I don't wanna miss a chance to see you!

besides family members, daddy is the one know t3ddy very well

knows

when t3ddy is happy

when t3ddy is sad

when t3ddy is lau kei.

t3ddy misses daddy badly.

wish can see him as soon as possible.

this weekend teddy is not going back,

so, thr will b 10 days being apart.

t3ddy need to sleep 9 times before she get to see daddy.

which is a big no no for t3ddy. >.<

last time when daddy is not going back,

t3ddy won't miss a chance to see daddy.

t3ddy will go to his place although is for few hours.

but this time is different.

cannot see him for 1 second is like very very long~

moreover, daddy gave t3ddy d biggest surprise which no one can replace on 8.8.2010 & 13.8.2010.

this make t3ddy more miss daddy!

IMU is like 15mins away from Taylor's lakeside with the barrier of a toll.

but none of us got car.

we are so near to each other.

so near yet so far.

daddy, t3ddy misses you..

can you hear me..?

.i love you.

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time!!!

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
~t3ddy don't wanna miss a thing of daddy~

($.$)'''

Hmnp... Today my thinking skill lecture Mr. Adrian taught us on environment in higher education.

He asked, who is still struggling to learn at college..?

I feel like raising my hand high high. But i did not. My struggles are not about studies. Is socialize with college friends, the living style and those surrounding I am not familiar with. After staying here for the fourth month, I still couldn't adapt this new environment. I felt homesick although the journey back to my home town is 1hour only.

Then, he asked us to ask a question to our parents.

He said,

''Pa.. Ma.. Yah.. Ummi.. where do you get money for me to further my studies?''

'' Do you face any financial difficulties to let me further my studies..?''

I was actually smilling.

In my mind, I was thinking that I do not have a chance to ask this question. Early of the year, before SPM result was release, my mom already told me,

'' If you do not get any scholarship, I will not be able to send you to college. You gotta do Form6.''

At that time, I was really disappointed. I cried and cried at any time and anywhere. I wonder how many times I had cried for this matter. All I want is to study at a better college. I promise I will do well. But financial is the major problem. Because of this problem, I could not realise my dream. I got to go form 6 and do something that I am not interested. Well, I got a good result. If not I will not be studying at Taylor now. Now, I got scholarship + PTPTN. Scholarship for tuition waiver while PTPTN is for living cost. I don't dare to ask more money from my mom. Because I felt guilty.For now, I am able to study at Taylor. What do I need some more..? So, I don't demand.

Let me tell u guys..

Every month,

RM300-room rent. (I can't afford more expensive room)

RM60.00 - electricity bill for a month. :(

RM20.00- for travelling

RM 30.00-for lunch.

If there is extra, I can use it to 'yam cha' with my ji mui during weekend. ^.^

That means, every month I use RM550.00.

Now, let me ask you.. Is RM8000 enough to support my living cost for 1 year..?

The answer is NO. So.. where do I get money.

Don't ask me. Coz I am also not sure what will happen to me when I am out of money. :'(

How do I get to save that much..?

I cook my own dinner every nite. Mom will prepare me with some vegetables and meat. I don't go out to eat at night. From here, I kinda save a bit.

Then every beginning of semester I will shop for different type of biscuits as well as some snacks to survive la. Then I don't waste money buying snacks outside.

See, to study at a 'branded college' I need to think of money from A to Z.

I think this is how I got my pimples on my forehead. >.<

When someone know that I am studying at Taylor, they will start to blah blah blah all words which I don't like to hear. For example..

'' Waa.. Study at Taylor ar.. So rich''.

After hearing this, I automatic will give them one kind of look. I seriously hate it. Yes.. I have no money. Does it mean I cannot study at Taylor..?

I still remember I am very sensitive to this topic. Whenever my boyfriend brought up this topic to discuss, my eyes eventually turn watery and tears roll down to my cheeks. It goes the same. During my World Class Scholarship interview, they talk about family and about money. I was trying to hold my tears. But in the end, I poured out. I really couldn't resist any more. The scholarship means a lot to me. I thought I ruined the interview. Maybe is my family background and academic result, hence I am eligible for this scholarship.

Although I faced difficulties, I did not regret choosing this pathway. I can go Utar, Stamford or STPM which does not need so high living cost, but I always think Taylor will bring me to another stage of life that I want!

Today, when Mr.Adrian discuss about this topic, I did not cry any more. I am glad I had let go this issue.

拿得起 放得下。

我放下了。

Money matters made me grown up.

I am not like any other, Mr.Adrian.

I thought value of money more than anyone in my class. :)

when life gives U LEMON!!!

it is hard to survive

in a world

which doesn't belong to you.

I always think that,

when life gives you lemon,

you add honey,

and it will become honey lemon juice. ^.^

it is easy to say. . .

but when you are facing the truth

is another story.

Deep in my heart,

t3ddy is crying like a little kid~

~GURlzZZz OuTiNg~

Here they are. Start of the journey! ^.^

shopping & going toilet take pic without me. >.<

Cover gurlz for playboy.

Spot for guess, vincci, voir, playboy, & mango.

She is mine. Not yours.

Admiring jean's big butt.

'Deng dai hou sang yong'.

I see... I see..

Queen Of d-Day!

Ms Ju Enn

The puterian sesat-ed when chan wa taking pic. =.=

Which guy shud i choose..?

minnie eenie minnnie mo. .

I am juz a small innocent kid.

Dun bully me.

YES!! it touches.... Are u jealous..?

Hi~ I am Li Wei...

No~ U r not. I am Li Wei..

I can't resist anymore.

I WANT YOU NOW!!!

Drama take 1

Take 2

Cold war...

Is a guy & gurl thing~

Ohh Myy Gooshhh...

Nthg happen. Coz. .

Ju enn said d toilet was too small. She is struggling.

Don't u ever try to push me away~

At last drama finished,

Mickey & t3ddy manage to reach before all hot till die.

What else other than picture, picture n a bundle of picturesssss...

If there is air-cond, we will b staying 2-3 hrs cam-whoring. ^.<

Inside 3L3M3NTS

Peak of the day~

Ju enn got a DRESS. Is a DRESS!!!

Is a DRESS & i'm gonna to die~~~

Mick3y & Playboy & Kampai & a wide smile~

People who make things happening. ^.^

Chocolate Mirror, u r yummie~

Promoting playboy became mission 2. =.=''

Jeanne & her romantic room!

Ju Enn & her DRESS!

Li Wei & her shorts!

T3ddy & vanilla & froggie as usual..

Mick3y & her heels, shirts, bags..

I am jealous.. heh!

Another jealousy occur! Haizzz..

Kampai promoter..

Those monkies who stay till 6a.m. @.@

FOREVER sexay leng lui~

The 1st to get drunk. *_*

Runner up. :)

Mini kampai nite. hehehehe..

shhh~~ dun tell anyone.

First picture together wif ju enn.

Xiao bao bao

Kuai shui jiao....

lalalalalal~~

Mick3y, Ju 3nn, T3ddy, J3anne, Li W3i

Ohhh.. is a double-decker bus..

Our luagages. And finally reached Seremban.

Oh yeahh..

Goodnite too.