Very Soon

Very soon. Very soon jiu will end this 2^nd last term of my 4 years education.

They say when you are about to die, you will think of all those times when you were younger. I don’t know why, recently, I kept on thinking about the first first time I joined Taylors. Before receiving scholarship. Elder brother fetched me to my first hostel. It all started that drizzling evening when I swear to myself, sacrificing everything I aimed to be here. I must succeed in whatever I do. The least I want is to let my family members down. I know what it is happening around me. The only thing I wish to see is to make them feel proud of me. I remember I don’t have anything. Didn't have bank card, just some money, with my baggage and voila. I reached. That night was the first night I slept alone outside. Excited, nervous, full of curiosity of how tomorrow going to be like.

Slowly, I met some friends and continue my living. From strangers became someone who impacted my life. Pictures of how I first talk to my  first uni friends, Elaine, and then we always eat at Crispy Popiah, my first group mates during geography class where I can’t remember their Chinese name, and then met Yi ling. She being blurred the most and cutest. Haha.. We have got the big noisy group, Ben, Peter, Chin Yoong, Loke, Sherene, Grace, Diana, Sherlyn, and my first Indonesian friend, Lauren I saw all of them at kitchen class. And our first kitchen class was crème caramel. All these first feeling, is flashing around me. All those unhappy memories in NO1 house is being reflected too. Because I got only another four months here. 

 

Front Office Class

Help Yi Ling move to hostel

Came back from shopping at Sunway Pyramid

Our very first product. Wearing formal inside kitchen!!!

She.....................

Our first soft roll

The Legendary Starbucks Planner

First Kitchen Class

Moi toolbox... 

First time chef cooked and we ate like hooligan... 

Even the bone is not left out!

Le simple dinner with Yi Ling

Off to Granny's Kitchen

The time when i'm lost >.<

But i met good good friend

Bollywood Night!

Played during kitchen class

Oh yeah... We selca a lot.

Chop vegetables into many many patterns

(2010) Le auntie: Girl, how long are you going to study..?

Me: four years….

(2012) Me: …two years… next year graduating…

(2013) Me: still got another four months… My actual graduation will be either (2014/2015).

I’m glad. Really glad that each term/ semester, I did my very best. Thou I know I can be more robotic, evil, cruel to myself and perform extra ordinary well, I choose to live like a human. Make some minor mistakes, enjoy and play while studying. 

It’s all thanks to my friends. Seriously, without their patience and cover up, I may not be as happy as I am now. Perhaps little people understand how I fight previously. I don’t blame anyone or hate anything. It doesn’t matter if I’m born poor. It matter if I never put in effort to die rich. 

Thanks to those friends that tolerate my abnormal speaking, unique attitude, and super introvert where I’ll want to go home each time weather its hostel here or Seremban. 

You guys deserve the best of me because you guys pick me up and did not abandon me when I’m at downtime. Through you guys, I learnt a lot. I learnt to be honest, I learnt that $ is not everything. I learnt about social class, learn how to spend like a boss, eat good food, shop like a girl (cause I just lazy to do shopping unlike the godlike shopaholic Ah Ling), everyone patterns, about this and that a little. 

Thou sometimes it’s exhaustive being with you guys, you guys showed me friendship/ relationship no need talk so much. Understood can already. And most importantly, improved my relationship skills. Not everything can be fair and square. Will have losses and gain. Doesn’t matter in time. Sour, sweet, bitter, spicy also tasted with you guys. The signature of our group is, each and every one of us have mini tummy. Haha… Perhaps we ate the similar stuff for so long together, so xiao tummy also grow together. Teehee… 

I superb appreciate this lifelong education and journey. Obviously it’s not a smooth road where everything is prepared well by my parents like some of my course mate, this make me know its value more. I am not scared or afraid of any difficult subjects, I am only afraid no education given to me. Time seriously pass.

I’m grateful for choosing this course too. After all these years, in the end, I am still the happy me when carrying a tray moving around serving varies type of people. Kayy. Enough of reflections. Let’s go back to reality study mood. 
Just one question, I won’t be asking in front of you guys, what do you think of me when you first met me and now..? haha.. 

Good luck for all of us who will be sitting for our final. Remember to do your very best and keep it up up up till the very last moment. I’m praying everyone to be successful together gather. 

Like a G6

wanna have a sneak peak on everyone's profile..? this is sincerely from teddy with love. hahahs..

1st friend i know in Taylor lakeside. She is very loving and adorable. She likes yellow colour and letter 'D' very muchie. Firstly with straight hair and now curly. hahas.. she's from a historical town, Melaka. go to mamak and order maggie goreng + teh O ais. she dislike me hit her head. always in a kan cheong look when serious mode ON. hahhas.. her baju+ room always very wangi. she is elaine chua hui ling. ^^

2nd person i met would be him. he looks attractive to me on the first day of orientation. i did not remember i spurt out these words "who wanna be in the same group with u o". but we still enjoyed 2 years together. not really close to him until we are in the same group in thinking skill assignment. from there, i saw his leadership and slowly admire his seriousness. very 'man' o. hahahas.. forever sakai and caring. thanks for being my bro, chong chin yoong.

3rd would be a girl standing next to cy always. she has the same name as my high school friend. that i why i firstly ignore her coz i am scared. same name and same attitude. lol... then slowly we talk to each other. enjoy talking and eating together coz u're understanding enough. sometimes u throw tantrum like a da xiao jie and cry like a crybaby. your emotion is like stock market up down very fast. hahahas.. lastly, we still end up sticking together no matter what happen right, errica tan pei wern. 

4^th lucky person is a guy. He is very the man (nan zhi han) and sweat a lot. Meet him during our first geography class because of group assignment. I just dunno how, Elaine and I go to him and ask to be a group together. Yuen fen bah. Then he drive me to Bkt.Jalil starting of the course. I din realize and he just agree even though it’s far. Grrr… some more always drive me go home after service/ kitchen class. He is reasonable and able to analyze situation efficiently. Able to psycho people when it comes to decision making. Lately he loves to sleep during class and became Puchong old turtle koh zhen han. One more thing, he always say this, “very fast hor, now already week. . ., few more weeks final already”. After 2 years of these words, we finally ended diploma now. Hahahs..

5^th guy that we meet is a bit weird. Meet him together with Elaine and zhen han. He has the same surname as me but got Africa skin colour. Mini size. Ooopsi~ when he speak the first mandarin word, seriously shock us all 99. Hahahas… He is the clown in our group. Always speak nonsense and joke that laugh die us. Always late for classes and zhi lian. He is kind hearted+ helpful. My little bro, ivan lim hanyang, y u no girlfriend..? hahahas..

I spotted the 6^th person her with a pink big bag+ starbucks notebook and bun her hair like a xiao jie. Erhmm..Her  appearance make me feel like she is somehow some high class girl. Not really start to talk until she ask, “can wear this kind of shoes mie” after first service class at locker there. Hahahs..  after that we start to talk and acknowledge each other presence. Slowly got to know she freaking love to eat and very the “gu niang”. When we go shopping together, she is first to see finish everything. Lol.. The girl who love die pink is ten yi ling.

Hmnn.. I spotted her with very perfect grooming. Little heels and short hair. Very the yeng. She was kinda close with us when staying at hostel. Later on, I know she is karyn choo cousin and gf to kitkei’s bro. she is grace choo ern yeng. lol.. what a small small world. Her partner in crime would be a Bruneian claiming she is blonde. Very the playful but I know she is a good girl. Sherlyn mui zi mann is her name. Waiting for a gathering with u guys. Hehe..

Hahhas.. the 9^th would be a guy. First look at him at geography class group with chin yoong. After that is kitchen class. He volunteered to help at first and we nominated him to be class rep. term by term and he is our honorable class rep for 6 terms. Wasai.. superb long. At first I seriously freakingly hate him. Coz he like power and handle things in a mess. =.=’’ somehow the mess turn out well. Hahahas.. appreciated that he take the effort to separate each and every one of us and jumble up everything. He is caring and gentlemen enough. I salute him for taking all responsibilities. Without Benjamin Teo Tsai Sherng, group 6 is not like a G6.

Tadaa~ the 10^th person is who lerh..? is lokie lokie. Meet him during theory class. He is sitting together with eu jin. Din really notice he is in our group until I meet him at kitchen. Start to get close when we are in the same group for thinking skill assignment. He is brilliant. His English is better than me. They say he is a good boy until he mix with kenny’s gang. Huh.. I can see that he refuse to smoke but gave up in the end. ugrhhh.. pourquoi..? he is always emo and thinking is very the negative… >.<  after he mix with kenny, he seldom go with us. even if we offer, it will be an awkward moment. y lerh..? still not yet settle this mystery…

It’s sherene and Diana that I got to know together. Huh.. not really close to them. They are always together. But when Diana left us for her future, sherene was left alone. T.T of course it is hard for sherene. Somehow, language barrier is there.

Then i saw this girl during orientation. I tot she is Chinese. Din really know she is Indonesian Chinese until I start to talk with her. Hahas. She is younger than us 1 year old. Always stick together with benji. She speak loudly and act like a boss. Always very lazy and settle things last minute. Her name suits her best. Lao ren xia setiawan limarga. Hahahas..

Ahem ahem. Next is our beloved pet, ponda. Hahahs.. when I first meet him, he is like a gay/ those who don’t like to study but going to uni for fun. Lol… blur blur and noob noob look. Hahahas.. Although some people ignore him, chin young and ah wen still friend with him. I remembered cy said, “he is my brother, I cannot leave him” when there is grouping session <3 after some time, we got along and I also start bullying him. He, peter luo lian yang who got a very high standard for gf de o. hehe..

Terry is a guy we meet during term1. He left after that to pursue fine art. He is weird at first but I think we know him not deep enough. He is great that come back and visit us and support our service class. No chance to study together.

After terry left, our group added a member by the name of joan chee. She is a good girl bah. Joined us and able to get along slowly. She is more close with sherlyn and grace bah. However, she felt this course is not what she want. In the end, she leave for block C. lol.. I don’t know what course she is doing. Hahahas..

Due to some timetable schedule problem, alex wai and valentine joined our group. The journey is just 3 months. Alex is funny and helpful. He is lazy and like to fool around. Hmnph… valentine is smaller size than me. She is a little bossy. Huh..

These 2 years, people come and people go. Temporary I am still alright. Might afraid the feeling of empty+lonely as we won’t be attending class together anymore. What am I gonna do when I miss you guys..? looking back at those pictures will make me happy but they are only a magic captured to remain the moment. we can’t go back to times when we spend together. But I’ll cherish every moment. not to forgot, 2 years gone, my blog have been active for 2 years with all up and down of u guys. Hehe..

it will remain as a secretive one. Bluekks..  

Week 9 Finale Term

Hmnn.. somehow… tick tok tick tok. No matter is a happy or sad moment, it won’t last or stay. It’s almost final. And I’m lost. Y did I say I’m lost when I’m doing my daily chores, routines and so on. I am asking myself this question while walking back from home. What do I want to achieve. What I want in my life… I’ve already a scholar. I’m already in good living conditions. There is nothing I want to chase after or tired of being in a competition of being most top or best. All I want is to open my own restaurant. I wasn’t like that at all back then. I am thinking should I let go everything I have and just be simple. Y is I studying like mad when I know I can just pass and need to get a pass. The answer I finally got is NO.

Not giving up (it’s kinda last minute) when I’m near to success. Not to forget to enjoy every moment of torture. You just need one second to give up but u need courage to walk on. So, where is my courage hiding? All come out bah. And I admit that I don’t want to regret 30 years later when I’m a boss. I can feel that whatever there’s in my life, I give the best shot. I no coward. Although it’s nothing, but I just want to perform the best to prove to myself I can achieve it. Achievement will lead to satisfaction! J basically I am moody coz I dunnoe I am on the right path anot. I will get sad when things I do get wrong. However, challenge accepted. I’ll prove I’m better than what u think. ^^ thanks for all lecturer that guide me throughout these 2 years. All my rational, positive thinking and analysis come back bah. Is time for a war! Is not stress that destroy u, is your reaction.  

On Monday, we had revision kitchen class. What a memorable one. The product we did seriously not up to standard. I’ll improve it! My right hand just got burn. Oouch.. when it just burn, I tot my hand is gonna get cooked. T.T pain as in no words can describe. Can only uuuuurghhhhhhh bitterly. Keep running on tap water. I am scared. I dunnoe what to do. Right hand is important to me. Writing, holding, drawing, washing, cooking, and a lot a lot of things I cannot do already. >< after that, the pain is unbearable. But what to do, I cannot chicken out and just leave my revision class. I no coward. I got courage! Continue my work as usual. Later on, the pain is gone, blister and pop pop came out. Looking at it, I can only say thank god. Thank god the wound it there. Not inside my palm or anywhere else. I can still hold and write but not too much. It’s less energetic. I did not see a doctor. Can doctor cure my little burned hand..? no.. he can only consult and good medication+ extreme care is what I need. Hubby was not really concern at first as he tot it is minor. After he saw the picture, it should be a mother of god ba. When home, bathing, wearing clothes and using right hand was difficult. T.T. at night, it’s soaring. T.T the girls will say it leave scar and not pretty anymore. I’m not so concern about that. It’s an accident. One day, the scar will disappear also. When I see replies from the pic i uploaded, I’m . . . maybe I should only private the pic to hubby only. Coz making people feel worry is not a good thing. Arghh.. stupid me. Today is Wednesday and I should go out to pharmacy and buy medicine. Ishhh… stupid stupid! Btw, it’s peter’s bufdae eve. We just prank his myvi. Hahahas… imma happy to give surprise and make people around me happy. ^^ you mad bro..? hahahas… till then. I should start with second set and move on. Nothing is able to stop me from achieving what I want. Lalalala~ sing a happy song. Watch kimchi drama sin. :P   

Btw, changed my songs. I really like these 2 songs from yiruma. Giving me inner peace. Hope u enjoy. Listening to musical = treat ur brain good. ^^ might not be blogging for a while till i'm really stuck. hope the exam faster come and end. then i can enjoy my crave for dramasssss... control... control for now!!!!!

20 from now on

i am just 20 years old. is it this age i must carry such a huge responsibilities..? is like beyond my limit. i am studying and not working. i know my situation is special. do you know how i wish i can have another choice. i do wish to live comfortably have someone that can look after and listen to me. i know everything is possible. i am tired and sick of it. why can't just let me undergo normal ppl life..? sighs. . . hopefully everything can go back to its place as soon as possible.

needs

What can i ask for, when the most basic is not even there. *Sighs*

互相残杀!

I waited you for the whole night. And this is what i get. Good. Keep it up. Continue doing this to each other and i'm pretty sure that you will never get to see my smiling face anymore.















i like you very much. can you don't hurt me..?
it's okie. not like you are going to care or comfort me also. For you, it's always not your fault. it's mine. Sorry~

is it really so difficult to put a little effort and sacrifice for me..?

invi~

i am so useless... i don't know how to make you understand what i want. hmnnn... sad arghh... i know it's small and not really important. but somehow it affects me. i just got a little not understand. :'(

The same movie. when i asked, you say you are going to download. i understand and accept this situation to download and watch instead of going to cinema.
You and went and watch with your friends...
when the movie is already downloaded inside your lappie.
Am i invi to you..?

I just don't understand you that well~

too many work to do

Inner peace inner peace…

Ohm mali mali ohm…

I’m trying.. trying very best not to rely. Trying very best to be independent in all aspect. Taking responsibility of my life à future. Well, just let me do things I want and be myself. I am happy now. Who care if it’s a critic or compliment. I live my own life. I don’t satisfied people who are a random passerby in my life. I love+protect those who care for me nia. J

One question… till now, I still wondering is grooming very important..? 

is 1^st impressions > your character+ attitude..? 

if it’s that important, I guarantee you will judge me wrongly. Hahhahaas…

I am a person who rather you

“Hate me for who I am, but not love me for who I am not”

Existance

it's been a long time i has not listen to this song.

Ahhhhhh~ 

feel good...

this song is dedicated to people around me

my family

my relatives

 my daddy

my buddies

my friends

my strangers

yess... i am teddy and i exist in your surrounding

please be aware of my existence

i ain't something you can't see or feel

don't ignore me anymore

coz i'll feel lonely

thank cute

a little update

Hohoho…. Long time din update my bloggie ald. Coz recently nothing special happen. Hehe.. ohh ya.. I’ve change department from housekeeping à front office. Staying away from housekeeping is my greatest relieve. No.. settle one major problem in my life is like I can breathe again. Housekeeping first. It was like my last week already. Then only I can change uniform into supervisor and learn to supervise. I thought it will be like that. Who knows. Wearing a supervisor uniform still need to clean toilet. What~!!!! It’s okie. Used to it already. At night, when we are doing turndown, I really like the atmosphere and spirit of turndown compare to morning ( room attendant shift). Alright. 

Last 3^rd day, I went to become PA- just walk and walk around the hotel. Lol.. the kakak really teaching me “something”. hahahhas.. Last 2 days, I went to florist with Jac. Hulalaa~ best best day ever in housekeeping. So relaxing facing those flowers. And first time cutting 5oo stalks of roses.. roses are red, violet are blue, . . .  and I dunnoe how to continue already. Teehee.. we even follow the chef of flower to send grand flower stand to Pavillion for Mayflower during Tokyo Street opening. A free trip. More galla. Hahaha.. Last day, I became desk clerk pulak. Huh… sit there do nothing for whole morning, coz desk clerk said she will teach me after lunch break. Mana tau, occupancy high, they need assistance to clean room. So, it will be me. T.T no matter what uniform I wear, I can never run away to become a toilet cleaner. So, what is the point of asking us to change uniform and try different role in housekeeping..? Noob.

By the way, just wanna share a bit. Is about daddy and i. we got some seriously serious matter last week. He did not notice but I told him already. Kinda weird. I dunnoe how to react and handle. All I know is, I love him very very muchie o. hope our relationship will be bless. I do really wanna hold his hand and walk the rest of our life together. Only him.  I only want him to take care and love me. It must be him. =)

it’s okie.. amoi now in front office department. Great. I got a great trainer at there. Responsibility and all sort of moral value she has. With great trainer, I’ll have great training. And I enjoy myself at Front Office. I hope Jac can faster come to Front Office and join me. Hooray… hahahas.. and thanks to her. Because of her, I got back to Seremban early and get to meet daddy before he depart to Penang for 3 weeks. She stayed until 11pm for my last day and volunteer for afternoon shift- coz I got no train to go back after 11pm. Kinda dangerous to rush last train and walk back home.

Thank cute Jac and sorry. Because of me, you stayed till 11pm at work and 12am was your bufdae. Yesss.. I must treat you something for your kind heart. :P

Alright that's all. I just wanna ask, why do people does not like third party, little three aka xiao san in a relationship lerh..? can share with me… hehe..

Till then. Teddy~ 

The 7th day

Let see what I can blog tonight. Huh~

Woke up early in the morning, 5am by shock. Looking at my handphone and found out that my locker key went missing. Without my locker key, I gonna get fine by MO. Haizz. Cannot open locker is a big big trouble. Quickly search high and low, in and out for it. Checked every corner of the house. Most scary is, I might left the key on roadside when I went out to makan the day before. Keep finger- cross. Damn worry you know. Got shock by this kind of matter early in the morning is not a fun thing. And of course, I checked my pants which I washed yesterday and found it. Alleyluya…

And then start my journey to MO (internship place). Work as a toilet-cleaner for the whole day. I’ve cleaned like 20-25 toilets. Haizzz.. if every day is like this, imma gonna die soon. Real soon. Every parts of my body are paining. I just don’t like being a room attendant. I got no more energy to work like that. It’s torturing. And I got the thoughts of quitting. But who am I to do it..? haizzzz… miserable life. Please end soon. Add on, today was the first day of time of the month. Arghhh… I am weakening. Full blast of headache + leggie very weak. I can faint any moment. Moreover, I got senior assistance which is a granny. Her speed and attitude make me more frustrated to work with her.

Left work at 4.30pm and reach home 6.30pm. I miss a chance to meet daddy. He went back around 6.15pm. We “cha jian er guo”. This makes me more more more sad. Straight away take bath and went to bed. Keep awake coz tummy feel bad. L Chat with daddy and able to sit again. If not, imma lying until tomorrow morning.

Wasn’t it an awesome day..?

Something new

I MUST blog today. Today was my first day of internship. Being an intern, I’ve tried before and am the same hotel. The hotel’s staff gave me a superb great impression for my 1^st training in kitchen and F&B site. Now I seriously treasure the way they treat me with sense of humanity.

After finishing work at housekeeping department today, I went to meet my manager with Jac. 

At there,

Trainees: we are done. Can we know what our shift is tomorrow..?

Manager: alright. Your schedules is not prepare yet. Tomorrow both of you will be working from 8am to 4pm. This is the morning shift. Another shift will be 2pm to 10pm. Sometimes you've afternoon shift too.

Trainees: 10pm. Whoa~

Trainee J: Okie... Morning shift is 8am to 4pm. What time is afternoon shift..?

Manager: Afternoon shift is 3pm to 11pm. usually you’ll train 3 days morning and 3 days afternoon or mid shift in a week. Depend on which section you are. There’s room attendant like today, supervisor and also public area. This is the set of shift and training which you need to undergo. Is transport a problem..?

Trainee T: (thinking in her heart. What~!!!!! 11pm. You want us to work until so late..? both also not willing face.) L

Trainees: Ya. We are taking public transport like lrt.

Manager: where do you stay..?

Trainee J: Wangsa Maju

Trainee T: Sri Petaling

Trainee J: It is very DANGEROUS to work until 11pm. Then, need to walk to train station. It’s dark. Can work earlier..?

Manager: TAKING PUBLIC TRANSPORT IS NOT MY PROBLEM. I DON’T TAKE PUBLIC TRANSPORT. LRT IS UNTIL 12AM RIGHT..? I DON’T KNOW you.

Trainees: *both giving very very surprise look. Really the *wth look.

Trainee T: nope. The latest is 11pm

Manager: Like this, then you’ll not be able to learn and experience more. The chores for the day is not same as the night. Won’t you want to experience more…. *with not satisfied look.

Something like that and we end the conversation~

My perception time~

Omg.. we’re girls… girls you know. Even if we’re guys, it’s still dangerous. Most important point you said to us is YOU DON’T TAKE PUBLIC TRANSPORT. I know you’re rich and drive to work. But, we are just students and intern from outstation. How do we afford to own a car like u..? Can’t you use ur brain to think and be a little understanding..? What is the benefits and consequences for a girl to work until 11pm..? She need to walk to the train station all ALONE. Take 20-45minutes train rides and walk back to her house ALONE again. In between, so many incidents can happen. 

The only benefits she can get is the few days experiences.

Is it worth..? I am asking you..? Is it worth for a girl to risk her life just to trade a few days’ night time experiences..? KL life is so complicated with high crime rate. Ain’t you familiar with DANGER.

How are you going to pay if anything happen..? Are you responsible enough..?

After I take some time to cool down and USE MY BRAIN TO THINK…

The manager has become my icon. Someone that I’ll always remember on my mind. So that, I’ll not be as lousy as him in my future.

What comes around goes around.

Curse XX: Beware that you treated us like that; the same will not go to you.

It’ll be your wife or your daughter.

Window Shopping

Today did not plan to update my blog. Because I am tired. L yesterday slept at 4am and today woke up earlier for window shopping with mickey. Then tomolo is a hectic schedule. Plan to oioi earlier. Lappie is downloading drama. Gotta wait. So, I blog while waiting. Hmnn..

Few days ago, I went to Yi Poh lou shu fen shop. This is the 2^nd generation of this shop if I’m not wrong. Most of the local Seremban human will know this is one of the yummie lou shu fen shop. Even visitors from Singapore would stop by to eat. After that, souvenirs would be Seremban Siew Pao from Asia Siew Pau located opposite Yi Poh. My personal taste for pastry and bun would be this Asia Siew Pau instead of the very famous Seremban siew pau or Kee Mei siew pau lorh. Okie. Back to the Yi Poh lou shu fen shop sin. Ohh.. this is Yi Poh link. :)

Beside lou shu fen,wan tan mee, hakka mee and mix pork intestinal mee hun,  they offer side dishes such as fried/ soup wantan, ginger meatball, porkball, pork intestinal organ and vegetables.

They serve the noodle with homemade chili sauce. You can see chili flakes and dark red chili oil inside. huh.. Spicy yet yummie.

loving it.

*lou shu fen* is a type of noodle which is white in colour and long long. Is a little chewy for oldies.

this the very famous lou shu fen lar...
with minced meat and slices of bbq pork.

ginger porkball..... arrhhhhh

~Soup wantan~

don't you want to have a bite...? nyek nyek nyek..

And, what I did today..? hohoho…

Woke up, quickly bath and pan leng leng a while. Mei kee has reached Terminal 1. Oopsiee.. imma late. ><

Reach and went to chu cheong fun store to mum mum brunch. 

After that, start our “tingkap” shopping = window shopping mission. This is for just looking around each level and shops and not buying anything.

However, mei kee phail her mission. She bought a duo jacket. Can be say is a special one. You can wear the outer part or bring the inner part out. One is leather while another is leopard spot plastic-ky. I named it raincoat jacket. Coz no matter what, it’ll not absorb water. Lalala~

Then we continue to walk and walk. We walk to the left and we walk to the right. And we walk and we walk and we walk all day~ until we arrive at a shop. We saw quite a number of blouses that ngam us. But I’m not interested in buying. Has agreed it’s window shopping ma. If want buy, next day sin. Lol.. Funny me.

Alright. It’s evening and we are suppose to go home already. Went back home. Chill a while. Eat and pack my things. Noooooo…. Imma will be at kl tomolo. So, all my belongings during internship will be brought along. Just finish packing and it’s a lot again. Haizzz… These are needed. That also need. My clothings for 3 months, daily skin care products and my beloved xiao bao bei as well as lappie n accesories. All also bring. Hmnn.. I just scared tomolo I am tired, not enough energy cannot carry so much. I might faint on road side. Hahhahaa… not funny larh. >.< Need to wait for bus and all sort of things. Hmnn…

Looking at those things, I know it’s time for me to leave the house again. Deep down in my heart, I’m not willing to. Really not not willing to move anywhere. I am comfortable here. I have my family members, fellow friends, my lausy bed with dusty bedroom. Ahhh.. time. Plss past slower from now onwards… pleaseee..I guess I’ll need other 2 weeks holidays. Haha..

Drama finish downloading liao. It means time to oioi. Nitezzz…

  

^~Rilakkuma~^

I was just thinking this is a cute picture and plan to keep it.

Look at them. So “ en ai” and adorable.

The guy: stand behind me. no worries. If there’s any danger, I’ll protect u.

The gurl: bu..chiackss.. now u see.. now u dun. Hee.. J 

by looking at em i feel peace in my mind. 

they have the charm to blow away "fan nao"

hoping for. . .

world peace  ♥ ♥♥

dilemma

DILEMMA

Are you familiar about dilemma…? Do you know what does it means..? hurmnn… *sigh*

A dilemma = double prepositions, is a problem offering at least two possibilities, neither of which is practically acceptable. One in this position has been traditionally described as "being on the horns of a dilemma", neither horn being comfortable. This is sometimes more colorfully described as "Finding oneself impaled upon the horns of a dilemma", referring to the sharp points of a bull's horns, equally uncomfortable (and dangerous).

I am always in dilemma (to/not to) mood. Each time is very difficult to choose. i need to think a lot but my brain just couldn’t progress. I ask opinion from others but they will say depend on u lorh. I cannot decide myself, that’s y I ask opinion from u ma. This kind of feeling is troublesome. Is my fault. I am the one who seek for problem. But I can’t solve. Huhu~

Yeay. I’ve decided not to post my blog link on FB ald. i admit i want high stats and other (dunnoe me de people)  to view but if I do, I cannot be myself. My words and feeling cannot be so true. I will have a feeling other people (those who know me) is seeing this. And. . .  It is just too public. This is a place where I reveal most of my feelings in daily routine. Better keep this place safe and sound ba.

I’ve got things to share with u bloggie. >.< I search and search for someone’s something. I got the feeling to search and get it. By the time I got it, I am so nervous. After that, is an uneasy feeling? I don’t know why.

I guess I need to stop 

my bad detective habit (stop searching for people’s additional info which is quite secretive),

stalker (see people’s friends) 

and a crusher ( stop having additional feeling) aik aik…

like this, I’ll feel better.

Gotta ciao ald. Later, need to go SMK Puteri (my high school canteen’s day.)

Lov ya.. mmuacksszz…

Last day of Term 4

Guess what… imma at home liao..

Cheersssssss~!!!!

It was so sudden. Suddenly came back from Sabah. Suddenly starting Term four and today it brings the end of it. Huh…

After Malaysian Study paper, I hang out like 10mins with them and ciao.. I felt guilty. Yes… imam a heart breaker. Oppsie.. But I dunnoe what my heart wants. To stay or to go.

 There is no sense of belonging…

I am not sure of our friendship. I am confused. Blame it on me.

“Breath in” alright. I walked off and said hurtful words to elaino... She says she will miss me but I say I will not miss her. Haha.. Maybe for her it was hurtful but as for moi (me), it is normal. Sometimes, a separation can keep ur friendship bond stronger. And and, I appreciated each and every moment we spend together. Hence, when it come to separate time, I will accept it. I believe in if u keep seeing each other, but no improvement in friendship, it will be awkward. And there is one thing I don’t understand. Our friendship is like static.. Being back off by something. We could not go deeper yet pull ourselves out. Is like each time also got something happen and we remain being silent instead of voice up and get closer to each other… Is it only me or same to everyone ha..???

Okie okie… starting from today, I wouldn’t want to talk about Uni’s stuff anymore. It’s like enough. 

These 2 weeks holiday will be something different for myself. 

And the 3 months internship is another kind of life. I don’t want my life to be dull. I want live each and single day as colourful as rainbow. J

Today I went to chop off those irritating part of my hair. YEEESSSS… At last after 6 months. Muaahhahaa… Gonna take good care of it like how I took care of my skin. Some routine will need to be followed.

I AM TIRED… yess.. yesterday night slept for very little hours. And a bunch of events gonna bug me day after day. Goshhh~~ plan plan plan. Is not a relaxing holiday.. is an exciting holiday waiting for me to enjoy each and every event.. @.@

1. Need to update bloggie on assignment (aiyak it’s about uni) + my daily healthcare…
2. Clean my room (is a super messy+ dirty room)
3. Window shopping and shop for some healthcare product (to fulfill my satisfaction by looking)
4. Catch up with drama which I missed
5. Walk walk at city park with dearest mickey
6. Yam cha sessions with friends ( the crazy gang + the smarties gang)
7. Gathering with Vicky and Ah Hao
8. And last but not least, accompany daddy. Hehehe..

See… I am super busy. XD

Will stop at here for today.

Lov ya… mmuackss..  ♥ ♥