 10pm. muahhaha..

Tuesday- Went to Sunway with miche using rapidkl. Miche wanted to get a new sim card. Maxis don't allow cause she has no ic. But she could manage to buy Digi's. LOL. We shop for some grocery like pasta, snacks and even tubs of ice-cream. We do not know when and how are we going back home yet insist to buy my yam ice-cream and miche's chocolate ice-cream. :) after buying, we are WALKING BACK HOME. HOHOHO... it was my first time either and numerous times for miche. haha... on the way, we stop by 99 Mart and Speed Mart. From my experience, Speed Mart stuff are cheaper. Eggs, tom yam paste and even rock sugar. Next time can buy a lot of things from there. hehehe.. Went home, had dinner and rest well.

Wednesday- it is one of our big day. After class, Win Jen (my housemate) fetch me from uni. Then, we start preparing fish chop. It's not fish & chips as we did not prepare french fries. ^.^ that day dinner was a nother sinful one. We ate a A LOT A LOT of cheese. it's so cheezy and fats. muahhahaha... it an enjoyable one.

Thursday- The remarkable thing was first serving class with Mr.Gopi. This guy is an interesting soul that you would never want to miss out. Our serving class is until 11.30pm. GOshhhh... is okie for me, as long as we learn!

Friday- class ended 1 hour earlier. then we spend some time to make a bracelet for yi ling as birthday present. This was the 2nd time i'm celebrating yi ling's bufdae. Still remember, last year was a bash. As usual, teddy is taking a bus+train back to hometown. Ahhh.. it's so good to be back home. Relaxing.There are peoples waiting to see me. Like daddy, mummy, koko, friends and more. Hence, how can i miss a chance to go back and visit them..? i might be working overseas next time. I am not someone who regret in the decisions i've made. Whatever i have now, i'll do it the best.

Saturday + Sunday..? i like to hide myself and hook myself with a lot of dramas. hehe..

a girl

A girl for life,

Not necessary need to be pretty,

When the night is full of shooting stars,

You can't see the person sleeping next to you,

You can feel her undying love for you,

You can listen to her soft voice,

Own a beautiful heart is more than enough.

Every night, is a goodnight sleep with sw33t reams~

Invincible Boyfriend 1

Dear daddy,

In daddy’s mind, teddy should be sleeping now. Teddy knows daddy is outside with friends so don’t want to disturb. Very sleepy le. Wanna go oioi. How good if can get to listen daddy’s voice and fall asleep smoothly. haha… Miss miss daddy till T.T le. How was today’s pbl, leader..? talked a lot..? haha… Play volleyball very fun de ar..? Volleyball how many bear bear can play de..? Today teddy very tired o. Yesterday sleep late. Today after dinner got ‘fa sang wu tong sui’ drink e. hapi hapi. Hahaha… After writting to daddy feels much better. Good night hubby… muaccks… I love you too. ^^

It’s better to write here. At least daddy will not have chance to end the conversation quickly (as usual when daddy at outside and ask teddy to wait for call). Teddy is too tired to wait for calls le. 

Then only realize, actually is cannot fall asleep one. Haizzz…

2nd internship

Internship is over now!!!!! Hoorayyyyyyyyyyyyyy…..

God bless… I seriously want to end this freaking troublesome internship.

Compare to the 1^st one, this intern very very the terrible. L

First of all is because the Arab season and I’m in housekeeping. So, it’s super duper busy+ tiring. Thanks to it also, time flies and I smoothly goes to 2^nd department. Thanks to it also, I get to know more about the hotel operations and clean toilet as a professionals. Hahas…

Then, I got bored by the second department, front office. Haizz.. my tasks is not something different but to stand at the lobby 7hours and 15mins. Guess what, the other 45mins is break time. I could see the stress they have at reception and how people behave. Well, none of my business. Standing at lobby, I will think of a lot of things. Think from A-Z. Hmnn… like that I finished 3 weeks. Got 1 month is I went to club lounge. Quite enjoy time being there as somehow they attach to f&b. And got my biggest tips for now which is rm100. However, I still prefer a place named Mandarin Grill. Teehee…

If I were given a chance to choose where I want to stay, I seriously don’t want to stay at Bukit Jalil. I rather travel 2hrs a day to work and 2 hrs to go back home, Sunway. Like that, I’ll not be a burden and interrupt someone’s daily routine and social life.

In return of my greed,

I don’t feel secure; has hope or faith in my lover anymore. I always wanted to know his opinion before making decision coz I respect him as part of my soul mate. I don’t want him to get hurt. However, he makes decision without even thinking about my feeling. When I say I don’t like it or I mind, he continue to do it as if everything is alright. Can’t he just put himself in my shoes..? His stand to have fun with friends is so strong that he don’t even tolerate with me.

This is how I felt over the past 3 months. Now, it’s over liao. Of course things get better when we don’t stay together. As I don’t get to see+ know how he flirts with other girls and treat them good. When I got things+ friends to keep me busy I won’t attach to him so often. Hahas.... Every time we stay together sure got problem one.

This time I am sure is none of our fault. We understood each other very well. Is the situation + timing geh fault lorh. Firstly he went to Sabah. I am sure he got some influences and strengthens their friendship leads to some changes. He is forever a hardcore fan of Dota which can’t talk to me. Then attachments at Penang which make his thinking mature pulak. Hehe.. Can’t run away with long orientation and events with juniors. 

All events come one by one. Attitude and thinking changed. Misunderstand can be so deep. How to handle lerh..? As I am so near to him, I am too free nothing to do and over concern everything about him. Even I felt creepy now. Oopsie~ 

No matter how I dislike the way he act or what he say, there is still a way that I can tolerate and forgive him de wor. Don’t you think it’s weird..? Hence, I conclude that I am a girl that loves him unconditionally. He is not that bad either. Just need to knock his head and remind again and again to get his attention. From this whole thing, I learnt that whatever difficult situation that happen between us, we could hand hold hand and settle it. Nothing is impossible. Our love is real! J

Now imma getting holidaysss for 1 week. Gonna pack and get ready for term5. Soon will be back to uni and meet mes amie. Miss miss them. Huh~ so tired. ^.^

Existance

it's been a long time i has not listen to this song.

Ahhhhhh~ 

feel good...

this song is dedicated to people around me

my family

my relatives

 my daddy

my buddies

my friends

my strangers

yess... i am teddy and i exist in your surrounding

please be aware of my existence

i ain't something you can't see or feel

don't ignore me anymore

coz i'll feel lonely

thank cute

my dear sweetheart

It's good you're having fun with your university friends,
you're teaching me to appreciate my university friends too


It's good you always play Dota when i'm around,
because you want me to support you


It's good you give lesser call and text messages everyday,
you want to tell me your exciting day face to face


It's good you let me waited for you every night,
because you know i don't sleep well without your sincere goodnight wish


It's good you bring me along everywhere,
so i'm ever ready just when you needed me


It's good you let me be alone when i needed you the most,
you're training me to be strong by my own


It's good you do not spend much money on me
you want to save them all for our marriage


It's good you did not spend much time on me daily,
you're spending your whole life with me


It's good you wish i could look beautiful,
so you can keep an eye on me and not other girls


It's good you got attracted by other girls,
that prove I've got a good taste


It's good you do not hold to the past feeling,
you said each and everyday our love is better than yesterday


It's good you let me plan everything,
you're training me to be your family planner


It's good you got crush on other girls,
so you'll know i'm still the best for you


It's good you let me tolerate you most of the times,
and that is the way i tolerate our kids


It's good you did not accompany me shopping,
you believe in my choice


It's good you rather tell white lies,
because the truth hurt deeper


It's good you let others to hurt me,
so i could learn to heal my little heart


It's good you speak hurtful words to me sometimes,
because you're speaking to my heart


It's good when you care lesser,
you wish i could be independent by my own


It's good you are able to hurt me,
it shows that how important you're to me


It's good you did not consider my feelings before doing something,
you simply want me to get use to the real you


It's good you did things that i don't like,
because you're training my patients


It's good you're changing,
when you're in a different circumstance


It's good you did not realize my dream,
you want me to achieve by my own


It's good you ditch me for your friends,
you're just teaching me to control my tears


It's good you tell lies,
you want me to learn trusting you blindly


It's good you get bored with our relationship,
as you has been loyal the whole time


It's good you allow me to cry whole night,
you're telling me that crying doesn't solve problem


It's good you did things that make me jealous,
you're testing my love for you


It's good that you don't defend me,
you want me to learn a lesson


It's good that you don't protect me,
you wish i am able to protect myself


It's good when you don't remember things about me,
you hope i can remind you from time to time


It's good you don't listen to me,
you're a man that has own opinion


It's good that you keep secret from me,
you're training my curiosity level


It's good that you're not dedicated,
you want me to tell you what i want honestly



It's good your love for me become lesser,
you're giving me a chance to fill em up again

love U U

i personally liked this movie and video because it remind me of my early years of my high school love. 

so, i love it.

this movie is so lovely ^^

and

there is a phrase that i support

don't appreciate, then need to break up

hohoho....

the ugly truth

when you're alone,

i held your hand tight,

when you're contented,

you let go my hand.

thank cute for reminding me friends > soul-mate.

for you that searching for fresh feeling and has your favourite girl beside,

you're having the best time of life

while you left me behind in dark

expecting me to accept your change

guilty was not in your library 

thank cute for letting me know that human is selfish.

last question is:

because of love, there is demand..?

or

because of demand, there is love..? 

i'm trying

Hahahahhaha...

muahahhaa...

imma deactivated fb already.

at last i've got the courage to do so. T.T

there are 2 main main reasons for me to take this action.

1: because of FB, i got hurt from friends.

2: because of FB i got hurt from . . .  some of the things i rather he tell me personally and precisely FIRST than me getting know tru 3rd party (friends/ FB). u and i also know FB is just a tool to stalk. haizzz....

to end all HURTS, i decide to chop off from the roots. 

at least i don't see, i don't know, i'll feel better. T.T

yeappp... i wanna be as happy as a lark.

just like these bear bear~

and the good thing is, i can concentrate more on bloggie and msn. wee... :)))

 

last but not least....

XOXO- teddy with love. ^^

a little update

Hohoho…. Long time din update my bloggie ald. Coz recently nothing special happen. Hehe.. ohh ya.. I’ve change department from housekeeping à front office. Staying away from housekeeping is my greatest relieve. No.. settle one major problem in my life is like I can breathe again. Housekeeping first. It was like my last week already. Then only I can change uniform into supervisor and learn to supervise. I thought it will be like that. Who knows. Wearing a supervisor uniform still need to clean toilet. What~!!!! It’s okie. Used to it already. At night, when we are doing turndown, I really like the atmosphere and spirit of turndown compare to morning ( room attendant shift). Alright. 

Last 3^rd day, I went to become PA- just walk and walk around the hotel. Lol.. the kakak really teaching me “something”. hahahhas.. Last 2 days, I went to florist with Jac. Hulalaa~ best best day ever in housekeeping. So relaxing facing those flowers. And first time cutting 5oo stalks of roses.. roses are red, violet are blue, . . .  and I dunnoe how to continue already. Teehee.. we even follow the chef of flower to send grand flower stand to Pavillion for Mayflower during Tokyo Street opening. A free trip. More galla. Hahaha.. Last day, I became desk clerk pulak. Huh… sit there do nothing for whole morning, coz desk clerk said she will teach me after lunch break. Mana tau, occupancy high, they need assistance to clean room. So, it will be me. T.T no matter what uniform I wear, I can never run away to become a toilet cleaner. So, what is the point of asking us to change uniform and try different role in housekeeping..? Noob.

By the way, just wanna share a bit. Is about daddy and i. we got some seriously serious matter last week. He did not notice but I told him already. Kinda weird. I dunnoe how to react and handle. All I know is, I love him very very muchie o. hope our relationship will be bless. I do really wanna hold his hand and walk the rest of our life together. Only him.  I only want him to take care and love me. It must be him. =)

it’s okie.. amoi now in front office department. Great. I got a great trainer at there. Responsibility and all sort of moral value she has. With great trainer, I’ll have great training. And I enjoy myself at Front Office. I hope Jac can faster come to Front Office and join me. Hooray… hahahas.. and thanks to her. Because of her, I got back to Seremban early and get to meet daddy before he depart to Penang for 3 weeks. She stayed until 11pm for my last day and volunteer for afternoon shift- coz I got no train to go back after 11pm. Kinda dangerous to rush last train and walk back home.

Thank cute Jac and sorry. Because of me, you stayed till 11pm at work and 12am was your bufdae. Yesss.. I must treat you something for your kind heart. :P

Alright that's all. I just wanna ask, why do people does not like third party, little three aka xiao san in a relationship lerh..? can share with me… hehe..

Till then. Teddy~ 

The 9th Day

My brain oh my brain~ keep thinking about one thing since I am on train coming back from work.

I am an assist for those kakak during this Arab season. They used to say I am better than Jac in cleaning which I think its self preferences. Each individual has different working experiences. So, don’t compare both of us!!!! It hurts not only Jac, but me also. I felt it!!! Then, this kakak XX heard or know that I clean faster. So, she pick me instead of Jac EVERYDAY. I am like help, help, somebody please help me… I try to give signal that I don’t want to pair with her, they just ignore me. I felt sad. Each time I know imma gonna pair with her, I got moody, unhappy, dun smile, just like a zombie. L

Today, I did not follow the kakak XX for room cleaning. Instead, I follow another kakak, a supervisor and a guy. Hooray… imma free from hell. Very happy, grateful that I does not need to assist her. Working with her made me mentally stress. She loves to drag her work, mumble a lot a lot with her irritating voice and complaint complaint complaint. I just can’t get along with her attitude. One word- demotivate. T.T

Okie.. basically this is why I don’t like to pair with her.

1. She uses to delay working time. Early in the morning, she’ll go pick up things and clear the pantry slowly. After that, check room status. She is taking her own sweet time to just make the bed. I’ll wash the bathroom, does wiping and even clean the kitchen, plus vacumn soon as possible. She doesn’t rush at all. She will does her room one by one as she like, and then 4pm, she’ll try persuading me to stay until 4.30pm to help her. I am helping you, rushing for you, yet you slow down. Hence, there is no reason for me to stay back with you. You are getting paid by ot, what about me..? Are you going to share half of your ot salary with me..?

2. BRIBE. Yess.. She bribes me with fruits and good treat. However, I am someone who can only be bride with quality of work and standard performance. If you can show me what you’ve done. Yess, you can bride me with that. Other things, I am not interested.

3. Instead of finishing her own task, she loves people to help her. Everyone will have one or two assistances, she request more than that. Imagine 6 people cleaning 1 apartment with her because she just can’t get her timing right. I’ve been following her for days, I know pretty well about her attitude. She can’t lie to me. And she will steal people’s linen, fruits from other people pantry. I felt bad for those who has been preparing.

4. She speaks loudly with her very sharp voice and keep mumbling to herself. Saying there is a lot room to clean, Arabian’s room, check out room, many many reasons and even used me as one of the reason which I hated the most. When you’re cleaning, you can shut your mouth and focus in your work. Instead, she keep mumbling, complaint and complaint. I felt frustrated and de-motivated.

 Omgoshhh… I don’t want to work with lazy bum bum.

 I tried to tolerate, but I’ve got my limit too.

These past few days, I’ve became a zombie.

The story begins like this. Today, I told a kakak that I hope no need to work with kakak XX or maybe go to her floor. I really really hope to work with other ppl. But kakak XX always, everyday also picked me instead of Jac to work along. I also forgot start from when I assist her.

Then, somehow I dunnoe why, kakak XX got to know that I talk bad about her ( which I am actually not willing to work with her only), she got shocked. She called a supervisor, pass the phone to talk to me and start all her drama~ oppsie~ and I was like o~ e~ en~ tak adalah~ . . .  keep quiet and wash toilet on the 8^th floor while she is on the 6^th floor. Keep talking on the phone which I felt whatever. There is no need to explain.

And then, suddenly, she came up to 8^th floor to talk to me. Hmnn.. kinda expected. She would just leave her work to do unnecessary work. She asked me, what I’ve told others and I said I forgot. In mind my thinking, you got a lot more apartment to do and got time come up here to find me..??? I’m just a trainee. Am I worth wasting your time..? hahahas.. 

she really wanted an answer, so I told her,

“ yes… I don’t like to pair up with you. You did not ask me to do those chores, I choose to do it myself, but your attitude and words gave me a huge headache. So, it is okie..? understand..?”

Whoa… she said sorry to me. =.=’’’ then I said sorry to and get back to my work not even wanted to glance at her for 2^nd time. Ciao~ that’s it.

I am not wrong or right either. I am just being honest and straight to my heart. I cannot accept people that does short cut. Is not me. Sorry….