Appreciation

Today, I am grateful. Grateful sincerely and genuinely for I have all kind and good soul by my side. I’m happy all family members and friends are healthy and could bring joy to me. I am grateful for all I have and I can do. I am so happy and grateful that I could tear. I’ve never been so blessed in my life. What else could I ask for I’ve got everything by my side? I’ve got hubby boy, my family members, his family members, my friends who care for me. I am safe, healthy, living and eating well. All I wish for is people around me could also share my happiness in life. I am so thankful for each kind soul I’ve met. I am indeed lucky. Life have been so much better. I am so glad everything happen. And whatever going to happen I am grateful too. This is because I have faith. I have faith that everything is going smoothly. My Mighty and truly one is protecting me and ensuring I am achieving those that I want. Indeed he is giving me extra for whatever I am asking for. I am thankful. Thank you. 

After one year of working in highly reputable establishment, I learnt how to appreciate and be grateful towards all my ups and down in life. Little little small small thing that seem so common yet I felt special. i also appreciate disaster that happened to me. Because of that, all I ever want is just a simply life. Work, and then return from work, spend some time on things I like to do, get enough rest and kick start the next day fresh. Have some time during day off for grocery shopping or check out the happening in the nearest mall. During my holiday, I want to return to my hometown, visit my family members, treat them meals, contact my bestie and ride on a motorcycle rounding familiar places. I just want this lifestyle. But people around me said I can go further, I can do more, I can this and that, yes, I agree you can do a lot in life. Life is full of choices. Some choose to live quietly while some want to live glamorously. I myself are unsure what kind of life I want. A little blurred despite I got hint of what I like and dislike. I can when i have the will, and not i will when i can. 

Do you know that, getting to live under the same roof with your family members is a blessing? Do you know that going home each day after work where there is someone waiting for you/ there is actually your family members at home and you know the fact they are already asleep is a bliss. Do you know that being able to share food on the same dining table with family members are the most most most valuable experience in life? How many of us actually dine with our family members for each and every meals daily? Doesn’t matter if you’re eating bread, oats drinking only milo or luxurious dim sum/ Antipodean big breakfast. For me, if we were to measure wealth by counting the number of meals we dine with our family, friends or acquaintance, I wonder how rich we will be.

When I am alone, I notice a lot of things that I missed out. I missed my daily breakfast (which is very very very important!), I missed time to say good morning to my parents and brothers, I missed burning joystick to my late grandmother or morning prayers at home, I missed getting 8 hours of sleep, I missed gathering with friends, I visiting places where I could spend some alone time, I missed dressing up prettily. I just have no chance/ time to do so.

We, as foodservice crew, do not get what we do to others. We serve others with whole-heartedly, maybe not everyone and maybe not at all times (because we do have time we are tired), 99.99% we do not get this treatment when we are the one paying. Sometimes, if we’re lucky, we get to be treated equally to what we give out, most of the time, we are only giving. I sold mooncake for the past 2.5 months. I do not have the opportunity to taste mooncake from other places other than my workplace. I celebrated CNY at my workplace, which means, others are enjoying being served by me. I take reservations for Ramadan break fasting, I did not went other places to try breakfasting. See, there is a lot of things happening in life. You see in one perspective, there may be over thousand others way to look into a matter.

In my previous workplace, my direct superior often advise don’t take things for granted. Yea.. I agree we must prepare everything without fail. And I wonder, don’t take things for granted or don’t take people for granted. Which one leave a stronger impact? I am being totally exploit, yet I say no single word regarding this fact. Me making mistake and wrongdoing got scolded for taking things lightly despite I have try my level best. On one side keep wanting more and more. One my side, I kept on giving, giving until I know nothing but pain physically, I kept giving until I felt exhausted pathetically. In my heart, there is a voice that this gotta stop. I can’t keep it up anymore. Rather than having unhealthy imbalance work life relationship, I choose to end it. Coz I know there won’t be an ending with my work attitude. I will keep on giving all that I have. Hence, the decision have been made. Despite the decision, I still stay additional one month to finish what have started. This is me, I can’t leave half way. In the end of the day, I asked myself y? why should I work so hard to climb up the corporate ladder to be recognize and why should I sacrifice so much? Do I not get enough salary? Do I not have three meals a day and additional money for to buy the things I want? Do I need to torture myself in exchange for so called position in my industry? Even if I get position, am I happy? Each day past without happiness is wasted. I set my dreams and goals which I prioritize my happiness as well. Don’t you forget time is ticking real fast. In the end of the day, when you realize you have all the material, you lost something called home when you bought a house, you lost something call time, when you manage to buy Rolex watch which you can no longer use that Rolex to twist back the time to meet with your siblings and friends.

I can’t convince myself to work in a fast pace reputable company anymore. The process is tiring enough. Rather, I would like to use my own method to be successful in life. The life that I consider successful. I may disappoint my parents for not able to work in a well known company and be someone famous, but as long as I am healthy and happy, my parents will still be proud of who I am. And it hit me badly when I am chasing for my dream, my parents are left behind aging. Growth is something painful, yet every one of us have to undergo. I wonder how my parents dealt with their growth that groom me to who I am today.

To end today post, appreciate everything that you have now. They may be gone the next second. Healthy body, healthy teeth to chew, healthy skin, healthy mind, healthy hair, healthy bones, healthy nerves, ability to breathe, see, touch, feel, ability to think and remember, ability to walk to places you want to go and most important is ability to be happy with little things in life! Remember to be contented always. Take life for granted and you shall pay for it.  知足+感恩!