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My AIESEC

Hello, how are you..?
How long has it been since I last joined a club/ society..?
I couldn't remember. Whenever there is a chance or opportunity, I say to myself, next time. Maybe when situation get better, I've got more free time then I'll join. This is how I hypnotized myself for the past 3 years in university.

Once I am in university, I did not thought of joining any extra-curricular activities. There are not important. I asked senior and it's not necessary so I tend to give way. Slowly, I became professional introvert and anti-social. Just like an otaku (nerd). I know I am friendly and out-going but the thing I am doing right now is not in line with myself. I see my friends join student council, dancing, this and that. They are all happy creating university memories. Meanwhile, me on the other hand, feeling something is missing in me. I've got fear and barrier/ limitation that I created by myself even up to now. My excuses are always, no transport, later go home late night, I've got assignment to rush, my dissertation, neglect my bf, none of my friend joining, maybe cannot go back hometown on weekend and the list goes on non-stop. See, there are 99% of feedback telling me not to do. But deep down inside me, there is this burning hot 1% supporting me to do. All those 99% excuses are not from me actually. There are situation/ circumstances created by others thinking they are actually for the sake of me. The answer is no. Those 99% is other people priority. Not mine also. So, I decided to speak up for myself. Now, is all about me me me and me. My time, my life, my choice. Assignment/ dissertation/ examination? Have they ever stop haunting us..? They have been chewing up my 13 years and I need to stop giving them a damn.

I want to claim back the 2 years of university life that I sold off. The people that I did not get to meet, the fun I did not get to enjoy, the chances which I gave up on. Now, I want back that life. Actually, I want to help myself to be less introvert (one of my weaknesses) and learn to socialize. I keep saying meet new people and learn from them. How can I do it.

After browsing for the club/societies available in my uni,  I decided I want to join AIESEC. You may ask why AIESEC. Simply because it is something that suit my attitude and personality. It's something I like. I believe I can get abundance new experience and opportunity to go for an exchange. Yayy.. Go oversea.

First round, it was an online assessment. I think that was the last few day of assignment submission/ exam. I reach home at 1 am. I saw someone post it on Facebook. I click in and start dilemma-ing. Should I, or should I not. huh... I asked my bestie, Mei Kee. Well, you can get to know a lot things and meet new friends. But we've got enough of these kind of activities thing during our high school. Yeah.. I agreed with what she said as we are the one going through all those battle in high school together. Our extra-curricular activities scored 90 and above out of hundreds.

Then, I have a chat with hubby boy. Because he is someone important too, I need to seek his opinion. Not to the extend whatever he say I do. I just want to know his response is a yay or nay. He say, I don't mind if you join. Is a good thing also. Just manage your time properly. No rejection from two of my closest human. Hence, I fill in the super long questionnaire till 3 am in the morning. The next day, I still got class. I'm quite excited yet scared. Well, weather chosen or not I don't mind. As I already make my first move. At least, I TRIED!

After my study break, I went for an interview session from 4 pm to 6 pm.  I attended the interview. I thought it was just for few minutes and I could leave. No. The interview lasted till 6 pm sharp. They started of with ice-breaking and then introduction of AIESEC. Most of us are not confident about what is AIESEC actually. Next is individual interview. I've go a cute question. He is someone bold and his family members are all bold. How do I sell a comb to him? Could you think of any answer..? Haha.. The next day is my final management accounting paper. Worst is, I did not study anything yet. Oh...my... And that doesn't mean I will get selected also. Out of 100 students, they will be selecting 30 students only. One thing is, I am happy. I know exam is important. Everyone at AIESEC is student too. They have studies, so do I. When they can and I can handle too.

One phrase I learn from Jia En. Instead of think out of the box, why not take 3 steps backwards and see a clearer picture of everything. Sometimes, we do not need to be complicated and always out of the box. All we need is to be able to see not only the surface but also deep inside.

That end my trial story. Do you think I've been selected to be an AIESECer..?

Thank you for taking part in the interview. We are sorry to let you wait and let you scroll for so long (yea.. the mail was long and I keep scrolling downwards). Last word was, congratulations. You have been selected.

Whootss... Imma happy kid. And I am proud to be a member of this leading organization. It is something I want and I got in. Out of many student out there, I've been selected. It's not easy yet not that hard to join. Shall I rephrase it to nothing is impossible and difficult. All you need is passion. The rest, you can leave it to God.

I remember I told Mr.Patrick (an experienced lecturer) I want to join AIESEC. And he say, go for it. It's an international platform. I just say for fun and now I really manage to realize it. It is also one of my resolution to join this NGO organization. Well, I manage to fulfill one of my target again. Happy....

On 17th August 2013, there was an Induction Day for new member. Back then, I was having semester break.  I don't mind waking up early to take the 6.30am KTM from Seremban back to uni. Some say I am crazy. Yea.. When it is something I like, I give all my might to do it.

I was late by 30 minutes. By the time I step into the lecture theater, I could feel the positive momentum that attract me to be there. From that moment on wards, I know why I am an AIESECer.