2nd internship

Internship is over now!!!!! Hoorayyyyyyyyyyyyyy…..

God bless… I seriously want to end this freaking troublesome internship.

Compare to the 1^st one, this intern very very the terrible. L

First of all is because the Arab season and I’m in housekeeping. So, it’s super duper busy+ tiring. Thanks to it also, time flies and I smoothly goes to 2^nd department. Thanks to it also, I get to know more about the hotel operations and clean toilet as a professionals. Hahas…

Then, I got bored by the second department, front office. Haizz.. my tasks is not something different but to stand at the lobby 7hours and 15mins. Guess what, the other 45mins is break time. I could see the stress they have at reception and how people behave. Well, none of my business. Standing at lobby, I will think of a lot of things. Think from A-Z. Hmnn… like that I finished 3 weeks. Got 1 month is I went to club lounge. Quite enjoy time being there as somehow they attach to f&b. And got my biggest tips for now which is rm100. However, I still prefer a place named Mandarin Grill. Teehee…

If I were given a chance to choose where I want to stay, I seriously don’t want to stay at Bukit Jalil. I rather travel 2hrs a day to work and 2 hrs to go back home, Sunway. Like that, I’ll not be a burden and interrupt someone’s daily routine and social life.

In return of my greed,

I don’t feel secure; has hope or faith in my lover anymore. I always wanted to know his opinion before making decision coz I respect him as part of my soul mate. I don’t want him to get hurt. However, he makes decision without even thinking about my feeling. When I say I don’t like it or I mind, he continue to do it as if everything is alright. Can’t he just put himself in my shoes..? His stand to have fun with friends is so strong that he don’t even tolerate with me.

This is how I felt over the past 3 months. Now, it’s over liao. Of course things get better when we don’t stay together. As I don’t get to see+ know how he flirts with other girls and treat them good. When I got things+ friends to keep me busy I won’t attach to him so often. Hahas.... Every time we stay together sure got problem one.

This time I am sure is none of our fault. We understood each other very well. Is the situation + timing geh fault lorh. Firstly he went to Sabah. I am sure he got some influences and strengthens their friendship leads to some changes. He is forever a hardcore fan of Dota which can’t talk to me. Then attachments at Penang which make his thinking mature pulak. Hehe.. Can’t run away with long orientation and events with juniors. 

All events come one by one. Attitude and thinking changed. Misunderstand can be so deep. How to handle lerh..? As I am so near to him, I am too free nothing to do and over concern everything about him. Even I felt creepy now. Oopsie~ 

No matter how I dislike the way he act or what he say, there is still a way that I can tolerate and forgive him de wor. Don’t you think it’s weird..? Hence, I conclude that I am a girl that loves him unconditionally. He is not that bad either. Just need to knock his head and remind again and again to get his attention. From this whole thing, I learnt that whatever difficult situation that happen between us, we could hand hold hand and settle it. Nothing is impossible. Our love is real! J

Now imma getting holidaysss for 1 week. Gonna pack and get ready for term5. Soon will be back to uni and meet mes amie. Miss miss them. Huh~ so tired. ^.^

Existance

it's been a long time i has not listen to this song.

Ahhhhhh~ 

feel good...

this song is dedicated to people around me

my family

my relatives

 my daddy

my buddies

my friends

my strangers

yess... i am teddy and i exist in your surrounding

please be aware of my existence

i ain't something you can't see or feel

don't ignore me anymore

coz i'll feel lonely

thank cute

my dear sweetheart

It's good you're having fun with your university friends,
you're teaching me to appreciate my university friends too


It's good you always play Dota when i'm around,
because you want me to support you


It's good you give lesser call and text messages everyday,
you want to tell me your exciting day face to face


It's good you let me waited for you every night,
because you know i don't sleep well without your sincere goodnight wish


It's good you bring me along everywhere,
so i'm ever ready just when you needed me


It's good you let me be alone when i needed you the most,
you're training me to be strong by my own


It's good you do not spend much money on me
you want to save them all for our marriage


It's good you did not spend much time on me daily,
you're spending your whole life with me


It's good you wish i could look beautiful,
so you can keep an eye on me and not other girls


It's good you got attracted by other girls,
that prove I've got a good taste


It's good you do not hold to the past feeling,
you said each and everyday our love is better than yesterday


It's good you let me plan everything,
you're training me to be your family planner


It's good you got crush on other girls,
so you'll know i'm still the best for you


It's good you let me tolerate you most of the times,
and that is the way i tolerate our kids


It's good you did not accompany me shopping,
you believe in my choice


It's good you rather tell white lies,
because the truth hurt deeper


It's good you let others to hurt me,
so i could learn to heal my little heart


It's good you speak hurtful words to me sometimes,
because you're speaking to my heart


It's good when you care lesser,
you wish i could be independent by my own


It's good you are able to hurt me,
it shows that how important you're to me


It's good you did not consider my feelings before doing something,
you simply want me to get use to the real you


It's good you did things that i don't like,
because you're training my patients


It's good you're changing,
when you're in a different circumstance


It's good you did not realize my dream,
you want me to achieve by my own


It's good you ditch me for your friends,
you're just teaching me to control my tears


It's good you tell lies,
you want me to learn trusting you blindly


It's good you get bored with our relationship,
as you has been loyal the whole time


It's good you allow me to cry whole night,
you're telling me that crying doesn't solve problem


It's good you did things that make me jealous,
you're testing my love for you


It's good that you don't defend me,
you want me to learn a lesson


It's good that you don't protect me,
you wish i am able to protect myself


It's good when you don't remember things about me,
you hope i can remind you from time to time


It's good you don't listen to me,
you're a man that has own opinion


It's good that you keep secret from me,
you're training my curiosity level


It's good that you're not dedicated,
you want me to tell you what i want honestly



It's good your love for me become lesser,
you're giving me a chance to fill em up again

love U U

i personally liked this movie and video because it remind me of my early years of my high school love. 

so, i love it.

this movie is so lovely ^^

and

there is a phrase that i support

don't appreciate, then need to break up

hohoho....

the ugly truth

when you're alone,

i held your hand tight,

when you're contented,

you let go my hand.

thank cute for reminding me friends > soul-mate.

for you that searching for fresh feeling and has your favourite girl beside,

you're having the best time of life

while you left me behind in dark

expecting me to accept your change

guilty was not in your library 

thank cute for letting me know that human is selfish.

last question is:

because of love, there is demand..?

or

because of demand, there is love..? 

i'm trying

Hahahahhaha...

muahahhaa...

imma deactivated fb already.

at last i've got the courage to do so. T.T

there are 2 main main reasons for me to take this action.

1: because of FB, i got hurt from friends.

2: because of FB i got hurt from . . .  some of the things i rather he tell me personally and precisely FIRST than me getting know tru 3rd party (friends/ FB). u and i also know FB is just a tool to stalk. haizzz....

to end all HURTS, i decide to chop off from the roots. 

at least i don't see, i don't know, i'll feel better. T.T

yeappp... i wanna be as happy as a lark.

just like these bear bear~

and the good thing is, i can concentrate more on bloggie and msn. wee... :)))

 

last but not least....

XOXO- teddy with love. ^^