Insomnia insomnia
insomnia a lot recently. Haiz… whenever I wanna close my eyes n sleep, a lot of
things will go into my mind. Situation at workplace and people around me. Most concerned
is my future. It’s like mid of june now and I am not sure what kind of life I wanna
have in the nx 2 years. Gonna start degree at the end of august. Enough of
mischevious life for previous 2 years where I choose to be a kampong girl that
stop myself from EVERY SINGLE THING I WANT! But now, I want what I want no
matter what it is. Thinking of doing part time work during weekends. Hence I choose
shops that eligible. First question is already killing me.
1- where I want to
work. Kl (sunway) or seremban..? going tru and back is not a problem as I can
follow chanel. But where..???? seremban got any other place I can work besides
sbux..? hmn…
After wondering and
all, I don’t get peace at sbux. I wonder is my problem or theirs. I am thinking
is it my mindset is different..? was it really that stress or I took it too
personally… is there any stress first of all..?
huh… the root and the course if it is what..?
2- what I wanna work
as..? I know it I want it, there is sure ways for me to achieve it. Proven is
just how I manage to get into sbux with just one walk in and 100XXXX strong
desires!!!
All these can I think
later on..? after all, I still haven’t enroll in my degree yet.
p/s: to work is to
earn pocket money. I want to get use to spending money and reward myself
excellently. I want to have whatever I wish for. But without waiting or someone
get it for me. I want it by my ownself. I am afraid I can’t cope in my studies.
So how lerh… I see my senior go do part time also yess saje.
To live in
kesempitan wang but ease at time or make full use of time and spend like a
normal person..? hmnn..
Conclusion.. time=
money. Previous 2 years din work partly bcoz lazy and I tought is not time for
being serious yet. At least I can spend time with beloved. Time flies.. end up…
I wonder what will happen if my weekdays is for study and weekend is for work. Will
love life change..? might not. Since he use to dota and we don’t date n outing
also. I shall think where is the most suitable place for me to work during
weekend. I am tired of fnb. Shall I try retail where I have not explore
before..? people say fnb is the most tired one. If my passion is at other
place, will it b hard for me..?
Huh… and the damn
audit. I am not in a mood or state for studying. My brzin already karat for few
months. U ask me to think and memorize+study. I am like oouuch… y do I feel
like back up-ing ar..? am I that weak already ar..? hmn…
My school fees is
already 100% being sponsored. My living cost is ptptn. Even so, $$$ is never
enuf. I wonder why ar..? I din spend much also. hmnn… how come ar..? will it b better
to spend more and $$$ just come in more. Lol… guess I am able to sleep now due
to some reading at others blogs and spend some time blogging it out. Just notice
that people who success is people who dare to live in their dreams. The hold
the faith of what they believe till the end. What you reap is what you sow. Afterall,
most scary thing in the world is our MIND. If you know what I mean. J that’s all. till then. :P