Hmnn.. somehow… tick tok tick tok. No matter is a happy or sad moment, it won’t last or stay. It’s almost final. And I’m lost. Y did I say I’m lost when I’m doing my daily chores, routines and so on. I am asking myself this question while walking back from home. What do I want to achieve. What I want in my life… I’ve already a scholar. I’m already in good living conditions. There is nothing I want to chase after or tired of being in a competition of being most top or best. All I want is to open my own restaurant. I wasn’t like that at all back then. I am thinking should I let go everything I have and just be simple. Y is I studying like mad when I know I can just pass and need to get a pass. The answer I finally got is NO.
Not giving up (it’s kinda last minute) when I’m near to success. Not to forget to enjoy every moment of torture. You just need one second to give up but u need courage to walk on. So, where is my courage hiding? All come out bah. And I admit that I don’t want to regret 30 years later when I’m a boss. I can feel that whatever there’s in my life, I give the best shot. I no coward. Although it’s nothing, but I just want to perform the best to prove to myself I can achieve it. Achievement will lead to satisfaction! J basically I am moody coz I dunnoe I am on the right path anot. I will get sad when things I do get wrong. However, challenge accepted. I’ll prove I’m better than what u think. ^^ thanks for all lecturer that guide me throughout these 2 years. All my rational, positive thinking and analysis come back bah. Is time for a war! Is not stress that destroy u, is your reaction.
On Monday, we had revision kitchen class. What a memorable one. The product we did seriously not up to standard. I’ll improve it! My right hand just got burn. Oouch.. when it just burn, I tot my hand is gonna get cooked. T.T pain as in no words can describe. Can only uuuuurghhhhhhh bitterly. Keep running on tap water. I am scared. I dunnoe what to do. Right hand is important to me. Writing, holding, drawing, washing, cooking, and a lot a lot of things I cannot do already. >< after that, the pain is unbearable. But what to do, I cannot chicken out and just leave my revision class. I no coward. I got courage! Continue my work as usual. Later on, the pain is gone, blister and pop pop came out. Looking at it, I can only say thank god. Thank god the wound it there. Not inside my palm or anywhere else. I can still hold and write but not too much. It’s less energetic. I did not see a doctor. Can doctor cure my little burned hand..? no.. he can only consult and good medication+ extreme care is what I need. Hubby was not really concern at first as he tot it is minor. After he saw the picture, it should be a mother of god ba. When home, bathing, wearing clothes and using right hand was difficult. T.T. at night, it’s soaring. T.T the girls will say it leave scar and not pretty anymore. I’m not so concern about that. It’s an accident. One day, the scar will disappear also. When I see replies from the pic i uploaded, I’m . . . maybe I should only private the pic to hubby only. Coz making people feel worry is not a good thing. Arghh.. stupid me. Today is Wednesday and I should go out to pharmacy and buy medicine. Ishhh… stupid stupid! Btw, it’s peter’s bufdae eve. We just prank his myvi. Hahahas… imma happy to give surprise and make people around me happy. ^^ you mad bro..? hahahas… till then. I should start with second set and move on. Nothing is able to stop me from achieving what I want. Lalalala~ sing a happy song. Watch kimchi drama sin. :P
Btw, changed my songs. I really like these 2 songs from yiruma. Giving me inner peace. Hope u enjoy. Listening to musical = treat ur brain good. ^^ might not be blogging for a while till i'm really stuck. hope the exam faster come and end. then i can enjoy my crave for dramasssss... control... control for now!!!!!