♥ papi & i ♥

Don’t~~~~

Don’t let me listen to a fight or get involve. I’ll cry.

I seriously beh-tahan someone in my family argue. 

I can fight with anyone but not family members. Coz they are my precious.

Let me tell u a story. Long long time ago, I almost forgot when it was. My relationship with mama is good but with papa. T.T

Papa/ papi~ are what I call him. He is another version of my life.

I remembered~!!!

The way my papi talk to me, smile at me and make joke each time. He is a very out-going person. He’s cheerful (expression don’t look like) and kind. Kinda kiddo sumtimes. Hahas..

*A fact- last time, when I was younger, mama and I sit on the same sofa 

(same row) Papa use to jia jia walk to and fro around us, stand in front of mama . . .

and. . .

Butttttttt~ bruttttt~ yes. Is a loud farting sound. Nah, a gift for u with a wide smile. =.=’’ mama will kick papa’s butt ask him go away. J

Papa use to go out station for work. Each trip will be like 3-6 weeks. So, I’ll only get to see him once a while only. He’s back for a week break continues to work. I love papa to be at home. Coz I use to think that mama sayang both koko more than me. And papa sayang his little princess the most. Muahaha.. I feel safer to have him in the house. And, papa is more generous. Whatevea I ask for, he’ll never reject. Every night, I’ll follow him go yam cha. Both of us, will walk to the hawker stall. Papi will hold my little hand while I sing song for him. Loves those golden moments. Oh ya.. before he depart for work, he’ll ask me to give a kiss on his cheeks. When I was a kid, I don’t know what he works as. Each time I ask, where are you going..? Papi will say, go “kao lui”. Haha..

Papa and I have the same habit. We love our environment to be clean where as mummy- she likes to make things meesy. Grrr~!!!

Papa never uses a rotan or hanger to hit me. Never ever in my life. Coz I’m her cute little princess ma. He where is “se de wo” Haha.. Only my mom does the hitting part and he end up “tam tam” me. Bring me go makan makan. Hehee..

I got used that papa work out station.

Luckily the day, when the creature came into my house, papa is in the house. He’s the hero for me. He took the creature away and let it leave. Huh~ at night I couldn’t sleep and keep crying. It’s nightmare.Very very the scard lurr.. Papa and mama would sit beside me and watch me sleep. So “hang fuk” right. Teehee..

Everything was like a wonderful fairy tale where princess is kept safe in the kingdom until she walk out and met his prince charming.

Nightmares begin. >.<

Papa’s age is not suitable for working anymore. It’s quite dangerous for handling big big turbine machine. So, he stayed at home all the time. In my perception, papi must be thinking himself is not working and . . . he smoke quite often and got more fierce. When he talks a little bit louder, I’ll cry. Coz he never ever talk to me this fierce before. His volume raise a bit is also considered fierce. ><

Ngam ngam start pak toh, quite often I go out of the house. Slowly go out until night and midnight. Oh..no.. papi dislike already. I know he doesn’t like me go out with guys. Doesn’t like me go out often until late night. Thou he did not tell out, I know. 

How..??? he did not talk to me. The way he talked to me is different. He did not smile and hide himself at the balcony. Each time I talk to him, he only nod his head or answer with 2 words. That’s all. He doesn’t even look at me. I am freaking sad at the moment. 

Between boyfriend and father, I don’t want to choose. Both also important and I want both! My 1st mistake.

At that particular bad moment, I am busy with queen’s guide stuff. Omg.. gg.com.ownself cari problem. haizz.. those struggling moment, I sleep at 3am everyday and woke up at 7am. Late for school very very often. My room is in a mess. I am superb busy during weekends. Need to go camping and this larh that larh.. All dump into me. I need to study summore. Papi see me like that, he ask me not to join. To him, it’s useless. For me, I love guiding and is important for my future. I insist. So he kept quite. He refuses to talk to me again. Sobzz..sobzz.. Each time I talk about him, I’ll cried. My heart aches. . Huhu~ 2^nd mistake. T.T

The 3^rd mistake would be, I said I wanna pursue hospitality course to my auntie after SPM. And that auntie say all those negative things. Not even a positive words. Omg.. my papi listened and ask me again at home.

On that creepy night. . .. 

Papi: what course do u wanna take..?

Little princess: ermm.. hospitality management.

Papi: why do you want to pursue this kind of course ha. Hotel is such a complicated place and blah blah blah. Why don’t you study finance/ accountancy sit in office and work from 9am-5pm..? is more polite for a girl. why..? (in a serious tone)

Little Princess: L why don’t give me do sumthg I like wor. I like this course ma.

Start to cry already. In my heart, I was thinking like, my auntie is a fire starter and I dislike till the max. That time papi dun like to talk to me ma. Suddenly talk, I got a little bit scard. >.<

*a little small argument*

Papi: you like den I cannot say anything already.

-    Conversation end-

Ran into room and cry like nobody business. Financial is a big burden. The most supportive one did not support me. T.T Papi continue to anti me. L even the day before I went into Taylor’s to study, he scolded me for doing things at night and not during the day.

Haizz… maybe quite some time I am not staying in the house, papi realize that it doesn’t matter what course I study as long as I’m happy and safe. He is also getting use to daddy appearance in our world. Get use that I frequent go out and not at home.

At last~ 

nowadays, he’s willing to talk to me. Smile and joke with me like last time. Glad that the sweet moment is back. Hooray.

You know what; 

my papi used 4 years to accept daddy

and

 1 year for the hospitality course.

Papi din get education till secondary level. He only studies until primary six. Believe or not. I am always very proud of my papi can earn money for our family and grow up 3 of us. He sacrifices a lot for our family. Clap clap. ^.^ 

Papi is the person who loves me the most. And I love my papi too. :P

That’s the story of papi and I.

Here's. . my mini family pix.

a reward for reading the post. nyek nyek~

Teddy has got papi + mama, 2 koko, a daddy with 5 little teddies and friends to love. How could I not living on top of the world ya. Hehehe.. 

till then,

mmuacckz.. 

cute cute de Teddy