Very Soon

Very soon. Very soon jiu will end this 2^nd last term of my 4 years education.

They say when you are about to die, you will think of all those times when you were younger. I don’t know why, recently, I kept on thinking about the first first time I joined Taylors. Before receiving scholarship. Elder brother fetched me to my first hostel. It all started that drizzling evening when I swear to myself, sacrificing everything I aimed to be here. I must succeed in whatever I do. The least I want is to let my family members down. I know what it is happening around me. The only thing I wish to see is to make them feel proud of me. I remember I don’t have anything. Didn't have bank card, just some money, with my baggage and voila. I reached. That night was the first night I slept alone outside. Excited, nervous, full of curiosity of how tomorrow going to be like.

Slowly, I met some friends and continue my living. From strangers became someone who impacted my life. Pictures of how I first talk to my  first uni friends, Elaine, and then we always eat at Crispy Popiah, my first group mates during geography class where I can’t remember their Chinese name, and then met Yi ling. She being blurred the most and cutest. Haha.. We have got the big noisy group, Ben, Peter, Chin Yoong, Loke, Sherene, Grace, Diana, Sherlyn, and my first Indonesian friend, Lauren I saw all of them at kitchen class. And our first kitchen class was crème caramel. All these first feeling, is flashing around me. All those unhappy memories in NO1 house is being reflected too. Because I got only another four months here. 

 

Front Office Class

Help Yi Ling move to hostel

Came back from shopping at Sunway Pyramid

Our very first product. Wearing formal inside kitchen!!!

She.....................

Our first soft roll

The Legendary Starbucks Planner

First Kitchen Class

Moi toolbox... 

First time chef cooked and we ate like hooligan... 

Even the bone is not left out!

Le simple dinner with Yi Ling

Off to Granny's Kitchen

The time when i'm lost >.<

But i met good good friend

Bollywood Night!

Played during kitchen class

Oh yeah... We selca a lot.

Chop vegetables into many many patterns

(2010) Le auntie: Girl, how long are you going to study..?

Me: four years….

(2012) Me: …two years… next year graduating…

(2013) Me: still got another four months… My actual graduation will be either (2014/2015).

I’m glad. Really glad that each term/ semester, I did my very best. Thou I know I can be more robotic, evil, cruel to myself and perform extra ordinary well, I choose to live like a human. Make some minor mistakes, enjoy and play while studying. 

It’s all thanks to my friends. Seriously, without their patience and cover up, I may not be as happy as I am now. Perhaps little people understand how I fight previously. I don’t blame anyone or hate anything. It doesn’t matter if I’m born poor. It matter if I never put in effort to die rich. 

Thanks to those friends that tolerate my abnormal speaking, unique attitude, and super introvert where I’ll want to go home each time weather its hostel here or Seremban. 

You guys deserve the best of me because you guys pick me up and did not abandon me when I’m at downtime. Through you guys, I learnt a lot. I learnt to be honest, I learnt that $ is not everything. I learnt about social class, learn how to spend like a boss, eat good food, shop like a girl (cause I just lazy to do shopping unlike the godlike shopaholic Ah Ling), everyone patterns, about this and that a little. 

Thou sometimes it’s exhaustive being with you guys, you guys showed me friendship/ relationship no need talk so much. Understood can already. And most importantly, improved my relationship skills. Not everything can be fair and square. Will have losses and gain. Doesn’t matter in time. Sour, sweet, bitter, spicy also tasted with you guys. The signature of our group is, each and every one of us have mini tummy. Haha… Perhaps we ate the similar stuff for so long together, so xiao tummy also grow together. Teehee… 

I superb appreciate this lifelong education and journey. Obviously it’s not a smooth road where everything is prepared well by my parents like some of my course mate, this make me know its value more. I am not scared or afraid of any difficult subjects, I am only afraid no education given to me. Time seriously pass.

I’m grateful for choosing this course too. After all these years, in the end, I am still the happy me when carrying a tray moving around serving varies type of people. Kayy. Enough of reflections. Let’s go back to reality study mood. 
Just one question, I won’t be asking in front of you guys, what do you think of me when you first met me and now..? haha.. 

Good luck for all of us who will be sitting for our final. Remember to do your very best and keep it up up up till the very last moment. I’m praying everyone to be successful together gather. 

The Secret by Rhonda Byrne

This time.... haha.. I guess in any courses you pursue, you will never get to run away from dissertation, thesis, research and you name it all. I personally think that, these stuff is one of your degree qualification. Hubby boy (studying medicine course) got research. Bestie Mei Kee gotta do her thesis in final year. Yi Ling (studying in UK) need to hand up hers also. Most of undergraduate gotta go through it. And with the finishing of my dissertation, it mark the end of my degree journey. My dissertation will be my dream in paperwork. Teehee... So, imma putting all my passion in it.

Follow your passion and success will come following you. 

Senior said, "it's just a long essay". This is motivating me. Me love journalism especially in topic I'm interested on.

This year, I thought I will go through a peaceful year as to put priority in studies and dissertation. However, I challenge myself, add up new activities. I am AIESECer. I am helping many many people realising their dreams thou its just minor effort. haha...

I am just me, one mind, one human, with 2 hands and 24 hours a day. To accomplish all I want, I gotta motivate myself a lot and in a whole new level. haha..

This is me, reading THE SECRET (vol 1) for 2nd time. When I read for 1st time, I was amazed by how mighty one mind can become. Totally blown me away. I got this feeling in me since young. I always got what I want even till now. Then, I understand the physics behind it. I tried numerous incident to try out the law of attraction, gratitude, love and everything. Everything works just like magic.

One experiment I wish to share is, I tried the attraction of money. Every night before bed, I thought of I am earning RM1000 a month. And then I spend it on here and there. Guess what, for that 2 months where I really focus my mind on, I seriously got this account of RM1000 going into my bank and I spend on what I want. I am just a mere student. Through some effort, I work part time on every Thursday ( the only day without class) collecting survey at University Malaya Medical Centre. This odd job seriously is not something I know. It just happen, I want RM1000 per month, someone need help for collection of survey and somehow I am the qualified one without transportation problem. In the middle of the month, I've just collected RM600. Where another RM400 going to come from..? I was surprised when my hostel owner pay me RM400 just because I recommended my room mate and friends to rent the room a year ago. I'm totally out of my mind. It doesn't matter any more weather it's RM600 or RM1000. What I am doing is to test how far these SECRET thingy can perform and it is REAL. The whole journey is like created for me to get what I wanted.

You called it lucky/ coincidence? I named it mastermind behind the scene. :P 

2nd time reading THE SECRET, I found out that most of the time in days, I am APPLYING those principals. What can be worse when you learn a new knowledge but don't apply it. Secret changed my life utterly. Every bits of my life, I see the laws of Secret. And I'm still enjoying the benefit of  it. I use Secret to help me in minor stuff. I am sure when the time has come, I am using it ultimately to achieve whatever I want.

Now, I'm going to type out the summary of every chapter for my OWN references only. Whenever I got low, this is my source of positivity to do well, do more and do happily.

The Secret Revealed

• The Great Secret of Life is the law of attraction.
• The law of attraction says like attracts like, so when you think a thought, you are also attracting like thoughts to you.
• Thoughts are magnetic, and thoughts have a frequency. As you think thoughts, they are sent out into the Universe, and they magnetically attract all like things that are on the same frequency. Everything sent out returns to the source- you.
• You are like a human transmission tower, transmitting a frequency with your thoughts. If you want to change anything in your life, change the frequency by changing your thoughts.
• Your current thoughts are creating your future life. What you think about the most or focus on the most will appear as your life.
• Your thoughts become things.

The Secret Made Simple

• The law of attraction is a law of nature. It is as impartial as the law of gravity. 
• Nothing can come into your experience unless you summon it through persistent thoughts.
• To know what you're thinking, ask yourself how you are feeling. Emotions are valuable tools that instantly tell us what we are thinking.
• It is impossible to feel bad and at the same time have good thoughts.
• Your thoughts determine your frequency, and your feelings tell you immediately what frequency you are on. When you feel bad, you are on the frequency of drawing more bad things. When you feel good, you are powerfully attracting more good things to you. 
• Secret Shifters, such as pleasant memories, nature, or your favourite music, can change your feelings and shift your frequency in an instant.
• The feeling of love is the highest frequency you can emit. The greater the love you feel and emit, the greater the power you are harnessing. 

How to Use The Secret

• Like Aladdin's Genie, the law of attraction grants our every command (your wish is my command)
• The Creative Process helps you create what you want in three simple steps: ask, believe, and receive.
• Asking the Universe for what you want is your opportunity to get clear about what you want. As you get clear in your mind, you have asked.
• Believing involves acting, speaking, and thinking as though you have already received what you've asked for. When you emit the frequency of having received it, the law of attraction moves people, events, and circumstances for you to receive.
• Receiving involves feeling the way you will feel once your desire has manifested. Feeling good now puts you on the frequency of what you want.
• To lose weight, don't focus on "losing weight." Instead, focus on your perfect weight. Feel the feelings of your perfect weight, and you will summon it to you.
• It takes no time for the Universe to manifest what you want. It is as easy to manifest one dollar as it is to manifest one million dollars.
• Starting with something small, like a cup of coffee or parking spaces, is an easy way to experience the law of attraction in action. Powerfully intend to attract something small. As you experience the power you have to attract, you will move on to creating much bigger things.
• Create your day in advance by thinking the way you want it to go, and you will create your life intentionally.

Powerful Processes

• Expectation is a powerful attractive force. Expect the things you want, and don't expect the things you don't want.
• Gratitude is a powerful process for shifting your energy and bringing more of what you want into your life. Be grateful for what you already have, and you will attract more good things.
• Giving thanks for what you want in advance turbo-charges your desire and sends a more powerful signal out into the Universe.
• Visualization is the process of creating pictures in your mind of yourselves enjoying what you want. When you visualize, you generate powerful thoughts and feelings of having it now. The law of attraction then returns that reality to you, just as you saw it in your mind. 
• To use the law of attraction to your advantage, make it a habitual way of being, not just a one-time event.
• At the end of every day, before you go to sleep go back through the events of the day. Any events or moments that were not what you wanted, replay them in your mind the way you wanted them to go.

The Secret to Money

• To attract money, focus on wealth. It is impossible to bring more money into your life when you focus on the lack of it.
• It is helpful to use your imagination and make-believe you already have the money you want. Play games of having wealth and you will feel better about money; as you feel better about it, more will flow into your life.
• Feeling happy now is the fastest way to bring money into your life.
• Make it your intention to look at everything you like and say to yourself, "I can afford that. I can buy that." You will shift your thinking and begin to feel better about money.
• Give money in order to bring more of it into your life. When you are generous with money and feel good about sharing it, you are saying, 'I have plenty."
• Visualize checks in the mail.
• Tip the balance of your thoughts to wealth. Think wealth.

The Secret to Relationships

• When you want to attract a relationship, make sure your thoughts, words, actions, and surroundings don't contradict your desires.
• Your job is you. Unless you fill yourself up first, you have nothing to give anybody.
• Treat yourself with love and respect, and you will attract people who show you love and respect.
• When you feel bad about yourself, you block the love and instead you attract more people and situations that will continue to make you feel bad about you.
• Focus on the qualities you love about yourself and the law of attraction will show you more great things about you.
• To make a relationship work, focus on what you appreciate about the other person, and not your complaints. When you focus on the strengths, you will get more of them.

The Secret to Health

• The placebo effect is an example of the law of attraction in action. When a patient truly believes that tablet is a cure, he receives what he believes and is cured.
• "Focusing on perfect health" is something we can all do within ourselves, despite what may be happening on the outside.
• Laughter attracts joy, releases negativity, and leads to miraculous cures.
• Disease is held in the body by thought, by observation of the illness, and by the attention given to the illness. If you are feeling a little unwell, don't talk about it- unless you want more of it. If you listen to to people talk about their illness, you add energy to their illness. Instead, change the conversation to good things, and give powerful thoughts to seeing those people in health.
• Beliefs about ageing are all in our minds, so release those thoughts from your consciousness. Focus on health and eternal youth.
• Do not listen to society's messages about disease and ageing. Negative messages do not serve you. 

The Secret to the World

• What you resist, you attract, because you are powerfully focused on it with emotion. To change anything, go within and emit a new signal with your thoughts and feelings.
• Yo cannot help the world by focusing on the negative things. As you focus on the world's negative events, you not only add to them, but you also bring more negative things into your own life.
• Instead of focusing on the world's problems, give your attention and energy to trust, love, abundance, education, and peace.
• We will never run out of good things because there's more than enough to go around for everyone. Life is meant to be abundant.
• You have the ability to tap into the unlimited supply through your thoughts and feelings and bring it into your experience.
• Praise and bless everything in the world, and you will dissolve negativity and discord and align yourself with the highest frequency-love.

The Secret to You

• Everything is energy. You are an energy magnet, so you electrically energize everything to you and electrically energize yourself to everything you want.
• You are a spiritual being. You are energy, and energy cannot be created or destroyed- it just changes form. Therefore, the pure essence of you has always been and always will be.
• The Universe emerges from thought. We are the creators not only of our own destiny but also of the Universe.
• An unlimited supply of ideas is available to you. All knowledge, discoveries and inventions are in the Universal Mind as possibilities, waiting for the human mind to draw them forth. You hold everything in your consciousness.
• We are all connected, and we are all One.
• Let go of difficulties from your past, cultural codes, and social beliefs. You are the only one who can create the life you deserves. 
• A short-cut to manifesting your desires is to see what you want as absolute fact.
• Your power is in your thoughts, so stay aware. In other words, "Remember to remember."

The Secret to Life

• You get to fill the blackboard of your life with whatever you want.
• The only thing you need to do is feel good now.
• The more you use the power within you. the more power you will draw through you.
• The time to embrace your magnificence is now.
• We are in the midst of glorious era. As we let go of limiting thoughts, we will experience humanity's true magnificence, in every area of creation.
• Do what you love. If you don't know what brings you joy, ask, "What is my joy?' As you commit to your joy, you will attract an avalanche of joyful things because you are radiating joy. 
• Now that you have learned the knowledge of The Secret, what you do with is up to you. Whatever you choose is right. The power is all yours. 

I know some of my friends do not believe in The Secret. The reasons of why, only they will know. I am just doing my role as a friend telling them it is a nice book and maybe they should give it a try. Who knows what will happen. :) Some people told me this book is fake and so much more negative comment. Maybe it just doesn't suit their act.

As for me, this book is a book of hope. Everyone can dream whatever they want. Pursue things they would like to go after. This book ONLY encourage. How many of us actually support our friends idea although they sound very ridiculous? Usually the reply is negative and break people hope. They are the dream reaper. People, who feel like giving up especially ill physically, psychologically , fed up in this world; the knowledge in this book, able to give them a hope, let them have some faith that tomorrow is a better day. Thou there may be no changes in a cancer patient, but at least, the patient still can hope. The knowledge in this book teach people to feel gratitude even in the worse situation. No matter in which kind of hardship, there are many things to be thankful for. This is a basic common act but we people tend to take things for granted and ignorant. Many many resentments toward everything even the slightest events. But but but, the knowledge of gratitude, can change something negative to positive and relatively make someone feel better. Aren't it important to feel as good as you are just born..?

Whenever I read this book, I feel confident in myself that everything I want to get and achieve is possible . I'm heavenly Motivated.

I would like to say a big THANK YOU Joanne Chua Siu Ting. For she is the one who recommend the book to me. With this, she is someone who gave impact in my life through the knowledge of a book. Xie Xie larh. Mmuacks.. May you achieve your goals too.

Jealousy

Well, have you ever feel like dying from jealousy..? When you type “how to stop dying from jealousy” via Google search engine, this article of mine pops up. You might want to see how I behave from jealousy.

I won’t say I've not jealous of anything before. But I’m pretty good at handling it. I just don’t really see it as a matter. No big deal for me. You may think wow… this girl, too high confidence level in her, in her guy or she got no sense of feeling. I've got feeling. And I am kind of emotional that kind. Or else, I won’t blog to express.

Yeah…. My jealousy is about a boy-girl relationship. Normally people will jelly of the same gender trying to seduce your partner being labeled as “xiao san”/ 3^rd partner a.k.a high risk contagious personnel. :P who doesn't label or give name towards someone who is able to threaten their position…? If you fit in the situation above, continue reading and click on the advertisement even you don’t fit because it may be useful information provided for your future or friends.

Firstly, let me introduced, I am in a relationship with my boyfie for more than 5 years and less than 6 years at this current moment. You may say it is long, while for me, it is short. Till the day when all our hair becomes whitish-grey, I MAY consider it is long. It’s never enough when you have the right one.

>5years 6 months = 365days X 5 years + (6X30days) = 2005 days. It’s just 2005 number of days. Long..? Seriously, it’s not. I wish 1000 years being together if possible. And I know in my next life, he is going to find me again. And again and again we will be together-gather for every life till a word called “FOREVER”. For your information, we seldom get into the state of jealousy. This is not necessary at all. Are you jelly of me now..? haha… How do you think we maintain..? please don’t jealous of my relationship. You can make it happen too.

NO.1: JE-A-LOUSY Free

Remember, jealousy form from this few alphabet but has caused plenty chaos and ruined many relationship. Very powerful and cruel I say. 

Do you see “je”..? in French, it means “I” 

There is “a” and I’ll assume that is “AM”. 

Lastly, very obvious you see "LOUSY". 

When you are in the trap of jealousy, you become someone lousy out of a sudden.

From my point of view, jealousy is a waste of time. I am not sure how you spent your time daily, but I am a busy person. I've goals to achieve, I've got errand to run, assignment to do, house chores to do. I wouldn't want to spend my precious time on these kinds of things. Jealousy is a lousy feeling. Who feel good from it..? Unless you jelly die about yourself. Well, that is also negative toward your friends for you keep on boasting your own good and pointed out others weaknesses indirectly. I don’t trade my precious time for these lousy feeling which waste my tears consists of sodium taken away from my body. Blekkk..

No-2: Be a smart woman

Besides, it is not a healthy attitude. If you keep going on like that, just who can bear this kind of annoying attitude? A little of these can spice up your relationship. But how many seriously benefited from it..? Usually this jealous thingy bring more harm than positive effect lur.

No-3: Be a woman behind a successful man

Wow… come to the golden rule I love the most. Haha… As a wife to be I need to be decent. In Chinese it’s called “大方得体”. Since young, I already got this mindset. When I become my husband wife, I must portray generosity and elegance. I seriously hate those wives with narrow mind that cannot communicate. If you don’t understand, what is happening or who, how, when blah blah blah (all those CIA investigations questions also come out. Trololol…) you can always ask your beloved. Is it a misunderstanding or seriously got problem. Don’t make judgments from your very own kiasu+ kiasi, assumption/ believes. What you see and hear may not 100% the truth. So, why not sit down and discuss while having some tea. I am sure your other half is willing to share his experiences and thoughts. If you agree to share your heart and future together, don’t you should have at least that much amount of trust in him..?

No-4: Be a generous woman

A simple example to show generosity of a girl is by giving her partner all the freedom he wanted. If your partner only has you in mind, he will come back to you eventually. If he does not come back when you send him away, that means he is not yours either. Why waste time on this kind of people. I prefer my partner assured me that he is mine and no need me to worry at any circumstances. Don’t you think it is troublesome to worry and check on him/her every second..?

No-5: Be a woman to solve and not create problem

Think about it, when you’re jealous, who is the happiest person? Is it your partner? NO. You only create more headache for him. Trololol... When couples fight due to jealousy, I am that kind of person eating popcorn and laugh at you like watching drama.

No-6: Be a woman that ask for love and not jealousy

Life is too short to be jealous of others. My 5 years plus journey with him is only 2005 days. Why do I want to reduce my sweet moment by jealous-ing at others, having some cold war by never want to talk and fight fight fight..? I would rather appreciate for what I already have; the greatest and mighty him. And then every moment, every day pass happily for he is there with me.

No-7: Be an independent woman

I think everyone in this world has their friends consist of both gender. Should I be sensitive towards his girl-friend..? Nah... I remember he introduce all his A-level and university girl-friend via Facebook. Haha.. He will further explain their behavior, attitude, character. We will discuss how well/ bad they are. Oopssiii~ I don’t meet them personally but I know who they are. I know who my boyfie hanging out with. I actually do hope his friends can make his day fun. I can only do my role as girlfriend for a minor part in his life, where friends are great influences too. Meeting more people can learn more thing especially girls who are better in studies. He can get help from them de ma. Haha.. think of what good stuff a person can bring for your partner. When you say you love him, you don’t need to lock him up with you. If your world is only made up of each other and no friends, that is so pathetic. I've got my friends to entertain and he got his own. When we meet, we can share so many shocking stories which you can’t when you only cling to your partner.

N0-8: Be a woman to change for better

When he socializes with others, he knows your strength and weaknesses better. When you compare your partners with others, don’t forget he does that also. The good news is, though you are lacking, he still wants to be with you. Why are you still stubborn and don’t get it..? All he wants is to be with you and he can’t stop socializing with other people. You can’t ground him and be by his side 24/7. Yet, you want to throw your princess tantrum and be jealous. Huh.. Tough life for a guy who has high level of jealousy girlfriend. In fact, it's better to turn jealousy into a positive motivation to be a better girlfriend and your man will love you more.

No-9: Be yourself, woman

I can say that, my boyfie see one pretty girl will like one. When they are more, he likes more. I admit I do like to see handsome boy too. We used to discuss who is more handsome among 10 guys or prettier among some girls. If I am to jealous each and every one, I think I’ll be freaking busy. My tears later become free flow. So, I don’t give a damn. You want to like or do what-so-ever, go ahead. Just don’t go over the limit or have bad intention. When you want to play, there is a consequence, you need to bear yourself. For example, my partner flirts with girl. And then he fall in love with the girl. A consequence is, I’ll just leave. Simple as that. I don’t really care what he is up to with other people, most importantly; I know how well he treats me. I've known him for so long. I understand and also he understands me more than myself. I trust he is not that kind of simply person that have low standard. Oops..

N0-10: Be a happy woman

Your own happiness depends in yourself. Don’t rely on your partner action to create your happiness. Being together in a relationship most important is both side also happy. Win-win situation. It’s easy yet many people like to complicate things. It ended up with trust, faith and honesty. There is no need for more. When you have these 3 weapons in your journey, don’t be afraid of snatch thieves in the middle of the road.

I do jealous. Depends on mood, time, weather, peoples and etc. When I am in the state of jealousy, it is a choice I choose to and is under my control. And when I did jealous, I will confess to him. Let him settle the problem. We don’t know who or how it is created. There was once I try to hide it. It was hard for me and him. I give up and confess everything. 2 brains are better than 1 alone. A heart-to- heart pillow talk settled everything. Dumb right. In the end, I jealous him for having me. Lalalala….~ haha…    

I hope you can jealous of yourself in your life for having such awesome partner that is now holding the palm of your tiny little hand. Good luck. All of the above is solely my thinking to let you see from another way.