mamami a~

After the last paper...
I had gathering with my course mate for the last time in the year 2010.
I thought after paper I am going back to Seremban. Who knows I'll stay and have fun with them. The restaurant name was Umami, a steamboat restaurant.. They have better service and hygiene compare to the others i went before.
What i like about that shop is. . .
They have a room decorated with Christmas ornaments and a very comfortable seat for steamboat. :P The ambience was there. It make it feel high high and high..

We eat and exchange gifts... The exchange gift sessions showed joy, merry and happiness. Everyone enjoyed it. Nahh.. this is our group photo of the day. I was superb happy. :")

 

i was gwen secret santa. I gave her a couple necklace. Weee~

And.. i've got a sprite and carlsberg from brendon. Till now i have not open and drink yet.

Then, I followed Karen's car and head to ktm station.. During the journey. . .
I am missing them. 
I am thinking of them.. 
I think, i fell in love with them... 
I felt bu se de and sorry to leave early.
Hmn..

all of their blessing will be my strength to face 2011. Thanks guys~

i found a way....

Huh… I want my weekend to be perfect. From now on, don’t mess up my weekend especially Sunday night. Don’t say that Monday is assignment due date and wanna do final touch up or blah blah last minute. I don’t buy that idea. That will only spoil my weekend mood and I hate you very very muchie. I seriously tremendously hate this kind of person. Haha..  Anyway, I had found a way to deal with these type of people. Since you don’t care, I also don’t care.. lalala~ You think I am nerd want all my assignment and assessment to be perfect meh.. Even my assignment marks, presentation, our group work is very very bad due to some irresponsible human beings in the world, I don’t mind le la… You like to drag your work, and I’ve done my part, I’ll leave everything to you. I am tired of being a reminder. Is not that I remind, you will quickly take action. Each time I remind you the due date and to hand up assignment, nobody care also. You dump your work all till last minute and make yourself stress… and you think I will do your part to complete the work..? Very funny.. No way man. You got lots of things to do is none of my business. You doesn't need to cook and do house chores like I do. So, I don’t see any difficulties in you to hand up assignment on time. The way you behave will only make you look CHILDISH. No use when your appearance looks great but did not manage your time well and affect others. Moreover, you guys only want to do things that you think is ‘’important’’ (as if laaa that will benefits for your future). The rest, just do it whenever you like. You want the assignment to have low marks, GO AHEAD. When lecturer give us chance to get higher marks tru presentation, nobody wanna grab that opportunity, 

I couldn’t be bother too…  :P

Group work- most basic is to have teamwork among group members. I don’t find any click among you guys. So that’s it. True that some of us done our part well and partner well. But, some really like a passenger (don’t do work punya orang) and bus driver (do work punya orang). Sorry to say that it is not free to ride on my bus. If you wanna ride my bus, you gotta pay BUS FARE (do ur part). If not, I’ll hug you and let’s die together. :’) I named people who don’t do work as PARASITE. Look here parasite, I am not a person who will let you ride free bus. If you want your marks, then do the work. I won’t do your work for you!!!! Blerr~ .

And I wanna add something. In group work, we share the same marks. So do things equally. I don’t do extra and I don’t wish you do extra too. When there is extra work to add on means someone irresponsible did not complete his/ her part well. Not my problem okie. Don't always relate things to me!!!!!! I am not the only one in the group.

I pass my liang xing jiu okie le. I can eat well and sleep well. The rest, I let it for god to decide.

~O mi tuo fo~

And now, is time to enjoy my life. Tata. . .

i don't care

when someone learn to be responsible for their work,
i learn to say i don't care anymore!!!!!
i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i dn't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i do'nt care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care. HUH~

feel better now. lalalalaa~

Mixologies

Arghhh... Having mixed feeling......

I've tried to control my feeling. Went quite smoothly. Not going to bother who they are and what they are talking. It really doesn't matter any more. I've got my own life. I doesn't need to look at people's will. I respect you. So I ask your opinion. If I don't respect you, I don't even give a damn look on you at all. I will not respect you if you don't even know how to respect yourself and do your part.  
You're a mould to me. 
You good to me, I'll be good to you. 
You make my life miserable, I'll make urs the same too!
I'll not treat you any better or worst. Just the same as you treat me. Fair~
(haiz... i still cannot let go. I wonder when will i let go this complicated shit thing)


First year end is coming soon. Gotta read bookie le. 3days more and i'm free from uni life. Great!!! I don't need to see those people face for some time. Don't know why, everyone say they enjoyed uni life but I suffered. T.T


Yesterday I went to kuo min camp. I saw little kids aged 12-16. I envy them. I wish I can go back to that moment. If the world really has a time machine, that will be the moment that I wish to stay. I had the most beautiful memories during camping. I became XX committee le. Two yrs ago, my friends and I were the committees for the camp. 4 yrs ago, we were member. ohh.. Time flies as we grow older. And i'm becoming more and more mature. ><


Last Wednesday had my wine dinner with course mates. I enjoyed the dinner. Was happy to receive a piece of chocolate. Hahaha... 

YES!!!!!

Celebrated my 3rd year anniversary with my beloved hubby. He came to Taylor to accompany me. Happy tho~ We did not went out, did not eat big meal but enjoyed ourselves by spending time with each other at home. Just look at each other we will be very very happy ady. :) Happy 3rd anniversary hubby!!!!

Hmnn... I had shopz for 2 weeks. Bought everything in my wish lists. Hapi hapi~

Eyeliner, baggie, shoes, xiang xiang, 
2 formal skirts, 6 formal shirts and 3 dresses.
 Couldn't help myself. It is year end sales. :P

After blurping out what's inside my heart, I felt better. Thanks blogger. :)

Kopi O Gao plss...

Hmm.... today is a happy happy o. dunno y..? Maybe I know why. 

Went to class as usual. Good thing is, suppose to have an assessment today. But we skipped the 2nd class. Lecturer not yet finish teaching so he continued the syllabus and ASSESMENT was CANCEL. muahahahha...

then, my course-mate all are in a insane mood now. They have not finish their homework. This week really tremendously hectic ya. 

ASSESMENT< ASSIGNMENT

hell yea right.

As for me, i've finished my part. i did all bit by bit. And i forced myself to finish the essay. I salute my father who taught me to finish homework before play!!! Hmnn..   I was kinda satisfied with the return for my sacrificed time. However, i made a mistake. I borrowed them my homework n they start kopi kopi and kopi o gao gao.. haizzz... At first i'm not willing too. If u wanna complete your work, do it yourself !!! When u kopi, what will u get in return?? Lecturer teach, all also blur blur ady. Now kopi more dun understand. U needa do some exercise to understand geh ar. 

In the end, i let them copy everythingg. Who am i to advise them. i'm useless + harmless. haizzz.. disappointed. :')

After that is our presentation for RDOD theory. It was okie la..

Then is the announcement of our final assessment for RDOD. huh..

the highest was like only 43/ 75.

what the~ noooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!

i cannot accept lor.

my opinion is lecturer purposely be very strict in this paper so we'll all study for final.

ishhh... cut my marks.. 

I'll make sure I STUDY & no one will have the chance to cut my marks...

My marks belong to me unless i made great mistake,

if not, u've no right to cut them.. :P

Scard me a while just now. i tot i fail to get 60%. grrr...

Btw, recezz moved to commercial block. kindaa lots of yummie mum mum i saw. :)

And hor, t3ddy & daddy important date had been snatched. I kept protecting it.

In the end, the most innocent lecturer snatch it. I'm going to sit for maths end assesment on my anniversary. Totally dislike lho.. :'( ROAR~ it is intolerate-able. Is an important day. I've got no power now. When i got choice, i'll make sure that day is free.. Is not any public holiday. Normal date yet  extra-ordinary meaning for us. unhappy for this. ><

Is raining heavily now,

So i'm going to have my miso soup as dinner.

Hullalallaallalaa.. tata~

hihihihi~ its been a week ya... hehe..

now writting notes about wine. is interesting. but i'm lazy to write notes.
do u wanna know why everytime i prefer to write notes than printing them..?

1.  i wanna save cost. $$$$ if i print, the cost of ink and paper will increase. i dun wanna waste any raw material available. it sounds stupid, but it's juz me. :')
2. i wanna keep myself awake n know what exactly i am learning. not to left out any small details. hehe..
3. practising handwritting...??? i guess it will only be more messy. hahaha.. however, my own notes, i'll understand better.

so. . .  have to write notes lor.. haizzz...

this weekend, mummy went to kl for dinner. i am too tired for travelling. so i refuse to go. the exact reason is, i dun wanna face those so called ''richie'' cousins and relatives. they did nothing. but is a type of feeling that they weren't into our family at all. so, i choosed to avoid looking at their . . .  face. however, they are my mom relatives. i cannot be so rude. ><

i escaped from the dinner but attend a birthday party and yam cha session with high school mates. the birthday party was awesome. i rmber i had twice. once is at a&w for fullmoon and another at my hse for my 8th birthday. ahh.. those happy moments. ^.^

as for yum cha, i am happy to meet my friends. strange feeling. i felt comfortable with them. maybe bcoz v gone tru much and they know who i am. they r struggling to study o. their syllabus seem to be very difficult. i am on off mode now. not knowing those competitive moment anymore. friends ar friends, it was fate for us to know each other. 

something to be highlight is, 

if U care for me, i'll care for U.

if the U just so so, i'll not bother much too.

tired of being bother soooo much. 

i, will treat people the way U treat me. 

so, it all depends on U.

currently watching sungkyunkwan scandal. quite a good movie. hehehe...
if time to go. it's late ady. +U+U in making notes ba.

~bored~

haizzz.... currently writting notes about kitchen class. tomolo got 2 assesment.
- miss jasmine de purchasing & cost control
- miss azura de kitchen theory...
 dunnoe y i am not soooo interested in these term subjects. all also . . .  ishhh... i really dunnoe what i am studying for this term.. this term 3 is the worst. ><

maybe i am distracted by korean, taiwanese and hongkies drama. so now writting notes + seat still to study is a hard time. T.T
so from now on, i will not get addicted to dramas. i'll only watch whenever i have free time.

seriously tired because of dramas, hse chores, running up n down and have fun wif bf.. huh~
i am sleepy now. helpppppp... grrr...

long time din blogg ady. coz busy wif assignment and assesment.. then dramas. and now daddy got sem break. making me busier..

Btw, Year End Sale (YES) coming soon. shopping shopping shopping. I also wish i can shop. But i got no enough cash. If i want, i can buy anythg i want also. New clothes, new handbags, new handphone, new shoes... But thr will b a huge consequences after i spend the money.I wonder hor, y last time i am not affected by what ppl wear and those branded brands existed. And now i will spy, and note about brands available. I dun like this kind of feelings.Seriously, i wish i can be myself, not care about brands and fashion. haizzz.... i got a keychain that has skirts, handbags, hdp and heels. that is the key chain that remind me not to be obssesed by fashion. Is not a game that i am afford to play. Come back t3ddy lim. Don't be like a robot follow what ppl wants!!!

I should spend money wisely. Spend on food is better than clothes. I don't wanna b a fashionista. hahahaha..

Just finish watching my girlfriend is a gumiho. the story line is quite interesting. I got touched. ^^
But the hongkies no regret let me down. is exciting but not interesting also. this year they will not win the best man & woman award i guess.
is time to chau ald. need to study.
Gambateh to myself and juniors as well as those who r sitting for spm tomolo. last year de today, i am also studying. huh~
knowledge is a life long learning right???

some random facts bout me...

yeahhh... is a holiday today.. but i got part time work later.. hmnn... dunno why i could wake up sooo early and end up blogging. :')

1. I HATE LIAR. 

since young your mother teach you not to tell lies or else your big little tooth will fall. like this also cannot follow. haizzzz.... 

if u lie to other people or me, u gotta get dislike by me. I am thinking that, if u can lie once, u'll be lying for twice and trice. So the things that you are telling is not trust-able. I don't care weather is a white lie or a big lie...

BTW, do u know the consequences of lying..???

U lie, and the person won't be able to know anything right. u think this will be okie..?? what if the person know the truth and she/ he felt betrayed..?? are you going to be there to heal   his/ her little heart..? THE TRUTH HURTS... and the heart will heal with scars!!!

Can you really accept yourself to tell a single lie..? 

For me no... i rather tell everything honestly and not willing to lie to anyone.

2. I HATE PEOPLE GOSSIPING AT THE BACK OF ME!!!!!

ah-aa..... i really hate people doing things at the back.. if you disagree with me or anti-me... you are welcome to tell straight in front of me. complaint as much as possible. i'll prefer you tell me staright forward like. . . 

'' hey, i don't really like you'' than talking sooo much bullshit at the back of me. 

talking at the back of me won't make me any better.. dump dump..

another thing is i don't understand why people likes to do thing quietly and secretly. what is the purpose la...? in the end, everyone will know. so what if you are the person in charge... you will make me feel that you're WICKED and DIRTY......... EWWW~

3. For your information, a real friend does not gossip bout each other bads to other people...you wanna be friend wit each other and wanna gossip. such a hipokrit to me. Friend will not change your bad attitude or the way you are, but try to get along with you. I really had a terrible attitude, but my friend will remind you from time to time. I know they had a hard time and i am in slow mode changing to become better. But they willing to sacrifice. This is called F.R.I.E.N.D.S okie.

4. I HATE FAKE PEOPLE aka ''JIA JIA'' de human.

this kind of human can be found anywhere at anytime. isshhh~

i really don't know where you guys got the knowledge and skills to be so fake..

did your parents or teacher taught you to be this way..?

you guys can act and bullshit very well.. i recommend you guys to enter hong kong tvb dramas. And i gurantee that you will win OSCAR AWARD!!!

when u wanna pretend, get far far away from me. Bcoz i know who you are.

5. MONEY IS IMPORTANT TO ME~

yess... i admit that i am budget concern and money-minded. I don't have sooo much spare money to spend like you do. i could only afford meals and a little treats for myself when i achieve something. SO??? is there anything you need to be bother...???

6. yippie.. intership is coming le. felt excited. i got to go Mandarin Oriental o. And i am choosing kitchen and F&B department 1st. my beloved.. hhehehehe... ^.^

7. I AM GETTING USE le. . . .

- guess what, i am not be goin back seremban for the 2nd weeks. hhahahahaa... a small little achievement. 1st weekend i went to daddy's place. we had awesome weekends. i don't know why i wish to spend my whole life just looking at the same handsome guy without feeling boring.. eheheheeh.. :')

-and i had promised to work on this weekend for taylors graduation day.

i rejected to help on a weekend as a student ambassador BUT accepted being a waitress for f & b department. i may be a little waitress but i am really happy to serve guest. I guess i am in love with food and beverages.. <3

-i am used to stay at this apartment. and i slowly feel as if i'm at home. the bed is hard, but i manage to sleep well. the members under the same roof is different from family members but v got along well. 

without wifi, i did not feel bored...

without air-cond, i did not feel hot.

ahhh~ finally found back who am i.

the road not taken

2nd week of term 3...

everythg was fine...

studies is okie..

new hse condition is great..

but friends are . . . hahahahha...

is just that everytime i go back home, i look at the room.. it was empty. only me alone.

this represent i am staying in a single room. not twin sharing. so i am paying rm500 every month. i am emo about this la.. but what to do..? i seriously don't get any reply now. all i need to do had done. waiting ppl to select me. :(

btw, i got the refund back. rm801. is better than nothing. can buy my se w995. but but but.. i understand which situation i am now. hdp is what i wanted. not what i need. so all these money goes to mummy ba. haizzz~

currently close with grape. she is a nice person. she is kind and decent. i like her attitude '' not to rely on others. in this world,all good ppl had died''. i support this phrase. nowadays where got same like last time. all people look forward money and their precious time / benefits. even when they are friends with you, you may b good at sumthg. this lesson i should understand from the beginning very well. Stupid me, hope that there will be true friendship. but how is it gonna compare with friends meet few months ago and few yrs ago???? human are just realistic. at least sometimes i can talk to grape or daddy. nowadays, i am no longer close with strawberry and banana anymore. i felt they are neglecting me. jackfruit, durian, and apple still okie ba. sometimes, the situation is just not u can handle. you just gotta accept it. haizzz... suan le ba. i dunnoe how to entertain them.. seriously they r not my type of friend ba. tat's why i could not behave like myself. hmn....i will live in my little girl aka t3ddy's world. goodbye. i shall not disturb u guys anymore. actually.. i am tired of chasing u guys. just let it go teddy lim. mei na me jian dan o! :'(

my result for term 2 is kinda good ba. at least achieve target that i wanted. i just need to maintain my target. although i am alone, at least i have my will to accompany me. it gave me strength. seriously. . . hahaa.. nowadays i borrowed pastry, beverages, main course books from library. wanna learn / at least get some recipes. 4 yrs of partial free education. so just grab whateva knowledge given. who cares... 

haizzz... should stop here. don't know what to blog oredi.

oh ya... on monday- friday i am taylorian.

on friday- sunday i am imu intruder.

and i am loving it. hahahahahhaa... :)

then hor...

lifespan of my slipper is 2 yrs..

lifespan of my high heels is 2 weeks

lifespan of my flatware is just one day.

in one day time i can destroy my flatware. it seems like slipper suit me best. :)

f33ls

Hmnn.. term 2 has just ended. Glad that it has ended. Hahaha..

Currently I am relaxing myself. No studies.. No hurry. no big big vacation or outing. i am tired of moving around!!! Just simply surf net, download movies, watch those dramatic hong kong and Korean drama can fulfill my holidays. I believe everyone is dramatic. Only those hong kong-nese, taiwanese and Korean are pioneer for acting.

After finish term 2, I gathered those notes at my document. Then I look at term 1 documents. Compare both semester, term 1 syallabus is just half of term 2. Ouch.. hahaha.. every paper I done my best. Except for moral education. 1^st of all, Monday lecture was totally useless. Tutorial class was fine. For our mid-term, moral was like the easiest. For final, moral is the only paper I wish to screw up. Totally cannot crap. Haizz.. as long as can get 60% and pass then okie le. Sorry Mr.Cheong. >.<

besides that, thinking skill assignment is one of the assignment to be remembered. our group 6B won the 2nd prize. guess what, group 6A is the champion. and group5 also got win. hahaha.. all our effort has been proven.

hard work always pay. ^.^

When I glance through my term 3 timetable.. I was like what the ****.

The only lecture that I complained gao gao is gonna teach my term 3. I seriously unlike unlike unlike. The classes that he conduct is a failure! The very first week ald have to see his face. Grr~~ the 2^nd lecturer that I complained in term 1 going to teach me also. Isshhh.. Sudah complain the divisional office also dunnoe how to do work. >.<

Taylor’s university college has been recognize as taylor university. Other than name and packaging, I don’t see any improvement at all. The road management is bad, hostel lagi buruk.

My mood currently is peaceful. Very nice.

And I like the way I am now. J

I have move into my new hse!!!!

My elder brother and daddy helped me. ;)

Of course I felt happy to move into new hse. I had never see the room before. Once I got in, I was glad that what I imagined was thr. Hehe.. after shifting all my stuff from old hse to new hse at 4^th floor, we rested a while. I arrange my belongings. Everythg get in order now. I went down with Yi Ling to meet Zhen Han. Meanwhile, my brother’s car could not start. So they stay a little longer downstairs. Later on, the sot sot de car back to its function again. They are going lur.. Before thry go, teddy hug hug daddy. Hahaha…

After that, the 3 of us went for dinner and back to college. During dinner, yi ling was a bit sad. It was her bufdae. She was apart from her family and her whole family was going out for mooncakie celebration.Huh.. 1 week already I did not sit at lakeside. I felt awesome. Dunnoe y, I like to sit by the lake. Got feel. Hahaha.. Then peter, benji, Elaine came. Elaine went to yi ling hostel. She was trying to drag her time so they dun come down so fast. Then yeong hann and alex arrive. We quickly transfer the edited video to yi ling’s new netbook & prepare the bufdae cakie.. it was all pink. Seriously truly for MISS TEN YI LING oni!!!!!!!

Sure she is happy, surprised and touched by the video. It was her beloved friends and family at kk. Who will not b homesick. My heart ache too when I saw her reaction. I was very tired to prepare for the party because during holiday i enjoyed too many outing. But when u see her tears, her happiness all tiredness gone.

At night, ben and Elaine visited my new house. Then they went home.Hmn.. new environment… @.@ and whole hse stayed by me alone only. after bath, I know I was very tired. I quickly jump to bed. Whole night I sleep = whole night I close my eyes and I was awake. I understand that 1^st night I ‘sam poh’ to new bed and new environment one la. I think I was a little afraid too. U know I was scared by the ex hse. >.<

When I went home the 2^nd day I arrange the furniture so 2 person can stay inside. After arranging for 1 hr,finally I got the space to stuff 2single beds, 2 study table wif chairs, 1 cupboard and 5 storey rack in my room. Felt great. Haha.. I cooked, bathed, washed my cloth and went to bed. I dunnoe why I am always tired. I wanna get 15 hrs of sleep. Haha.. I was thinking that no wifi, is not a bad idea actually. I can rest earlier and concentrate in my studies. =) Facebook-ing is really a waste of time. I was like getting back to old lifestyles. Then I begin to think about storybooks and novels. Haha.. trying to be a good girl.

3^rd day of stay. I went back to hse quite late today. I complete my thinking kill assignment product. Was kinda satisfied with the product. Hehe.. Today I was lazy to cook. Therefore I ate 4 pieces of bread. While having dinner, I thaught of having television in the living room. Then I’ll not be so bored. Hehe..I took bath and collect as well as fold my clothes. I wanna go sleep. But ,my hair was still wet. So I took the opportunity to blog. Although thr is no internet, nothing can stop me, kaki blogging to blog geh. Hahahaa..

This new hse is comfortable. All I wish is, my roommate could appear faster. Coz I really does’t willing to pay rm500 every month. I also hope that my housemate can shift in faster. I don’t wanna stay alone. I am lonely. I hate to be single. >.<>

nitezzz... muacckz.. <3>

~holiday-ingsss~

Ahhh...having my holidays..

feel super duper shuang!!!

d holiday tat i longed ages ago.. hulalala~

=)

I remembered the day after class, i straight fly back to Bkt Jalil.

Bkt Jalil= IMU= DAddy!!!

Almost 2-4weeks has not been meeting each other. I beh tahan liao la.

I officially miss him. hiak hiak~

Hmmnn... when I am on my way, I text him, but delivery report did not reply. sure is his phone gg.com.no battery ald.

Clever de me of course din panic. I knew the security guard quite strict. Hence, I walk like imma a student of IMU. walk and walk till the escalator. I plan to meet him inside library. On my way, I meet, Renu (daddy's coursemate). We chat tru FB before but not face to face. 1st time meeting her. She offer to look after me as well as keep intro me to other ppl.

(I WAS SHY)

She said daddy went to celebrate Nathan's bufdae. I was like, huh~

lucky I met U. thanks Renu for taking care of me. muaccksz.. <3

When daddy was back, we went to tapao dinner and went back to his hostel.

We slept in the living room. haahah...

Nx day, he went to class as usual.

(a hug hug + a soft kiss on forehead is what i got before he went out) Sw33t~

I dumped his cloths into washing machine,

sweep the floor,

pack our belonging -ready to go back home sw33t hometown. ^.^

(ahh.. i feel blissful.. housewife wanna be) kekez..

daddy come back from class, v ate breakfast and 'chu fa lorr'. hahaha..

that's all from me of d start of imma holiday.

muaccks.. <3

$p33chl3s$

i ask what gonna happen nx right. and there is something happening...

the terrace house i am currently staying, imma gonna leave it.

leave far far away from this house.

proudly i would like to announce that T3DDY IS SHIFTING TO NEW HOUSE.

when i got the idea to move, i am happy but at the same time i am worry. i wonder what's gonna happen to me..?

i asked myself...

will i meet honest roommates..?

what about kind housemates..?

is the house safe to protect me..?

or i will still feel afraid although i am inside house,

where house is a place where i can rest and feel protected.

i ask myself again,

can i use the kitchen for cooking..?

is there any basic facilities like water heater, refrigerator and washing machine..?

even without air-cond and wifi i also can survive. ( trying to be +ve)

i gotta think from A-Z.

every single corner i gotta think. scratch my head think n think...

i can't relax.

once i relax, everything gonna turn upside down.

i am afraid that history repeats.

then i found an apartment. 3 of my coursemate stays thr.

i pay a visit. the situation is acceptable while rent is affordable. i have decided to shift there. i called the agent of the apartment. he also agree to let me shift in during mid october.

do u know how happy i was... happy as in i set myself free.

everynite i sleep,

i doesn't need to feel being stuck in a house that has 12 rooms

i doesn't need to have 19 housemates at one time..

i doesn't need to take turns waiting for the multi cooker for dinner.

i doesn't need to smell the smoke that fly into my room when others is cooking.

i doesn't need to pay electricity for others when i am not using it at all.

i doesn't need to face the annoying & irritating agent.

i doesn't need to b afraid of those spirits here.

i doesn't need...

really doesn't need anymore.

and my agent of this terrace house got the news i am shifting, she said i can get back my deposit when i find replacement without time gap. first of all, i din tot of having back the deposit. just let it burn as long as i can lead a happy life. wish to run far far as soon as possible.

however,when i think of with the deposit and + rm100, i can get my dream handphone. i wish i can change handphone as the hdp i am using now kinda 'sot sot' ady. and i think of how my mom work every month for money, i dun wish to give up on the money.

And now, first stage of problems start.

CASE 1: for this terrace house, i need to find replacement to get back deposit.

CASE 2: i need to find a new roommate to share the room at apartment.

CASE3: i need to prepare a set of furniture. coz the apartment i gonna rent is for single. i need to prepare new set of furniture for future roommate.

at one moment i need to find 2 girls from outside world. then taylor dun have notification board. do u think it is easy..?

not at all.

Beside, i need to plan when should i move.

During raya holiday..? but after that i will be having my final. i don't wish to disturb that week.Somemore i got assignment to finish up. argghhhh...

When i am having my term break..? but that time that fella wanna move in ald. where can i keep my things..?

i really dunnoe. when i shift, i need to buy furniture summore.

room has not pay deposit yet n future roommate is still missing in action.

i am like ???????????

1 week later, i heard that my housemate has friends interested with my room. then he wanna rent it. He will be shifting in on 1st of october. which means i need to get out on 30september. case 1 settled. deposit is safe now. happy right.

2nd level of problem starts,

fews day later i got news from my coursemate that the girl staying in the apartment wanna extend her stay. which means i cannot rent the room anymore. is juz few words, 'i am not shifting' and my life got miserable.

the agent told me there is another smaller room but whole house is guys.

of course i don't dare to stay there. He himself also scard. then he said there is another room at highest level. but need to wait. he cannot confirm also.

i wonder how long must i wait..?

after 30 september i got no where to stay.

do i need to sleep on streets..? haizzzz....

Can u pls tell me why all these things doesn't happen to you but me..

is me only.

one side settled and one side turn out to be problematic.

every step i take, i am coutious but there is problems which are unexpected.

my life is like being fool up and down.

i wonder why god wanna play with me like that.

i know is test in life, but dun u think is too much..?

since i had move to kl, i am fighting..

everyday is like a battle.

from school assignment & assesment till personal life

i din even hav a good rest.

i am tired.

no, shud b EXHAUSTED!!!

i love my campus,my course and my coursemates.

they are all awesome.

but i hate my personal life at kl.

everytime i step out of taylor gate,

my emotion totally change. i don't see anything happy.

i don't smile. always moody.

i am not like that. i used to smile wherever i am.

i dunnoe whr is last time de myself.

i've changed.

my happiness & wide smile just fade with the pass of every single second.

T.T

if i have ever make u smile or cheerish ur life for a moment,

please close your eyes,

~and say this prayer for me~

''goodluck t3ddy lim.. everything gonna be alright''

thank cute!

I don't wanna miss a chance to see you!

besides family members, daddy is the one know t3ddy very well

knows

when t3ddy is happy

when t3ddy is sad

when t3ddy is lau kei.

t3ddy misses daddy badly.

wish can see him as soon as possible.

this weekend teddy is not going back,

so, thr will b 10 days being apart.

t3ddy need to sleep 9 times before she get to see daddy.

which is a big no no for t3ddy. >.<

last time when daddy is not going back,

t3ddy won't miss a chance to see daddy.

t3ddy will go to his place although is for few hours.

but this time is different.

cannot see him for 1 second is like very very long~

moreover, daddy gave t3ddy d biggest surprise which no one can replace on 8.8.2010 & 13.8.2010.

this make t3ddy more miss daddy!

IMU is like 15mins away from Taylor's lakeside with the barrier of a toll.

but none of us got car.

we are so near to each other.

so near yet so far.

daddy, t3ddy misses you..

can you hear me..?

.i love you.

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time!!!

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
~t3ddy don't wanna miss a thing of daddy~

($.$)'''

Hmnp... Today my thinking skill lecture Mr. Adrian taught us on environment in higher education.

He asked, who is still struggling to learn at college..?

I feel like raising my hand high high. But i did not. My struggles are not about studies. Is socialize with college friends, the living style and those surrounding I am not familiar with. After staying here for the fourth month, I still couldn't adapt this new environment. I felt homesick although the journey back to my home town is 1hour only.

Then, he asked us to ask a question to our parents.

He said,

''Pa.. Ma.. Yah.. Ummi.. where do you get money for me to further my studies?''

'' Do you face any financial difficulties to let me further my studies..?''

I was actually smilling.

In my mind, I was thinking that I do not have a chance to ask this question. Early of the year, before SPM result was release, my mom already told me,

'' If you do not get any scholarship, I will not be able to send you to college. You gotta do Form6.''

At that time, I was really disappointed. I cried and cried at any time and anywhere. I wonder how many times I had cried for this matter. All I want is to study at a better college. I promise I will do well. But financial is the major problem. Because of this problem, I could not realise my dream. I got to go form 6 and do something that I am not interested. Well, I got a good result. If not I will not be studying at Taylor now. Now, I got scholarship + PTPTN. Scholarship for tuition waiver while PTPTN is for living cost. I don't dare to ask more money from my mom. Because I felt guilty.For now, I am able to study at Taylor. What do I need some more..? So, I don't demand.

Let me tell u guys..

Every month,

RM300-room rent. (I can't afford more expensive room)

RM60.00 - electricity bill for a month. :(

RM20.00- for travelling

RM 30.00-for lunch.

If there is extra, I can use it to 'yam cha' with my ji mui during weekend. ^.^

That means, every month I use RM550.00.

Now, let me ask you.. Is RM8000 enough to support my living cost for 1 year..?

The answer is NO. So.. where do I get money.

Don't ask me. Coz I am also not sure what will happen to me when I am out of money. :'(

How do I get to save that much..?

I cook my own dinner every nite. Mom will prepare me with some vegetables and meat. I don't go out to eat at night. From here, I kinda save a bit.

Then every beginning of semester I will shop for different type of biscuits as well as some snacks to survive la. Then I don't waste money buying snacks outside.

See, to study at a 'branded college' I need to think of money from A to Z.

I think this is how I got my pimples on my forehead. >.<

When someone know that I am studying at Taylor, they will start to blah blah blah all words which I don't like to hear. For example..

'' Waa.. Study at Taylor ar.. So rich''.

After hearing this, I automatic will give them one kind of look. I seriously hate it. Yes.. I have no money. Does it mean I cannot study at Taylor..?

I still remember I am very sensitive to this topic. Whenever my boyfriend brought up this topic to discuss, my eyes eventually turn watery and tears roll down to my cheeks. It goes the same. During my World Class Scholarship interview, they talk about family and about money. I was trying to hold my tears. But in the end, I poured out. I really couldn't resist any more. The scholarship means a lot to me. I thought I ruined the interview. Maybe is my family background and academic result, hence I am eligible for this scholarship.

Although I faced difficulties, I did not regret choosing this pathway. I can go Utar, Stamford or STPM which does not need so high living cost, but I always think Taylor will bring me to another stage of life that I want!

Today, when Mr.Adrian discuss about this topic, I did not cry any more. I am glad I had let go this issue.

拿得起 放得下。

我放下了。

Money matters made me grown up.

I am not like any other, Mr.Adrian.

I thought value of money more than anyone in my class. :)

when life gives U LEMON!!!

it is hard to survive

in a world

which doesn't belong to you.

I always think that,

when life gives you lemon,

you add honey,

and it will become honey lemon juice. ^.^

it is easy to say. . .

but when you are facing the truth

is another story.

Deep in my heart,

t3ddy is crying like a little kid~

~GURlzZZz OuTiNg~

Here they are. Start of the journey! ^.^

shopping & going toilet take pic without me. >.<

Cover gurlz for playboy.

Spot for guess, vincci, voir, playboy, & mango.

She is mine. Not yours.

Admiring jean's big butt.

'Deng dai hou sang yong'.

I see... I see..

Queen Of d-Day!

Ms Ju Enn

The puterian sesat-ed when chan wa taking pic. =.=

Which guy shud i choose..?

minnie eenie minnnie mo. .

I am juz a small innocent kid.

Dun bully me.

YES!! it touches.... Are u jealous..?

Hi~ I am Li Wei...

No~ U r not. I am Li Wei..

I can't resist anymore.

I WANT YOU NOW!!!

Drama take 1

Take 2

Cold war...

Is a guy & gurl thing~

Ohh Myy Gooshhh...

Nthg happen. Coz. .

Ju enn said d toilet was too small. She is struggling.

Don't u ever try to push me away~

At last drama finished,

Mickey & t3ddy manage to reach before all hot till die.

What else other than picture, picture n a bundle of picturesssss...

If there is air-cond, we will b staying 2-3 hrs cam-whoring. ^.<

Inside 3L3M3NTS

Peak of the day~

Ju enn got a DRESS. Is a DRESS!!!

Is a DRESS & i'm gonna to die~~~

Mick3y & Playboy & Kampai & a wide smile~

People who make things happening. ^.^

Chocolate Mirror, u r yummie~

Promoting playboy became mission 2. =.=''

Jeanne & her romantic room!

Ju Enn & her DRESS!

Li Wei & her shorts!

T3ddy & vanilla & froggie as usual..

Mick3y & her heels, shirts, bags..

I am jealous.. heh!

Another jealousy occur! Haizzz..

Kampai promoter..

Those monkies who stay till 6a.m. @.@

FOREVER sexay leng lui~

The 1st to get drunk. *_*

Runner up. :)

Mini kampai nite. hehehehe..

shhh~~ dun tell anyone.

First picture together wif ju enn.

Xiao bao bao

Kuai shui jiao....

lalalalalal~~

Mick3y, Ju 3nn, T3ddy, J3anne, Li W3i

Ohhh.. is a double-decker bus..

Our luagages. And finally reached Seremban.

Oh yeahh..

Goodnite too.