Very Soon

Very soon. Very soon jiu will end this 2^nd last term of my 4 years education.

They say when you are about to die, you will think of all those times when you were younger. I don’t know why, recently, I kept on thinking about the first first time I joined Taylors. Before receiving scholarship. Elder brother fetched me to my first hostel. It all started that drizzling evening when I swear to myself, sacrificing everything I aimed to be here. I must succeed in whatever I do. The least I want is to let my family members down. I know what it is happening around me. The only thing I wish to see is to make them feel proud of me. I remember I don’t have anything. Didn't have bank card, just some money, with my baggage and voila. I reached. That night was the first night I slept alone outside. Excited, nervous, full of curiosity of how tomorrow going to be like.

Slowly, I met some friends and continue my living. From strangers became someone who impacted my life. Pictures of how I first talk to my  first uni friends, Elaine, and then we always eat at Crispy Popiah, my first group mates during geography class where I can’t remember their Chinese name, and then met Yi ling. She being blurred the most and cutest. Haha.. We have got the big noisy group, Ben, Peter, Chin Yoong, Loke, Sherene, Grace, Diana, Sherlyn, and my first Indonesian friend, Lauren I saw all of them at kitchen class. And our first kitchen class was crème caramel. All these first feeling, is flashing around me. All those unhappy memories in NO1 house is being reflected too. Because I got only another four months here. 

 

Front Office Class

Help Yi Ling move to hostel

Came back from shopping at Sunway Pyramid

Our very first product. Wearing formal inside kitchen!!!

She.....................

Our first soft roll

The Legendary Starbucks Planner

First Kitchen Class

Moi toolbox... 

First time chef cooked and we ate like hooligan... 

Even the bone is not left out!

Le simple dinner with Yi Ling

Off to Granny's Kitchen

The time when i'm lost >.<

But i met good good friend

Bollywood Night!

Played during kitchen class

Oh yeah... We selca a lot.

Chop vegetables into many many patterns

(2010) Le auntie: Girl, how long are you going to study..?

Me: four years….

(2012) Me: …two years… next year graduating…

(2013) Me: still got another four months… My actual graduation will be either (2014/2015).

I’m glad. Really glad that each term/ semester, I did my very best. Thou I know I can be more robotic, evil, cruel to myself and perform extra ordinary well, I choose to live like a human. Make some minor mistakes, enjoy and play while studying. 

It’s all thanks to my friends. Seriously, without their patience and cover up, I may not be as happy as I am now. Perhaps little people understand how I fight previously. I don’t blame anyone or hate anything. It doesn’t matter if I’m born poor. It matter if I never put in effort to die rich. 

Thanks to those friends that tolerate my abnormal speaking, unique attitude, and super introvert where I’ll want to go home each time weather its hostel here or Seremban. 

You guys deserve the best of me because you guys pick me up and did not abandon me when I’m at downtime. Through you guys, I learnt a lot. I learnt to be honest, I learnt that $ is not everything. I learnt about social class, learn how to spend like a boss, eat good food, shop like a girl (cause I just lazy to do shopping unlike the godlike shopaholic Ah Ling), everyone patterns, about this and that a little. 

Thou sometimes it’s exhaustive being with you guys, you guys showed me friendship/ relationship no need talk so much. Understood can already. And most importantly, improved my relationship skills. Not everything can be fair and square. Will have losses and gain. Doesn’t matter in time. Sour, sweet, bitter, spicy also tasted with you guys. The signature of our group is, each and every one of us have mini tummy. Haha… Perhaps we ate the similar stuff for so long together, so xiao tummy also grow together. Teehee… 

I superb appreciate this lifelong education and journey. Obviously it’s not a smooth road where everything is prepared well by my parents like some of my course mate, this make me know its value more. I am not scared or afraid of any difficult subjects, I am only afraid no education given to me. Time seriously pass.

I’m grateful for choosing this course too. After all these years, in the end, I am still the happy me when carrying a tray moving around serving varies type of people. Kayy. Enough of reflections. Let’s go back to reality study mood. 
Just one question, I won’t be asking in front of you guys, what do you think of me when you first met me and now..? haha.. 

Good luck for all of us who will be sitting for our final. Remember to do your very best and keep it up up up till the very last moment. I’m praying everyone to be successful together gather. 

October That Got Stolen

Huh… it’s been a month since I blog about anything. Time flies just like that. I've drown myself into the river of literature review. All for the sake of my dissertation which can lead to a peaceful 3 months part time without any academic constraint early next year.  

For what I've remembered, I manage to go out for lunch and sometimes dinner with my friends. And then most of the time, I’ll be eating, sleeping, typing, assignment-ing and jogging. Haha.. I seldom went back to my hometown le. Cause travelling takes up a lot of my precious time. And then I’m less productive over there. I slack a lot. A lot means, I don’t do homework and just roll on bed all day. I can wake up at 2 pm and sleep at 2 am. Play for 12 hours sleep non-stop 12 hrs. Sometimes take afternoon nap also. This is me in hometown because it’s too comfortable.

Back then in Taylor hostel here, I’m super-duper productive. I woke at 6.30 am then go for jogging 30 minutes. Hopefully can do it every day. Haha.. Waking up early in the morning before the sun comes out is a beautiful+ touching moment with chilly morning breeze. Watching sunrise, the first sun-ray that hit your face would melt your heart too. Doll up and happily go uni after breakkie. Very relaxing as I woke up early. Not like usual. Wake up exactly an hour earlier or less before class and run to classroom. After class, I go home and take a refreshing shower. I really really very love evening. More in love when it rains. In Chinese it’s called “huang hun”. My feeling is very peaceful during evening accompanied with some snacks and a cup of beverage in living room. I’ll avoid taking nap during evening. Because I don’t want miss the moment when the whole bright world became colorful and turn into a dark one. Then, I start to work on my homework. After that, I do lit review. For some time, I call it a day. Around 10 pm, I wish to rest already. So tomorrow I am all ready for my morning jog and a brand new healthy+ happy day. I've got a quote remind me of, it doesn't matter how many hours you sleep. It matters with the quality of sleep and the next morning, I’m all anticipated to run.

Enjoy this video brought to by Robin Sharma how-to-wake-up-early

As this semester assignment is not tough and I got off day every Wednesday, I try my very best to make good use of free time. I really fight against time. I got up early and try to finish all work. And then, I enjoy the remaining time through my favorite activities, watching drama. In October, I've only watch 3 dramas. First time being so stingy with myself on dramas. After being so mean to myself, my greatest achievement is, I got 60% done for my part 1. Really need to nail it down for the remaining 40%. When the work is being drag, I get trauma to open the file. I've taken the first step, so the remaining is easier. And good news is my skin sensitivity is reducing. I am taking really good care of it. Recovery is slow but I've got no choice because I want a perfect one.

Do you know that, 20 years old moving to 30 years old is like an invisible years. If you don’t achieve during these years, you probably are going to miss a lot. I don’t want to take the burden when I’m at my 3o’s. I fight and fight and fight more during these young age is better than sorry in the later. At the same time, I know how to live in the present. I don’t want to miss some moment that should be spent together due to workaholic. 

financial-skills-every-20-year-old-needs-to-learn and

financial-decisions-made-in-your-30s-that-may-haunt-you-in-your-50s

 I allow you to ponder a little after these articles.

And now, my one week holiday is finishing. I kinda miss staying in Taylor there. It’s more peaceful and quite place that suit my personality. Other than the living cost is a little high in KL, I kinda like staying over there. I’m living my life. The way I want without disruption. It’ funny when I got 3 houses to stay, and I prefer the one without anyone being all alone. I didn't like staying with my family as well as staying with hubby boy thou I miss all of them. L Next, I’ll be working on balancing my diet. To have healthy lifestyle, balanced diet and sw33t reams as shield and weapons for war.

I've got pictures for you guys but i wanna remain as a wordy blogger. voila... au revoir~  

Sotz liao~

To create an AMAZING tomorrow, when you're in bed tonight right before you fall asleep, go over the day you've just had and feel gratitude for the amazing moments. If there was something you wished had happened differently, replay it in your mind the way you wanted it to go. As you fall asleep, say, "I will sleep deeply and wake up full of energy. Tomorrow is going to be the most AMAZING day of my life!

And every morning say this loudly in your heart and mind. I'm going to be happy, I'm going to skip, I'm going to be glad, I'm going to smile a lot, I'm going to be easy, I'm going to count my blessings, I'm going to look for reasons to feel good, I'm going to dig up positive things from my past, I'm going to look for positive things where I stand, I'm going to look for positive things in the future. It is my natural state to be a happy person. It's natural for me to love and to laugh. This is what is most natural for me. I am a happy person!

You'll know how happy you can be. :)

The Secret by Rhonda Byrne

This time.... haha.. I guess in any courses you pursue, you will never get to run away from dissertation, thesis, research and you name it all. I personally think that, these stuff is one of your degree qualification. Hubby boy (studying medicine course) got research. Bestie Mei Kee gotta do her thesis in final year. Yi Ling (studying in UK) need to hand up hers also. Most of undergraduate gotta go through it. And with the finishing of my dissertation, it mark the end of my degree journey. My dissertation will be my dream in paperwork. Teehee... So, imma putting all my passion in it.

Follow your passion and success will come following you. 

Senior said, "it's just a long essay". This is motivating me. Me love journalism especially in topic I'm interested on.

This year, I thought I will go through a peaceful year as to put priority in studies and dissertation. However, I challenge myself, add up new activities. I am AIESECer. I am helping many many people realising their dreams thou its just minor effort. haha...

I am just me, one mind, one human, with 2 hands and 24 hours a day. To accomplish all I want, I gotta motivate myself a lot and in a whole new level. haha..

This is me, reading THE SECRET (vol 1) for 2nd time. When I read for 1st time, I was amazed by how mighty one mind can become. Totally blown me away. I got this feeling in me since young. I always got what I want even till now. Then, I understand the physics behind it. I tried numerous incident to try out the law of attraction, gratitude, love and everything. Everything works just like magic.

One experiment I wish to share is, I tried the attraction of money. Every night before bed, I thought of I am earning RM1000 a month. And then I spend it on here and there. Guess what, for that 2 months where I really focus my mind on, I seriously got this account of RM1000 going into my bank and I spend on what I want. I am just a mere student. Through some effort, I work part time on every Thursday ( the only day without class) collecting survey at University Malaya Medical Centre. This odd job seriously is not something I know. It just happen, I want RM1000 per month, someone need help for collection of survey and somehow I am the qualified one without transportation problem. In the middle of the month, I've just collected RM600. Where another RM400 going to come from..? I was surprised when my hostel owner pay me RM400 just because I recommended my room mate and friends to rent the room a year ago. I'm totally out of my mind. It doesn't matter any more weather it's RM600 or RM1000. What I am doing is to test how far these SECRET thingy can perform and it is REAL. The whole journey is like created for me to get what I wanted.

You called it lucky/ coincidence? I named it mastermind behind the scene. :P 

2nd time reading THE SECRET, I found out that most of the time in days, I am APPLYING those principals. What can be worse when you learn a new knowledge but don't apply it. Secret changed my life utterly. Every bits of my life, I see the laws of Secret. And I'm still enjoying the benefit of  it. I use Secret to help me in minor stuff. I am sure when the time has come, I am using it ultimately to achieve whatever I want.

Now, I'm going to type out the summary of every chapter for my OWN references only. Whenever I got low, this is my source of positivity to do well, do more and do happily.

The Secret Revealed

• The Great Secret of Life is the law of attraction.
• The law of attraction says like attracts like, so when you think a thought, you are also attracting like thoughts to you.
• Thoughts are magnetic, and thoughts have a frequency. As you think thoughts, they are sent out into the Universe, and they magnetically attract all like things that are on the same frequency. Everything sent out returns to the source- you.
• You are like a human transmission tower, transmitting a frequency with your thoughts. If you want to change anything in your life, change the frequency by changing your thoughts.
• Your current thoughts are creating your future life. What you think about the most or focus on the most will appear as your life.
• Your thoughts become things.

The Secret Made Simple

• The law of attraction is a law of nature. It is as impartial as the law of gravity. 
• Nothing can come into your experience unless you summon it through persistent thoughts.
• To know what you're thinking, ask yourself how you are feeling. Emotions are valuable tools that instantly tell us what we are thinking.
• It is impossible to feel bad and at the same time have good thoughts.
• Your thoughts determine your frequency, and your feelings tell you immediately what frequency you are on. When you feel bad, you are on the frequency of drawing more bad things. When you feel good, you are powerfully attracting more good things to you. 
• Secret Shifters, such as pleasant memories, nature, or your favourite music, can change your feelings and shift your frequency in an instant.
• The feeling of love is the highest frequency you can emit. The greater the love you feel and emit, the greater the power you are harnessing. 

How to Use The Secret

• Like Aladdin's Genie, the law of attraction grants our every command (your wish is my command)
• The Creative Process helps you create what you want in three simple steps: ask, believe, and receive.
• Asking the Universe for what you want is your opportunity to get clear about what you want. As you get clear in your mind, you have asked.
• Believing involves acting, speaking, and thinking as though you have already received what you've asked for. When you emit the frequency of having received it, the law of attraction moves people, events, and circumstances for you to receive.
• Receiving involves feeling the way you will feel once your desire has manifested. Feeling good now puts you on the frequency of what you want.
• To lose weight, don't focus on "losing weight." Instead, focus on your perfect weight. Feel the feelings of your perfect weight, and you will summon it to you.
• It takes no time for the Universe to manifest what you want. It is as easy to manifest one dollar as it is to manifest one million dollars.
• Starting with something small, like a cup of coffee or parking spaces, is an easy way to experience the law of attraction in action. Powerfully intend to attract something small. As you experience the power you have to attract, you will move on to creating much bigger things.
• Create your day in advance by thinking the way you want it to go, and you will create your life intentionally.

Powerful Processes

• Expectation is a powerful attractive force. Expect the things you want, and don't expect the things you don't want.
• Gratitude is a powerful process for shifting your energy and bringing more of what you want into your life. Be grateful for what you already have, and you will attract more good things.
• Giving thanks for what you want in advance turbo-charges your desire and sends a more powerful signal out into the Universe.
• Visualization is the process of creating pictures in your mind of yourselves enjoying what you want. When you visualize, you generate powerful thoughts and feelings of having it now. The law of attraction then returns that reality to you, just as you saw it in your mind. 
• To use the law of attraction to your advantage, make it a habitual way of being, not just a one-time event.
• At the end of every day, before you go to sleep go back through the events of the day. Any events or moments that were not what you wanted, replay them in your mind the way you wanted them to go.

The Secret to Money

• To attract money, focus on wealth. It is impossible to bring more money into your life when you focus on the lack of it.
• It is helpful to use your imagination and make-believe you already have the money you want. Play games of having wealth and you will feel better about money; as you feel better about it, more will flow into your life.
• Feeling happy now is the fastest way to bring money into your life.
• Make it your intention to look at everything you like and say to yourself, "I can afford that. I can buy that." You will shift your thinking and begin to feel better about money.
• Give money in order to bring more of it into your life. When you are generous with money and feel good about sharing it, you are saying, 'I have plenty."
• Visualize checks in the mail.
• Tip the balance of your thoughts to wealth. Think wealth.

The Secret to Relationships

• When you want to attract a relationship, make sure your thoughts, words, actions, and surroundings don't contradict your desires.
• Your job is you. Unless you fill yourself up first, you have nothing to give anybody.
• Treat yourself with love and respect, and you will attract people who show you love and respect.
• When you feel bad about yourself, you block the love and instead you attract more people and situations that will continue to make you feel bad about you.
• Focus on the qualities you love about yourself and the law of attraction will show you more great things about you.
• To make a relationship work, focus on what you appreciate about the other person, and not your complaints. When you focus on the strengths, you will get more of them.

The Secret to Health

• The placebo effect is an example of the law of attraction in action. When a patient truly believes that tablet is a cure, he receives what he believes and is cured.
• "Focusing on perfect health" is something we can all do within ourselves, despite what may be happening on the outside.
• Laughter attracts joy, releases negativity, and leads to miraculous cures.
• Disease is held in the body by thought, by observation of the illness, and by the attention given to the illness. If you are feeling a little unwell, don't talk about it- unless you want more of it. If you listen to to people talk about their illness, you add energy to their illness. Instead, change the conversation to good things, and give powerful thoughts to seeing those people in health.
• Beliefs about ageing are all in our minds, so release those thoughts from your consciousness. Focus on health and eternal youth.
• Do not listen to society's messages about disease and ageing. Negative messages do not serve you. 

The Secret to the World

• What you resist, you attract, because you are powerfully focused on it with emotion. To change anything, go within and emit a new signal with your thoughts and feelings.
• Yo cannot help the world by focusing on the negative things. As you focus on the world's negative events, you not only add to them, but you also bring more negative things into your own life.
• Instead of focusing on the world's problems, give your attention and energy to trust, love, abundance, education, and peace.
• We will never run out of good things because there's more than enough to go around for everyone. Life is meant to be abundant.
• You have the ability to tap into the unlimited supply through your thoughts and feelings and bring it into your experience.
• Praise and bless everything in the world, and you will dissolve negativity and discord and align yourself with the highest frequency-love.

The Secret to You

• Everything is energy. You are an energy magnet, so you electrically energize everything to you and electrically energize yourself to everything you want.
• You are a spiritual being. You are energy, and energy cannot be created or destroyed- it just changes form. Therefore, the pure essence of you has always been and always will be.
• The Universe emerges from thought. We are the creators not only of our own destiny but also of the Universe.
• An unlimited supply of ideas is available to you. All knowledge, discoveries and inventions are in the Universal Mind as possibilities, waiting for the human mind to draw them forth. You hold everything in your consciousness.
• We are all connected, and we are all One.
• Let go of difficulties from your past, cultural codes, and social beliefs. You are the only one who can create the life you deserves. 
• A short-cut to manifesting your desires is to see what you want as absolute fact.
• Your power is in your thoughts, so stay aware. In other words, "Remember to remember."

The Secret to Life

• You get to fill the blackboard of your life with whatever you want.
• The only thing you need to do is feel good now.
• The more you use the power within you. the more power you will draw through you.
• The time to embrace your magnificence is now.
• We are in the midst of glorious era. As we let go of limiting thoughts, we will experience humanity's true magnificence, in every area of creation.
• Do what you love. If you don't know what brings you joy, ask, "What is my joy?' As you commit to your joy, you will attract an avalanche of joyful things because you are radiating joy. 
• Now that you have learned the knowledge of The Secret, what you do with is up to you. Whatever you choose is right. The power is all yours. 

I know some of my friends do not believe in The Secret. The reasons of why, only they will know. I am just doing my role as a friend telling them it is a nice book and maybe they should give it a try. Who knows what will happen. :) Some people told me this book is fake and so much more negative comment. Maybe it just doesn't suit their act.

As for me, this book is a book of hope. Everyone can dream whatever they want. Pursue things they would like to go after. This book ONLY encourage. How many of us actually support our friends idea although they sound very ridiculous? Usually the reply is negative and break people hope. They are the dream reaper. People, who feel like giving up especially ill physically, psychologically , fed up in this world; the knowledge in this book, able to give them a hope, let them have some faith that tomorrow is a better day. Thou there may be no changes in a cancer patient, but at least, the patient still can hope. The knowledge in this book teach people to feel gratitude even in the worse situation. No matter in which kind of hardship, there are many things to be thankful for. This is a basic common act but we people tend to take things for granted and ignorant. Many many resentments toward everything even the slightest events. But but but, the knowledge of gratitude, can change something negative to positive and relatively make someone feel better. Aren't it important to feel as good as you are just born..?

Whenever I read this book, I feel confident in myself that everything I want to get and achieve is possible . I'm heavenly Motivated.

I would like to say a big THANK YOU Joanne Chua Siu Ting. For she is the one who recommend the book to me. With this, she is someone who gave impact in my life through the knowledge of a book. Xie Xie larh. Mmuacks.. May you achieve your goals too.

Mirror by Justin Timberlake

There is this saying in Chinese… “Fu Chi Xiang”. Don’t really know how to type it in Chinese. When I just got into relationship, one of our friends told us that; hey… both of you got that husband+ wife/ couple face. I thought it is weird. How can 2 people with different eyes, nose, mouth, face shape can look alike?

Later, I found out from an article that husband+ wife face simply means that your gestures, attitude, behaviors slowly takes after one another. You seem to do/ mimic your partner actions and vice versa. Slowly, both persons blend together becoming one. From different personality and facial expression ended up becoming similar within a long time frame. That is why when we see older married couple, they look harmony being together.

With this, I relate it to my current favorite song. Mirror by Justin Timberlake. Mei Kee told me this song is dedicated to his grandparents. “Fu chi xiang” just like his lyrics, is a reflection of your soul mate. Just like a mirror, your mirror staring back at you. When you look at your couple, it is like you yourself looking back to yourself.

Hopefully wait till I get till old, I can see myself in him; a reflection of myself.

Let’s play this video and sing along. Really very sweet. Le meltz…

Mirror by Justin Timberlake

P.S/ Mei Kee say must listen to the full version 8:21 minutes one. 

Or, find his live presentation only got feel wor. :)

[Verse 1]
Aren't you somethin' to admire, cause your shine is somethin' like a mirror
And I can't help but notice, you reflect in this heart of mine
If you ever feel alone and the glare makes me hard to find
Just know that I'm always parallell on the other side

[Pre-Hook]
Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass, I'll be tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

[Hook]
Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you baby, it was easy
Comin' back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else besides of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

[Verse 2]
Aren't you somethin', an original, cause it doesn't seem merely assembled
And I can't help but stare cause I see truth somewhere in your eyes
I can't ever change without you, you reflect me, I love that about you
And if I could, I would look at us all the time

[Pre-Hook]
Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass, I'll be tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

[Hook]
Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you baby, it was easy
Comin' back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else besides of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

[Bridge]
Yesterday is history
Tomorrow's a mystery
I can see you lookin' back at me
Keep your eyes on me
Baby, keep your eyes on me

[Hook]
Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you baby, it was easy
Comin' back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else besides of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

[Hook 2] x10
You are you are the love of my life

[Verse 3]
Baby you're the inspiration for this precious song
And I just wanna see your face light up since you put me on
So now I say goodbye to the old me, it's already gone
And I can't wait wait wait wait wait to get you home
Just to let you know, you are

[Hook 2] x8
You are you are the love of my life

[Verse 4]
Girl you're my reflection, all I see is you
My reflection, in everything I do
You're my reflection and all I see is you
My reflection, in everything I do

[Hook 2] x16
You are you are the love of my life

Knowing if he is the right one

Le boy: Why you don't want to find other guy..? 

Le girl: Because you are the only one able to make me cry. I will get heartache, pain and sorrow when you bully me or when I can't get in touch with you. I am the weakest when I am with you. When you are able to make me cry, this means I really really love you a lot. :')

My AIESEC

Hello, how are you..?
How long has it been since I last joined a club/ society..?
I couldn't remember. Whenever there is a chance or opportunity, I say to myself, next time. Maybe when situation get better, I've got more free time then I'll join. This is how I hypnotized myself for the past 3 years in university.

Once I am in university, I did not thought of joining any extra-curricular activities. There are not important. I asked senior and it's not necessary so I tend to give way. Slowly, I became professional introvert and anti-social. Just like an otaku (nerd). I know I am friendly and out-going but the thing I am doing right now is not in line with myself. I see my friends join student council, dancing, this and that. They are all happy creating university memories. Meanwhile, me on the other hand, feeling something is missing in me. I've got fear and barrier/ limitation that I created by myself even up to now. My excuses are always, no transport, later go home late night, I've got assignment to rush, my dissertation, neglect my bf, none of my friend joining, maybe cannot go back hometown on weekend and the list goes on non-stop. See, there are 99% of feedback telling me not to do. But deep down inside me, there is this burning hot 1% supporting me to do. All those 99% excuses are not from me actually. There are situation/ circumstances created by others thinking they are actually for the sake of me. The answer is no. Those 99% is other people priority. Not mine also. So, I decided to speak up for myself. Now, is all about me me me and me. My time, my life, my choice. Assignment/ dissertation/ examination? Have they ever stop haunting us..? They have been chewing up my 13 years and I need to stop giving them a damn.

I want to claim back the 2 years of university life that I sold off. The people that I did not get to meet, the fun I did not get to enjoy, the chances which I gave up on. Now, I want back that life. Actually, I want to help myself to be less introvert (one of my weaknesses) and learn to socialize. I keep saying meet new people and learn from them. How can I do it.

After browsing for the club/societies available in my uni,  I decided I want to join AIESEC. You may ask why AIESEC. Simply because it is something that suit my attitude and personality. It's something I like. I believe I can get abundance new experience and opportunity to go for an exchange. Yayy.. Go oversea.

First round, it was an online assessment. I think that was the last few day of assignment submission/ exam. I reach home at 1 am. I saw someone post it on Facebook. I click in and start dilemma-ing. Should I, or should I not. huh... I asked my bestie, Mei Kee. Well, you can get to know a lot things and meet new friends. But we've got enough of these kind of activities thing during our high school. Yeah.. I agreed with what she said as we are the one going through all those battle in high school together. Our extra-curricular activities scored 90 and above out of hundreds.

Then, I have a chat with hubby boy. Because he is someone important too, I need to seek his opinion. Not to the extend whatever he say I do. I just want to know his response is a yay or nay. He say, I don't mind if you join. Is a good thing also. Just manage your time properly. No rejection from two of my closest human. Hence, I fill in the super long questionnaire till 3 am in the morning. The next day, I still got class. I'm quite excited yet scared. Well, weather chosen or not I don't mind. As I already make my first move. At least, I TRIED!

After my study break, I went for an interview session from 4 pm to 6 pm.  I attended the interview. I thought it was just for few minutes and I could leave. No. The interview lasted till 6 pm sharp. They started of with ice-breaking and then introduction of AIESEC. Most of us are not confident about what is AIESEC actually. Next is individual interview. I've go a cute question. He is someone bold and his family members are all bold. How do I sell a comb to him? Could you think of any answer..? Haha.. The next day is my final management accounting paper. Worst is, I did not study anything yet. Oh...my... And that doesn't mean I will get selected also. Out of 100 students, they will be selecting 30 students only. One thing is, I am happy. I know exam is important. Everyone at AIESEC is student too. They have studies, so do I. When they can and I can handle too.

One phrase I learn from Jia En. Instead of think out of the box, why not take 3 steps backwards and see a clearer picture of everything. Sometimes, we do not need to be complicated and always out of the box. All we need is to be able to see not only the surface but also deep inside.

That end my trial story. Do you think I've been selected to be an AIESECer..?

Thank you for taking part in the interview. We are sorry to let you wait and let you scroll for so long (yea.. the mail was long and I keep scrolling downwards). Last word was, congratulations. You have been selected.

Whootss... Imma happy kid. And I am proud to be a member of this leading organization. It is something I want and I got in. Out of many student out there, I've been selected. It's not easy yet not that hard to join. Shall I rephrase it to nothing is impossible and difficult. All you need is passion. The rest, you can leave it to God.

I remember I told Mr.Patrick (an experienced lecturer) I want to join AIESEC. And he say, go for it. It's an international platform. I just say for fun and now I really manage to realize it. It is also one of my resolution to join this NGO organization. Well, I manage to fulfill one of my target again. Happy....

On 17th August 2013, there was an Induction Day for new member. Back then, I was having semester break.  I don't mind waking up early to take the 6.30am KTM from Seremban back to uni. Some say I am crazy. Yea.. When it is something I like, I give all my might to do it.

I was late by 30 minutes. By the time I step into the lecture theater, I could feel the positive momentum that attract me to be there. From that moment on wards, I know why I am an AIESECer.

Kuma Love Story

We were both young when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts:
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air.

See the lights; see the party, the ball gowns.
See you make your way through the crowd
and say, "Hello,"
Little did I know...

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet"
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you, "Please don't go"
And I said...

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all that's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story, baby, just say, "Yes."

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes... escape this town for a little while.
Oh, oh.

'Cause you were Romeo – I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet."
But you were everything to me,
I was begging you, "Please don't go."
And I said...

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all that's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.
It's a love story, baby, just say, "Yes."

Romeo, save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult but it's real.
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story, baby, just say, "Yes."

Oh, oh.

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town.
And I said...

"Romeo, save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think."
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...

"Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad – go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby, just say, "Yes."

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you.

You think I’ll only provide you with lyrics in this post..? No No…

There is this U-tube video too. You may consider listening to it while reading my post. Got special effect de. Haha… I wonder if anyone doesn't know this lovely song. :P Love Story

Have you check out the history of this song..? You can go Google/ Wikipedia. Nah.. The link is also provided for you. History of Love Story- Taylor Swift This is going to be a long long post also.

No worries. Some ancient pictures are uploaded to surprise you. Teehee…

If you do read Wikipedia, I've got same thought with Taylor Swift. This song is based on the story of Romeo and Juliet by William Shakespeare. Taylor Swift thought that Romeo and Juliet love story was a tragedy. I agree. It is too sad to be separated with your love one. Luckily, both also got sacrificed. Not one alive and another died like Titanic. (Enough of being cold-hearted) She thought that if it were a little different on the plot, it would be the best love story ever told. High 5 Taylor Swift. Whenever I listen to friends/drama/books tragedy love story, I’m like . . .  I’ll love and embrace like I them, but I don't want a bad ending. So in love de couple, why want to end up so sadly. Arghh.. I’ll get angry, felt injustice coz it’s not balance. A chinese version of this will be "liang shan bo yu zhu yin tai". >.<’’ 

When I first listen to love story it reflect on my own love story. Yeaahh.. I've got a love story similar to this song too. I’ll extract part of the song to tell some stories about my love life.

My love life is easy. Our first love, started on 16.12.2007 and still going on lively. That’s it. No ex, no short term separation, no family objection, no this, no that, nothing. “KISS” concept.

We got official right after this night. :)

We were both young when I first saw you.

I close my eyes and the flashback starts:

I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air.

(he no shave for many days and I look noob) T.T

My 15th birthday celebration

We both start officially at the age of 15 and another one 17. Trololol… So young weyh. And we knew each other at age of me:14 and him:16. Nah, this explain the first phrase of the song. Haha…And then I met him during summer. Is November still summer..? Well, in Malaysia every day is summer.

Hand make cookies for his birthday. ^^

Can you guess what's the writing on top..?

See the lights; see the party, the ball gowns.

See you make your way through the crowd

and say, "Hello,"

Little did I know...

How did I meet this handsome cute guy… I study in an all-girl school. And he study at all boy school. And then we are at different age. Cannot have same tuition also. I think destiny/ fate brought us together. Back then, I seldom mix with guy. I just got the Convent School Girl Syndrome. Oopps.. I just feel like guy don’t exist in my world other than family members and cousins. So, I got chance to join a camp organize by Nan Yang Student Club Seremban (Nan Jue) . The date that I first see him was 27.11.2006.

 Nan Jue Logo

I remembered clearly. It was a 4 days 3 nights camp in a Chinese primary school. On the 3^rd night, the camp has a tradition where guy find a partner and perform couple dance. Huh… Cannot be girl girl/ boy boy. So this guy introduces himself, held my hand and we dance all night. First time my hand held by a stranger guy. Little did I know,he is my prince charming. And this stranger guy is still holding on my little hand.  (This is not the original scene. The scene is only in our memories. This picture was taken when we return as XXXX committee and is not this camp also)

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles,

And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet"

And I was crying on the staircase

Begging you, "Please don't go"

And I said...

I did not leave my contact to anyone. I’m just 14 years old back then. I am still me that I am not using to chat with people. But I got his contact. So, we start text each other. We don’t really start. It was just being friends; crush, more than friends and after one year only we start. That year, I got major exam like PMR and he got SPM. We build our foundation strongly. What I like is, every night for 365 days, without fail, he will send me a text. Then we both go to bed. Our way of saying good night to each other. I'm still keeping those cute messages. 

My Romeo

My diary with him. Shhh~~ The details of our happening is inside.

Our first baby bear a.k.a "ding ching sun met"

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.

I'll be waiting; all that's left to do is run.

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,

It's a love story, baby, just say, "Yes."

Someday later, we both fell for each other. Sweetly, we agreed to be each other prince and princess. It’s our love story.

The vow: invisible, irremovable couple ring

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.

We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew

So close your eyes... escape this town for a little while.

Oh, oh.

Back then, I am really too young. Mom doesn't agree I am in a relationship. She says I should finish my studies first. And my dad often works at other state. Only my mom takes care of everything. I've got to lie to meet him outside. And then he drop me somewhere far ( to avoid eyes), not right in front of my house. Hahahaha… Both of us go on secret date. We are afraid of people seeing us holding hand. We are afraid of going public places. I am the one that will freak out. Because my relatives/ those aunties/ friends all are at my hometown. It’s an underground love. Trololol… I've got curfew that time. I can only go outing with “friend” until 5-6 pm evening. Later than that, I will get summon for questionnaires.

'Cause you were Romeo – I was a scarlet letter,

And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet."

But you were everything to me,

I was begging you, "Please don't go."

And I said...

Why..? For most of the relationship, the daddy will say “stay away from Juliet”..? Is it daddy is not willing to let go of her princess to another guy..? My dad, when he found out I’m seeing a guy, he got so fierce and did not talk with me for several weeks, months, and years. :(  That was what happens. He doesn't like me hanging out with guys. We wanted me to focus in studies. I didn't beg anyone neither my dad nor my boyfriend. I just ignore (the thing I’m good at doing) like nothing happen.  Hahahahaa… I know whatever I want, my parents sure will allow. I'm just afraid he might give up half way. Like many many people did towards their first love/ puppy love. >.<

Romeo, save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.

This love is difficult but it's real.

Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.

It's a love story, baby, just say, "Yes."

He got headache because of my "lau kei" attitude

He is my superhero

Become my toy

Make me smile

Shadowing and protecting me

comfort me the most

Gave me the best place to cry

All love is difficult. Sometimes, we got mess out of it. And a lot of mouths will teach you how to feel, how to settle. All I did was shut up everyone and listen to myself. I don’t know about him. I just follow my instinct. When problems/ arguments occur between us, he got the headache and responsible to solve it. He is the rational+ logical+ analytically + problem solving party. I’m the emotional party that support crying and throwing tantrum. But this love is real. Oh yeah.. Usually I’m the troublemaker. Peace.. V(*.*)V

Wondering if you were ever coming around.

My faith in you was fading

When I met you on the outskirts of town.

And I said...

I guess this is the 5 and 6 stage of love ( tolerance and downhill). After honeymoon stage, it is the comfortable stage 3. (For more info, watch Stranger, Again by Wong Fu Production. I'm not providing the link. If you want search yourself at U-tube. This was suppose to be a lovey-dovey post. Haha.) They mention love between couples fade slowly. Hmnn.. I believe in this. I know it happen in most of the relationships out there. It needs infinity tolerance+ efforts to preserve a relationship. Sometimes, I wonder, if he is coming back again to me after a fight. There are so many choices and better girls out there. Why is it me since the beginning and till now... 

Our personalities are so different

"Romeo, save me, I've been feeling so alone.

I keep waiting for you but you never come.

Is this in my head? I don't know what to think."

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...

I guess we've miss the "strangers, again stage". Where no chance of us separate from each other. I understand him more than he know himself and vice verse. I just keep falling in love with him every time. O.O Since we still got so much time till we proceed to next stage; marriage. In these 10 years I’ll forgo and give ourselves utmost freedom to do whatever we want; to make our dream come true. He will become the best surgeon in nation and I will travel to different countries to experience. In the end, we can rely, take care of each other till white hair grow around us. Our limitations are time and money. Too young to settle down and have kids. No money to support a family with four cutie-pie kids yet. Haha…  If not, I’ll be living in love everyday (thou I’m already am) with a husband and kids.

I, T3ddy take you, Daddy,

To be my husband,

To have and to hold,

from that day forward,

for better, for worse,

for richer, for poorer,

in sickness and in health,

to love and to cherish,

till death do us part,

this is my solemn vow.

Tadaa… My love story. Don't blame me if your diabetes level increases. 

I always think that love that happen during young age is the most pure, honest and innocent. They aren't affected/ polluted by any means such as money, material, power, status, work and etc.

"Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad – go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby, just say, "Yes."

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.

Ahhhh… I hope one day, this will happen on us.

Will he be on this suit then..?

I appreciate my relationship with hubby boy very much.

Cause we were both young when I first saw you.