The Return of Jeanne

So, while working at GUESS one fine day, I received an unknown number calling in. I'm confused. Quickly ran into counter and pick up the call. At first, I couldn't recognize the very super duper familiar soft voice. Even after a few words with her, I just can't rectify is who. I gave up and asked "who are you"..? Lol...

Later, this girl, yess.. the girl on top said "it's me. Jeanne... I just touched down and reach home. Can we meet up later..? I did not tell anyone yet. Not even Mei Kee. Lets give her a surprise.". Confirmed the place to yam cha and time. I've been very tired for whole 9 hours of standing. Then need to entertain that Mei Kee since Jeanne is late. I seriously very tired and don't feel like talking. But I can't. Just keep looking at Mei Kee face and wishing Jeanne can arrive sooner. 

The happy and unbelievable face when we saw her

Her new toy. Look at my tired emotion...

She is back for 10 good days only. To settle her paperwork, attend wedding, shopping, family time and bla bla blah... We talked about going trip. Time is really a constraint and $$ do play a role. Her 10 days just passed like that.

That night, she will fly again. And somehow,we must continue our annual tradition. Sing k together gather. 

Have a mini birthday celebration because we miss hers every year

Love her forever and always

She purposely went to buy a box of film just to snap snap

and i sneaked out from my work 

Mei Kee and I forever in her heart

Tata

Girl, 

Remember this,

Take really good care of yourself,

You're meant to be enjoying happy life,

Wherever and whenever you are.

XOXOXO...

We definitely need to go a trip together,

and have sister wedding dress photobook.

New life

Ello~ tomolo is a special day. I’m gonna start work at starbucks le. Huh.. looking at my juniors, some start class tomolo while some going out for internship, I also felt the same nia. Nervous of new environment+ excited to make kohee. Hooray.. one week of holidays is seriously not enough. I need to rest longer. But money still needs to come in when I rest too. Hehe.. luckily I choosed September intake and give myself a break. I’m kinda exhausted. Wanna try different lifestyle. Be a guai guai kampong girl for 5months. Hahas.. when I think of it, I’m already happy. Doesn’t need to do laundry, no need to cook, no need to think about transportation or walk, no need … everything also no need. Seriously when I’m home, I am like a princess. Yippie~

Imma achieving my resolutions le. Happy and unexpected. Don’t think will join oil painting. Coz it’s freaking expensive and my working time is not fix. I’m still new, there’s a lot I gotta learn. Maybe I learn Japanese and conquer mandarin bah. i just know speaking and listening mandarin. It’s lacking. And French also. I know degree is a different story already. let’s not waste this precious 5 months to upgrade myself, be a better M3. :P  wanna use these holidays to be a leng lui also. imma an ugly, black bear bear now. Wanna be a polar bear! Hahas..

Well, talking about holidays, hahahhas… I don’t think I wanna blog about trips. Hmnn.. dunnoe y I seldom blog about trips. See picture jiu enough larh. I just went to Melaka and the gang visited seremban. A little wasted/ sad that we din get to go PD coz weather don’t allow. But if we went, ben xiao hai video will not appear. ^.^ hahahhas… really enjoyed the trip. Thanks for Elaine hospitality, our superhero ivan+benji and tourists that came. Hohoho… imma dun wanna b a gps anymore. It’s mental torture. Hmnn... will never forget how cockroach prank people and wake my friends up early in the morning. Hiak hiak~

After trip, mama bathed chocolate and other bear bear. They’re too dusty le bah. when I’m not around sban, nobody take care of my room. Ishh.. now, I am sleeping with 3 bolsters, 2 big pillows, 2 small pillows, and of course le bear bears. Everything I had 2 sets. One for sunway and one at sban. Now all pindah come back. Doubled everything. =.=’’

Hmn.. daddy is gonna be freaking busy. And he should be busy. Saw him after one month and next time seeing him would be nx month. I pray for ur success. +U+U chiong for final bah! after this we go honeymoon k. 

XOXO~

that's all for now. continue my on call 36 sin.

this drama would make me think about daddy more.

imy :")

Last Week of Finale Term

Bonjour… salut!

Good to hear from me again..? hehe.. well, have been fighting with myself and go against time. I dunnoe where to start. Hmnn.. peter bufdae..? okay.. on Friday after some test, we celebrated peter’s 21^st. hehe.. Firstly, started our journey to kap kap tong. Suddenly migraine attack. Arghh… damn. Rest in car only lur. Then visit ivan’s home. Went to eat wan tan mee as I cannot simply eat for time being. Then go to desa park city. Aaahhhhhh… I Love that place. So peaceful, no polluted air and very “lam” ar... It look like the combination of maid household and secret garden. Hehe.. went to peter’s place and met his parents. Not really in the condition to play or talk much. Hand hand injured+ migraine= no mood at all. went back home and dooze off.

Continue my life with studying. Study here study thr.. study up, study down. Then had my last fnb revision class with mr.gopi. Went yam cha together gather. Seldom have yam cha session at kl. I also scared coz I feel it’s dangerous for me. >< finally it’s hotel management paper. As expected, it’s difficult to score. Do ar do.. Then it’s hotel technology paper. Easy paper I would say…. Then essay. Huh.. seriously I dunno what am I writing. Ishhh… I ended up blogging instead of writing English essay in the piece of paper. Went home and start preparing my toughest time. Accommodation practical and psr. I choosed super difficult personal research topic. Is like digging my own grave. However, I always think the other way round where it will become my stepping stone for success. I regret not to survey and read more. If not, my English essay no need worry got no point to write. Haizz.. it’s okie. Then come this day where morning is bm session. Hahahs.. I feel it’s funny and enjoyable to speak bm again. Sudah kaku akibat lama tak berbahasa. Lol.. then prepare for accommodation. Huh… I can put my heart down when I got housekeeping coz my fo psr is totally stranger to myself. I don’t know how and what I’m going to present. At least hskp I the research I did longest and rmbered the most. And turndown is my favourite service among all. happy it all ended well. Huh… J now resting and regenerating. Endure endure. Four more days to freedom. Enjoy every moment of torture. Don’t ask things to be easy. Ask yourself to be stronger. 

will continue to put in more and more effort until i get sick of it. blerrr....

watch, i'm shining... bling bling..

Week 8 Finale Term

Lundi- woke up early early early in the morning… tired.. slept in bus, train n bus. When I reach bus-stop, it rain. Lol.. quickly settle down and bath. Went to sleep a while. Thou it’s 1 hr, I feel like slept for 3hrs. hahahs.. enter mr.gopi class. Today, mr.alex is teaching us. 2 lecturers in 1 room is really weird. Had lunch and went for front office presentation. Hmnn.. okie larh. Is just that needed to read more n find out about the topic. After that jiu watch gong xi at pc lab. Not exactly wanna join dinner. super duper tired. Umami jiu ng moi. They say can eat other stuff and it’s 1^st time ivan invite. After 2 hrs discussion, in the end, yao yao bring us go pipilololol stall. I dunnoe what the name is. It’s like mamak with a lot of varieties of food. Nom nom nom. The price is reasonable and I likey the atmosphere the most. Relaxing and ada sikit sikit view. Huh.. shared tom yam gai, black pepper udon, hohoho-licksss. Hehe.. too hungry and too full. The dessert of the day would be chock chock chock… snowflakes. Shared with elaino. Hmnn.. at there I saw an incident. Boy boy A hold girl girl C when gal B is her gf. NOooooooOOO.. L Boy boy A is gal gal B de.went home, took bath. Chat quite long with daddy before dooze off. He is complaining about his uni’s friends. I understand and just listen. Talking about this, I am really really lucky. Mana mana also got friends give me kacau. Primary, secondary and now tertiary. I miss my secondary friends. those who study together with me. Looking at si chua, chanel, shaggy and mei kee study, they made me wanna study. Study is like the easiest thing to do in life. But now, as I grow older, and also ppl around me seldom study, I am not motivated. I used to rely on friends and tuition. Now, need to read the bookie alone. L I learn a lot from my uni’s friends and no doubt they brought a lot joy n laughter. Hahhas…

Mardi- sleep 8 hrs but I am still tired. >< 9am practices hskp and enter tourism class wrote essay. A little bad coz I copy instead of writing my own article. Anyway, gonna prepare myself for that. Then hr class. Yawn~ then French class.. I think it’s the first time I concentrate in his class. Hahahas.. recall back, we will have listening test nx week and oral on wednesday. Urghh. went home, settle the rice, wash clothes and eat. 8pm I fall asleep. Lol..

Macredi- woke up at 2 sumthg. Study for housekeeping test. Then start to dig out my notes and arrange my stuff. I guess I really love to study at midnight. Daytime is difficult to keep thgs into brain. After that continue my sleep dream till late for class.. lol. I tot hr finish lecture n it’s okie to go late. Mana tau I forget about the mock exam. Luckily still sempat. Did the test and study for hskp. Talked a lot with melysa. J she is a nice girl lerh. After paper, went home prepare lunchie and linger for a while. Did my own revision for upselling. Finger cross pls rmber everything. And watch my favourite kimchi drama. Had dinner and it’s 8pm. Shall sleep soon. Nite nitez… woke up at 2am. Hehe.. beriya-iya wanna study. Did my kitchen notes but din glance tru. Sleep back again.

Jeudi- today got 2 classes oni. Last class for French. Finger cross I’ll do well. Coz it’s oral and listening. Seldom get to practise. Then is beverage study. 60%. I answer what I know. But I dunnoe how I did. Somehow, I dislike lecturer talk about . . . in lecture class. And keep making noise when it’s a test. Urghh.. before test, the guys group talk about some general knowledge. Lucky they did not spoilt my brain. Those thgs will decrease memory power de. >< After test, had our mac don don meal. Satisfy. Long long time din have group dating le. J  went home.. walk around and din study or sleep. Haizzz.. after that only notice I left my upselling note. Sakit hati. Quickly quickly rush finish 4 papers tat I prepare for myself. >< too tired and slept. I regret wasting time. Arghhhhh…

Friday- woke up in pain. Urghh.. bath, and had breakfast. Lol.. I think first time in term 6 for breakfast at home. Hahahas.. then go to uni. I am so guai. I STUDY THE WHOLE DAY!!!! Yes… huh.. I cnt even close my eyes to sleep thinking I’ve not finish reading what I’ve plan. Ishhh… btw, daddy came to uni and now sitting beside me. He is playing his online game as usual. I got notes to read. So bye bye… at night cooked noodles and continue reading. Hmnn.. slept at 11pm. Thank god I can fall asleep. :D

Saturday- woke up early naturally/ also can say I force myself. prepare breakfast and start reading. Read ar read. Finish fnb le. Then cooked sushi rice for lunchie. After lunch around 1pm, went to library with daddy. he is still stuck in his game things. haizzz.. Moi continue study n study. Whole day is rdod. Hope to finish one subject per day. It’s heavy. But I still want it this way! Coz I did badly in my term5 and final is slightly difficult. When I’m studying, daddy ask me to walk around coz he is finding internet for his game. Walked with him coz the vacumn cleaner very the noisy. Then he lost his direction dunno whr to go. I felt a little waste of time walking here n thr as I am fighting against time. In the end, we went back to library. Library close at 5pm. We went recezz. Had waffle and went back home. Huh.. cooking for dinner. Everything done at 8.30pm and finish eating an hour later. Time flies… huh. Read a bit a bit. Scard that cannot find guests. Have ask a lot peoples. >< sleep. Hmnn…

Sunday- force myself to wake up. had sleep a lot. Went to market buy some meat and breakfast. Came home, start blogging. After this gonna continue study food science, plant and premises. Wish me luck people. :D studied my rdod. At last finish liao. Hmnn.. very very a lot arghh.. rest a while. After that start cooking lunch+ dinner. Daddy help me cook coz thr’s a lot to do. Wee.. and thanks for cleaning the rice. Suddenly rain heavily make me cook half way and stop. After daddy finish game, we had our late lunch. 4.30pm and he tot it’s 2.30pm. lol.. moi, continue reading food science. Dunnoe y, this subject can stuck easily in my head. I love food science and those related to biology. ^.^ it’s 8pm. Daddy left back to imu le. 3days 2 nights together just end like this. I should not throw tantrum or u call that mood swing, and say u’re disturbing when u’re here. (hahahhaa) Thou I got a lot a lot to study, I should treasure every moment, create more happiness. When u leave, there is only one word left, ALONE. Yess.. is this feeling. whole house became empty again. You’re away just 5mins ago, and I start missing u. >< continue my studies. Like this, I end this week. French exam, imma will conquer u. u’re suppose to be worry. J

My BirthWeek ♥♥♥

Lala lala la la. . .  Sing a happy song. teehee.. ^^ is a big big week. imma 20 yrs old.. hahahahhas... cannot believe with this look and i'm 20.. yeeer...

Lundi- attend chef class.. then it's fnb pratical. oh ya.. yesterday was benji's bufdae. so we decided to buy a cakie to celebrate with him. called ivan and settled with him. when i reach uni, i tot i was late and yi ling+ ivan has already keep the cakie in the fridge. ohh.. they din. so i stay with them. not wanting to enter class... lingering around is nicer. hahahas... so i got to see the chocolate+ coffee cake. it was huge+pretty.... XXL like that. had lunch and prepare for fnb. hmnn.. serve vip again. sien liao lu. everything went smoothly. from mise en place to table setting and clean up. omo.. when yi ling+ i serving vip, they had clean most of the area. i'm like impressed man. thanks for clearing up so fast. maybe bcoz they got attack by mr.boon. so everyone got low spirit and just focus in their work. He asked what is rum made of to most of them. so, my classmates gave very cute answer and made his day. it is okie for u to ask people. answer should be either correct or wrong. but what is wrong with u stepping on people's shoes..? is it u got step often so u wanna do this to my friend..? puiikk... i see u okok  (a little ham sap look) but u're such a lousy n low class fellow. where is ur manners and brain.. dun u use brain to think that attacking people this way is a form of insult. moreover, we r the one who pay ur salary. if we cannot perform well, is our choice. who do u think u r to do like this..? u got problem with us giving u cute answer. in ishhh... i dun like low class people like u bully my friends... arghhh.. btw, i should thanks mr.boon. he motivated me to gain more n more knowledge to overcome him. i'll wan to step on u!!! grrrrr~ after tht, everyone is like no mood. mayb i  din kena, so, i still normal but i forgot the existence of bufdae cakie until sum1 remind me. oopsii~ hahas.. after debriefing, i tarik ben to another corner. lousy me, dunnoe want use what excuse. but plan still succcess. coz the moment cakie appear with bufdae song, and i saw grace sedang makan in the kitchen, he got toucehd. benji's eyes r like teary liao. make me also . . .  to my surprise, my name was mention too. oooooohhhhhhh... i am in with him. hahahahahs... damn damn damn happy. no wonder the cakie got no name+ XXL size. made wishes+ cut cakie. the cake was yummie... eat n eat n eat.. suddenly remember i cannot have caffeine. yam goong... T.T at 11 sumthg late night. i'm like torturing myself. thank cute for the cakie, the hidden surprise in it. really really very happy. like this is enuf for me le. ahahhaa.. ^^ back home n comwhore a while. took bath and roll n roll n roll on the bed. look at watch, 6am. Brain, why u no like caffeine..?

Mardi- class at 11am. but got work not yet do. so went uni a little earlier. made no difference. coz i still din finish it. =.=''' after lunchie, we had theory class until 5pm. sorry mr.omar, we are naughty student. pls dun get mad at us... sorry.. And i took a nap. woke up, blur blur, ate and finished robin shaman: the monk who sold his ferrari bookie. hmnn.. a lot of things being taught in the bookie. but i can only and only wan to learn this. time. time past and will never return. every single seconds has it's price. time is money. that is y need to spend time wisely and do quality things. so, not going to sleep a lot. oni boring ppl sleep a lot coz they got nthg else to do. And for those who care for me, invest their time on me, i'll use my time on u. yes.. now, my time is precious liao. is either u're too young to know or too late to take action.this is time. and the practises of the garden, the lighthouse, the sumo wrestler with pink coil underwear, stalk of rosie, stopwatch and diamond pathway. :) checked on ptptn stuff and prepared myself for degree... huh.. is a tough choice. continue to drama until late night. dun wanna sleep, coz tomolo oni got 1 class. i wanna slow down the time and enjoy moment that i like.

Macredi- 9.30am class, woke up at 9am. i like myself. hahaha.. had human resources class. lucky that i had glance tru all her notes so i can answer using some knowledge. but very sleepy in the class. then lewlica and i head to library. wanna watch drama. but uni's comp lab got no adobe flash player. T.T mission phail. and that day is 29.02.2012. as in like a world confession day. hence, i receive and cute form of confession from daddy. hehehee... he made my day. yahuu... we had our buffet lunchie. huh... suddenly, i received present. i tot cakie is enuf liao. din expect to receive a gift and it's a precious one. aaaaaaaarrrrrrhrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.... feel like shouting out loud when i see the little cute miniature bear bear lying down relaxing-ly looking at me. awww... :') thank cute thank cute thank cute and more thankssss... dunnoe how to show appreciation de me. >< and inside the bear bear got bufdae notes... and white chocolate got new dress. it's black from melaka. melt die me le larhhh... thinking that i doesn't deserve all this goodie. is like not mine. can i return them to their owner..? ahhhhhh... last but not least THANK CUTE VERY MUCHIE. MMUACCCKSSS... XOXOXO to each and everyone of u. dui bu chi. rang ni men po fei le. :P did my career path tests. is a destiny that i am like that and do things i like, suit with my personality. hahas.. like till the max of my own course and thgs about this industry. ohh.. i mean fnb. really struck in my mind one day, imma open a fnb outlet. after that, study upselling menu at library. walked back home and took a nap. too tired. woke up and did hr. huh.. very the long ar.. dun wan do liao. den go read beverage study n oioi.
it's 12 am n it's my big day. Can i get a call from u wishing me happy birthday..? :D

Jeudi-  it's jeudi and my birthday. saengil chukha hamnida. hapi hapi.. hehe... today got the pasar malam i like with asam laksa. nyek nyek nyek.. went to class. today got no extra revision for fnb due to banyak banyak problem. but for me, it is somehow a waste of time. 20% really work but the rest is being wasted. got quite a long time of break. went to library quickly finish up my upselling notes. then dine at ecobar. tried their chicken chop. it's not nice at all. the chicken got smell de. eat half way, feel like vomitting. slow down. breathe in breath out. ohm..mali..mali ohmmnn... walk walk around campus. bought ring with lewlica and elaino. it's nice.  and we enter class a little late. not yet study. so all question also cnt answer. >< after that we camwhoring near the staircase. hahahahahs.. many many funny actions. imma a ghostbumps with puppets... lol.. regurgitation occurs in the washroom. scared die me liao. after hr class, bought ring again. lol... it's a gift. then followed ivan and elaine to take lrt. and ride bussie go home. on the way, i receive msg from ah nel to date go pasar malam. hapi hapi.. can eat assam laksa. hahas.. when we reach, bziarrreee.... Raining very heavilly ar. we waited inside the foodcourt. ended up eating porridge. my assam laksa.... nooo.. after rain, we walked. many stalls close down already. and we are too full for snacks. ishh.. to end my day with things that i like to do, i watched dramas. hahahs.. recalling back, imma a very very lucky girl. i've got everyone that sayang me. papa+ mama+ koko. then friends and extended family. :") talking about his, it's weird. cousins is our first friends and i dun give present to my cousins. ooppsi..

thanks to all uni friends for the cakie, wishes and presents. thanks for the birthday messages... thanks for celebrating with me on my bufdae under the romantic rains. actually accompany me on a day like this will make me happy le. 

Vendredi- woke up naturally. continue watching drama and rest. took a 4 hrs nap. ate dinner. and do nothing special. hahahs... like this a day jiu gone. regretted y i no read bookie. T.T

saturday- arrhhh.. woke up, quickly get ready. today gonna have a date with baem. he is such a hardworking guy. permanent+ part time work. we hang out at jusco and ate steamboat. ahhh..very full. after that, back to home. auntie got a lot customers today. so, i differed my steam hair plan. hmnn.. 2/3 weeks. hair ar hair.. pls be strong till i feed u with nutrients. then went out with daddy. Bought curly fries, root bear. ohh.. i accompany him to cut short short his hair. then the heart shape white chocolate cakie is not for sale anymore. changed to buy cheese cake. spend 2 hrs driving around seremban. hahas.. at night after dinner, cakie opening ceremony. i was in a good mood until he start focusing in his game. T.T speechless+ no comment liao. anyway, i've got my life to undergo also. not planning to waste my time on u. I'M BUSY! went home and fall asleep.

Sunday- woke up and quickly went to pasar. bought vegetables and shampoo. hmnn... study.. in a difficult mood to study. coz i can't angry a person+ sad at the same time do reading. i cannot have harsh feeling. settle up. hmnn.. he is apologizing.  at least he know. accompanied him play game a while and went for dinner with 2nd koko. we are heading to eat salted egg crabbie. when i reach thr, sorry, crabbie sold out tonight. huhu.. T.T my crabbie... koko say bring me eat nx time. hahhas...

although my bufdae past, and i din really officially say thanks in fb, imma a shy shy girl. i would sincerely thanks those who celebrated with me, wish me, gave me pressie, ang pau, treat me food and date. Biggie biggie mmuaccks and huggss for u all. foong foong is grateful for having each and everyone of u. :P

Week 6 Finale Term

Arghhh... without notice, in a blink of eyes, it's week 6 already. passing on. so much not done yet. readings and revision. ughh.. luckilly it's still week 6. i got 4 more weeks to brush up. gonna have intensive revision on myself. cannot misbehave already. final term. over means over. guai guai ar... dun play le la.

Sunday night, have some mini gathering with jean and mei kee. jean is flying this thursday. have a safe flight yo. may u have a wonderful time at tasmie. while mei kee is complicated with petra. i don't see what is the problem between them but they keep on fighting. is a daily routine i guess. hahas.. sunday slept at 1 am trying to finish a book. then woke up at 6am to ride bussie. whole night din really sleep well also. Jean say if wanna have a companion, choose a suitable one. we are already 20 years old. if getting marry at 30, we have only 10 years to know each other, pak toh and blah blah blah...

Lundi- had theory then kitchen class. whole day migraine attack. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..... y must u come now..? i am trying to read and study. when u're here, i can't even open my mouth. is not painful but suffering. i know i am stress. i am trying to sleep already larh. hmnn.. after class, take bath and straight sleep. cannot even move more. the last time my migraine attack was SPM. that time i am reading sejarah book. suddenly just blackout. after that, i try to sleep more than it should be, avoid caffeine and only eat healthy stuff. maybe it's too long, i start to simply eat stuff, sleep late and here it comes to me. T.T

mardi- woke up still feeling dizzy. not planning to skip class. continue my day like normal. did laundry and cook. start to relax my body. undergo some aroma-therapy with soft musics. hoping it will reduce the pain. read a while and went to bed early. cannot take the risk anymore. i've ask the divisional office for degree intake. either march 25 or august 27. i was planning to start as soon as possible and quickly end my study life. if august, what can i do with 5 months break..? i wanna work. my expectation of salary is 2k. is there any place that can hire me with this salary... i need to pay rent, support own living cost and save money for future use. and if i am working for 5 months, i want go Bangkok. feel like going there shop shop shop. is like wasting my time also. if start march, it's too soon and i'm not ready yet. haicho...y so difficult to choose geh. very the ma fan...

wednesday- today went to class a little different. hoho... i guess people will get shock by the way i dress up. lol... funny reaction i saw. no need be shock or confuse. Just ask urself how well do u noe me that u sure i won't wear like this. my birthday is coming soon. what shall i get for myself lerh..? i've been a good girl, so shall reward myself. hahhas.. a vincci watch.. a charles and keith wallet or some make up tools... these are the 3 things in my head. wanted to do some survey on what's new on those shops at Sunway Pyramid. but plan changed when we need to eat lunch for korean cuisine and walk walk at amcorp mall for book hunting. had fun outing with benji and elaino. yeahh.. at night study a little bit and cooked fried rice. kinda success gua. hahaas.. thank god no symptoms of migraine. will continue to avoid caffeine, spicy and  chemical food. imma a happy girl now. hehe.. hmn.. when i see a girl scold others bitch, i actually dislike it very very much. it's so rude. don't u have basic manner to use proper language. if u're angry just say so and not use vulgar words. saying is easy but taking back it is hard tho. moreover, if it's for someone u know, it hurts ppl de lerh. if u're using it to address close friends and play play version, i'll accept it.

thursday- is a whole day class. got myself long long hours to sleep. hehe.. coz i am afraid migraine come back anytime. danger zone. 8am started french class. then mr.gopi beverage studies ended early. we went to enquire for degree stuff. huh... scholarship still got. then ptptn. when i see miscellaneous fees increased Rm700-1k, my mind already thinking whr to find $$$ to cover up. luckilly ptptn can borrow more. shud i borrow 13k or 16k per annum..? is either i pay back 42k or 48k for my 4 years study.i'm like what... my living cost is far more cheaper than my course fees. if i am joining the earliest intake, i need to start apply, fill up forms already. all depends on my final examination timetable. shud be going to earliest intake if possible. i dun wan to wait and waste my time already. my oil painting class and becoming starbuck barista will need to differ liao. :( benji's bufdae is coming soon. so he got the wong kok free milk tea. errica is kinda quiet that day. i was thinking was it bcoz we ffk her yday so she got mad. anyway, someone who disgrace girls shall not need my concern much. i was still thinking is this pei wen and pei wern that i know has the same characteristics..? lol.. i won't get shock if there are the same. i believe people who their name sama sama will have similar characteristics de. revision class ended early too. went to library to borrow some books. need to research more on my psr and some inspirational books to fill my soul+mind hunger. then went to mr.gopi revision class. i am staying at sunway this weekend so there is no need to rush. hmnnnn... i think mr.gopi is sien gua. he have the class like we very free like that. chit chat and also mamak. after mamak followed zhen han come home. huh.. damn tired. and dunnoe y my cheeks red red de. perhaps body temperature too hot already. after 10pm, i'm like in oioi mode ald. ZZZZzzzz...

friday- in a choice to go or not to go pyramid with ah ling. thinking that nthg to buy, lazy to go out and let her pak toh with zh, i dun wanna go liao. stayed at home. woke up naturally and start chasing drama. luckilly line still boleh tahan. watched feast for god, extravagence challenge and moon embracing the sun. at night, i read the monk who sold his ferrari. now just half way. will tell u the whole story after finish the bookie.it's somehow similar to the power of secret. but in a story teller and audience style. :) it was really good to have some me-time.

saturday- hmnn.. had a nightmare of i dunnoe how to write an essay. so, should i start revision on english now. lol.. still procrastinating. not even serious in my studies. kinda miss papa+mama liao. bf..? of course. but he is busy with orientation with juniors. when one person staying in this room, it'll be a little empty. when with miche miche.. it will be sempit. so sien... @#$%%^&&*(( wasted whole day like that.  read and take a nap. thou, it's boring (din watch drama scared cnt stop), i am relaxed. there is no need for rush or not enuf sleep. :) btw, our group kena curse i think. after ivan, peter, sakit, then zhen han, elaine pulak turn. hmnn.. at night, when i am lonely, suddenly phone rang. tot daddy will go to bed straight away coz he is very very the tired, but no. we chat for quite some time. imma touched. he is describing about imu girls. each time orientation, it's a chance to stalk new batch of girls and he will start flirtationship. hahahs.. his eyes memang got problem. those girls he say pretty, i doesn't even need to look at. coz they are not. T.T somehow my taste in girls are better. ahhahas.. and i wonder, his eyes got problem, them i'm not pretty also lor.. huhu.. >< he propose that to straighten my longevity hair. he say he likes to see straight hair girls. hmmnn.. since born, i did nothing with my hair other than trimming. can be consider. dunnoe how i'll look when it's straight. gaggaa.. papa leh. after that, play a while and read notes.
he is improving liao... +U+U

one night, straight in front of me:

finding a partner is for companion, when i have things to do, friend to entertain me, i don't need you and hope that you don't bother me.

it's true when i am lonely, i'll want you to accompany me

it's a phrase that hurt me the most among all

sunday- i plan to go pasar pagi today. but slept at 4am. how to wakie up at 7am lerh. @.@ ate koko crunch, made sushi rice. condiment will be seaweed, mayo tuna and octopus floss. turn out to be yummy. tonight will make seaweed soup with sushi rice. today is a nihon day. ^^ hehe.. hooray.. tomolo class start le. not bad actually to stayback here. is just need to prepare food by myself whereas at home, i juz need to order and ding~ it appear. hahas.. after this need to finish up human resource notes.. 9 chapters.. huhu.. gg.com. gambateh lor... faster finish study, faster emigrate. and u can continue ur lynas. malaysia can be save de mie..? lol..

Week 5 Finale Term

Lundi- woke up at 6am then wait for grandpa to fetch dadda and i to bkt jalil. then karen send me home. bath and took my own sweet time to make up for FO class. class went well. but the front office assesment make me wait until no more test feeling liao. i am no 15. from 2.30pm wait till 4.30pm like that. after that went home and wash all stuff. did mask and sleep i guess. very very freaking tired. on a day like this chin yoong say he read my blog. the awkward moment. damn... quickly see back what i've blog before. lol..

Mardi- today is 14.2.2012. for everyone, it's a good day/ sweet day. for me, it's just Tuesday. no extra feeling for it. after break, doesn't feel good. head dizzy and feel like throwing up. on a day like this, daddy keep on messaging me. maybe it was valentine. so he miss me. the very naughty+ bad me ignore him. went to computer lab update my psr until 6.30pm. he called for dinner. i tot he was kidding. he is not that type where he will purposely come to find me from bkt.jalil to have dinner on a holy day. so, continue my report. manatau, when i say hello to nyc, i saw him behind. he is actually behind of me trying to log into taylor's computer using admin. hahhas... unbelievable lerh. wahhhh... that time got stun a little bit dunnoe how to react. anyway, i continue typing report also. make him for wait for me. later on, i feel very very bad. he already made an effort to come to me, and i. . .  sorry. >.< quickly went to dinner with him. by the time we reach sunway pyramid, it was already quite late. ate taiwanese food and drank chatime. ^^ whee.. whatever i want, he will also give. hahas.. :) make daddy come to teddy and the next day need to rush back imu. Xie xie. bear bear  really really very hapi o. and bcoz of ur surprise also make my plan turn upside down larh. suppose can send ai xin sushi bento and konyaku jelly as dessert for tomolo lunchie. hmnn..

wednesday- although very tired, but i insist wanna send my love to him today. after class, stayback a while at computer lab sitting at the same lucky place again. hoho.. then quickly kick start. chop chop chop, fry, wash wash and cook sushi rice. long time din make ady. i think my skill got worse and the vinegar is not strong enuf. sushi doesn't taste yummie like last time. then the cute cute de bear bear face din make also. :( took bath, packed and start my journey. Rmember it is U76 bussie from sunway and U71 to sri petaling from pasar ar.. dun take wrong bussie anymore. sitting in the bus when it is having downpour. the scenery is very nice o. like a bus penetrating waterfall. almost reach. running behind imu to vista c. feel very very happy to give him surprise. my mouth oni got wide smile. and best part is i got the key into his hse. nyek nyek.. walk in, slowly... hmn.. he is focus-ing in his game. he din notice it was me also. hahhas.. the from behind, i gave him 1 chatime and ai xin sushi bento. slowly, he recognise it was me. hahahhas... his shocked face. lalalala~ hapi hapiii... after eating sushi, i request, can u keep me for a night..? that time is 8pm. i am too tired to travel. straight went into yuyu's room and sleep. hehe.. woke up at 4am.

thursday- 4am... and everyone is sleeping like piggie. feel like playing prank but they sure very tired pia psr. read mr.gopi notes coz got 10% assesment. took 6am train back to sunway. felt very energetic and hyper. running and jumping. bath and pack. went to uni. today, everyone is like a zombie. all do psr last minute bah. hmnn.. during revision class, oni me, elaine, ivan and cy stay. and we stay till 4pm when lecturer is not in class also. we chit chat lur. relationship+ guys. after hearing their stories, guys is like very complicated to me. i know nothing about man. the one and only i know will be daddy. and every guy will have a friend name jill. and ivan pulak tell me he click click click n come to this blog. no nice pictures and full of words thr's still ppl reading. mother of god reaction. is just like the wiggle wiggle song. no shoes no socks and i still get serve. hahaha... damn.. after class, stayed at library with elaino. she do her psr, while i daydream. my psr finish long ago ald. is just i got post-psr/ final term stress. i need to relax myself by daydream more n more. after maxis buy 1 free 1 chatime. merci~ this week full of chatime. din finish it also. at night, did nothing. cannot sleep and got nothing i wanna do. haizz.. wasting time.

friday- did laundry. wash+ iron clothes. take my own sweet time preparing. after that rush to uni. forgot my appraisal form. luckily exam centre ada. update my psr and submit. hooray... at last everyone sun sun lili de hand up ald. paling bu fang xin is lauren and yi ling. after brunch, took bus go sri petaling. grandpa fetch us go back sban. hehe.. from monday- friday i also got to see daddy's face. magic~ reach home first thing need to do is take bath, scrub myself clean clean and continue drama-ing. yeahh..

saturday- whole day watch drama and roll on bed. procrastinate my work. haizz.. T.T how to trigger myself to study and not waste time lerh.

Week 3&4 Finale Term

Wakakkaa.. it’s been.. urhmnn… 3 weeks I guess. Has not been writing to u. maybe that day, after that day, all my emotional blast out. So I felt relieve and able to go through life without any jot down moment. There was a few too. But I was busy+ lazy. So couldn’t be bothered. Now that I’ve clear some of my stuff and ready to accept challenges. J

Well Start back with Week 3 Finale Term. After week 3 arrives, we got 1 week holidaysss. Err no.. is more than 10 days. Muahhahaa… during that time, I really pia my psr bit by bit. Hard work always pay. That’s y I can relax and sit here blogging instead of cracking head. J

Lundi- Basically I went back kl on Monday morning. Hehe.. I’ve forgot what I did actually. Mostly is sleeping and reading books. Yess… I read tons n tons to fill up idea for psr. Okie. I admit it was long ago. So I forgot most of the things I did. Beside reading, it should be watching dramas. Hehe.. instead of thinking of the past, I should blog out current situation.

There goes the one week holidays.. first started to be good. On the midnight of Chinese new year eve, there was a gang of ganster came to my house area and faught. Omg.. there are really brainless ppl. 30 over cars got their windows smash. Haizz… second koko’s car kena ald. It’s a significant event before new year.

Chinese new year the first day. As usual, went to daddy’s place and slept. Too tired to help out. Get ready and start pai nian with each other. Receive a lot a lot of ang pauss… happy. And those food. Great!!! Felt guilty did not help out. >,< in the late afternoon, went to ah ma’s house. This year, it’s at sri pulai. Nearer and better I guess. Went there, sit, talk, get ang pau, rest. After that, back to daddy’s place. They are going to penang in the midnight. So, went to 2^nd uncle house for quick dinner. Came back and continue watch drama. Dunnoe y, daddy bcame more n more addicted to game. He even said and act ridiculously just bcoz of the damn online game. Well, we have some chit chat. He is just too much. Make everybody to tolerate him as if it was a norm. he has lost his good attitude and character slowly in the big society. Midnight, they depart and I go back home.

2^nd day of Chinese new year. It was the same every year. We went to granduncle house. We means mama and i. I hate, dislike to go. I don’t feel the sense of belonging from that place. Anyhow, it’s just mama and i. if I don’t go, mom will be alone. Nobody likes to be left out alone. Such a holy daughter of me, surrender. Went there and guess what, this year had change. We had some chit chat and ppl that I don’t want to see is gone. Great! Spoke to Jason and Jeremy. During evening, we went to feed fei fei, dao dao, chicks, water orchid and mao mao. Went back home and continue my dramas of course. At night, I checked the ang pau that granduncle gave out of curiosity. To my surprise, it was a check worth 2k. !@#$^^^&%$$##^&((( I don’t understand. But I accepted it. I accept coz it’s sincere. Damn…

3^rd day of Chinese new year would be mama bring papa go li ko and tua ko hse pai nian. It was a tradition. Then at night, jas’s hse got lok lok party. So me, mei kee and jean went thr to have some fun. The awkward moment when not close bcame close again and the only 3 of us appear. Lol… had some chitchat with my closet friends. it seem like jean and I got same mentality while mei kee still young and innocent.

4^th day, hmnn.. on a day like this, we, mei kee and I, went to jeanne’s hse. Have some costume photoshooting. The outcome was nice but not my taste. So, I would deny it. Hehe.. the whole day gone like that. At night, we went to yam cha a while at tarot sun bian discuss about Friday’s journey. Went home feeling exhausted xia. Non-stop visiting. Lol..

5^th day has come. Woke up, continue my dramas and get ready. Today, we have our round trip. Started of at jas hseà how yeeà jean’s à sim lim à mine à karynà jing xuan. Hmnn.. a bit troublesome as some need to go back earlier for nights schedule. And really very sorry to mei kee. Let her wait n in the end she did not join us. Hmnn.. sorry sorry my dear n beloved friend, mei kee. After that went back to karyn’s hse to gamble. Soon, went to feed pets and went to lai ma’s hse. She had move to new place which near to sri pulai also. All that area. Hahas.. not bad. at least she got a hse now instead of renting a house. :”) played with kah jun and jeng yee. So cute as always. Hehe.. went home after that. Next day is already Saturday. So fast. Yet I did not produce any thing. Haizzz… daddy is back too midnight.

Saturday- out of nowhere, got a sudden call to kl. Hehehe.. hapi hapi. Is a bear bear out day. :P uncle’s boss is not at home. So we went to sungai long, kajang for visiting and dinner. Met chef Rex at last huh. Went back sban and spent one night again. Ishh.. daddy’s fault. ><

Sunday- woke up. hehehe.. ate and went back home late again. No chance to meet up with papa.

Monday- back to uni. Hmnn.. did all my best. Carried a lot of bookie. Hand pain pain. Luckily Karen fetch me from bkt. Jalil to taylors. Did not bring my lappie also.  My ipod touch reach home sweet home. Named it white chocolate. Hehe.. had our very first finale term kitchen class.

Mardi- study as usual. Pia my psr like nobody business.. huhu..

Macredi- stayback and do psr. At night, read all I can. ^^ no lappie seriously very boring. But I my endure my desire and finish all my work. Hehe..

Jeudi- start to feel different. Maybe is pms.. and also mood swing when my beloved one got very very clingy to game and doesn’t even noe how I felt. How can you don’t know..?

Vendredi- yes… my lazyness made me cnt finish up my psr. Very disappointed with myself. keep doing until last minute of replacement service class. Quite nice actually. I enjoyed it. After that, Karen the very very kind girl fetch me to Bandar tasik selatan. She even wait with me and make sure I am safe. Omg… she is the first who let me felt I need to be protected at kl. Yes.. when she let me go, a malay guy ran towards me. I got shock. Seriously very very shock. Shock till I ran and ran and cannot breath. If he had a knives n doing sumthg bad, I might not b able to type this out anymore. Life.. nobody will be responsible and able to take care of u every seconds and minute. Is about ur own safety. So I realized that now. When I reach the station, couldn’t find daddy. and he even got mad at me. I am already tired, so scard and late night walking alone, in those dark creepy road, he still mad at me. When I reached, he knows nothing. Huh… his friends car no battery and need to jump start. Hmn.. I tot of, why… why… and why. Can’t u be more protective and think of me as a girl in the middle of night? Is my fault to rely on u. is my fault to save the few ringgit and follow u go back with friends. is my fault and my greed. Went to kah joon’s hse and go back seremban. Reach home, bath and stayed awake whole night like this. Cannot sleep. And then I watched drama. The next day, fall sick badly. Fever on and off. First time in my life fever for 4 days. I am usually hit by migraine but this time dunnoe y like that. Maybe the weather and the food I ate was bad. I remember I had spicy food for whole week. T.T

After that, I recover when it Wednesday. Had our class as usual. 2 classes and went back home. Hmnn.. did not bring my lappie nor ipod touchie. seriously felt my hostel is like hotel room. Clean and well organized. Went there and just spend a night. The good thing is, all well prepared. Hehe..

Jeudi- is a long long class. After class, we stayed for a while. Mr.Alex has a briefing with us. What!!!! The content of the briefing was outstanding. Now I understand why people go college/ pay so much. Y people say college cert can be bought. Huh… went back sban again. This time, sat lrt with elaino. Took bussie and it was late. Night dream n night dream. Got nothing to do what. Did not want to touch up finish psr. Keep procrastinate. Ishh..  btw, got warning from papa. He said y I always ( 2 times) sleep at daddy’s place. I speechless and got shocked. Aiyak… I tot Is okie. Manatau.. gotcha. I know papa don’t like la. So I don’t dare anymore. Never ever. Shiveriing. Ggagagaga…

Friday- spend at daddy’s place. He promise will treat prosperity burger when I recover from sick. I rejected to eat with mummy and went with him. He did not keep his words and let me eat alone in the dining table. Already felt bad neglecting mummy, den got treated lik tat. Being rejected is so helpless. Whole day mood got spoilt by him. Summore pps cannot load. Cannot watch extravagant challenge while he played games. So, very tired de me went to sleep long long. Woke up and had dinner. He went to yam cha and I did not follow. Foo yee brought fio went. He sure want me to accompany him go. But I reject gao gao. No mood to accompany him. Go home watch my drama better. At least my drama won’t ditch me. They ask weather Sunday wanna go genting celebrate valentine till Monday. Firstly, I am not interested in genting and I’ve plan my valentine. Nyek nyek… reject him again. I may seem bad but it’s just very minor. To him, it’s nothing at all. moreover, Monday got front office test. How to go..? and yea.. I slept at 5am watching drama. There is not even a goodnight call.

Saturday- got call from karyn. Went to her place and we off to tesco and jusco. Bought stuff for orangie’s 21^st bufdae, my valentine’s planning and jalan jalan sikit lur. Girls ma. this time, mei kee din join us. Dunnoe what is her plan lerh. Or izzit . . .  haizzz… susahnya. Just wanna say sorry. >< after buying around 4pm, we went home. Did a bit of psr, lol… half way doing, karyn is back and we went to pick up the cakie. It was lambo’s shape. Cun-ted. Hahahhas… karyn’s bf bufdae but we have it at si chua hse. And si chua is not at home. All done by us. Start preparing and karyn went to handle orangie. Till den Orangie cannot guest it was his surprise bufdae celebrations. Noob. Hahahs.. later on, he knew and had cakie cutting sessions. Of course, daddy is stuck with his on9 game and came very late. Is like a while before cake cutting. Shall I mind..? of course no. xi guan jiu hao. Lalala~ then orangie got his many many presents… 21 yrs old, 21 bufdae present. All is useful to him. Hahas.. even got his underwear. J after playing, we clean up. really hapi to have such gathering with friends. hapi hapi. We used to see each other everyday for 5yrs. I love you my friends. :”) when I see karyn’s effort, she is 100% good gf. Salute her for planning this bufdae party for 1 months and start preparing presents. As for me, daddy’s 21^st bufdae is just a normal cake bufdae celebrations. I remembered that time I was at internship and staying with him. Many many problems also. T.T I did regret for not buying him present. Guilty guilty guilty till d max arrrghhhhhh…. At night, I invited him for koko’s dinner for tomolo. Very randomly I said it’s okie u wanna come or not. Coz he got important event 7pm every day. Thou shall not disturb thee at the very critical moment. I got used to it le. Although will feel sad, but nothing can be done. Why not just leave him alone with the damn game and enjoy myself.  whee~ at night, cannot fall asleep o. hmmn.. start blogging lurr… miss out a lot ma. then facetime with ah young ni. So happy. Is like I’ve got new phone and he is my first contact. And I got to see sleepy de maxxxxx… J ah young ni went to gao gao choo also. Later, daddy pulak call. And I shall stop blogging. He called with a very unusual voice. He is crying perhaps. Lol.. at first, my cold blood and heart din really care. Later on, we chat and chat what is the problem. then I blah all out. Is not like I don’t want to tell. Do I have a chance first of all..? it is so difficult to drag u out of game even for 5 mins. Your yi xia xia is not 5- 10 mins. It’s 30 mins to one hour. Wasai… when I am sick, I just need you to care a bit more. That also got problem. game game game. you always make that u r right and I should just follow whatever you said. You make it so tedious for both of us. In the end, I give up. well, u like it so much, there you go. Even when I am unhappy, I won’t disturb u. I din speak to anyone or only mei kee and blog all out. I guess u felt my coldness and got the feeling of things are not alright at all. well, it’s the truth. From 3am talk talk talk till 6am. Imma very sleepy arrrr… 

then 10 am Sunday went to pasar with grandma summore. With a swollen and sleepy face. Bought stuff for valentine’s surprise. I was actually in a dilemma weather do I still need to put effort to surprise him on valentine since celebration for festive is just another day to him. Hiazz.. I don’t want to regret. Last year de valentine, we celebrate happily de o. I still hope and wish it do be the same for us every year sweet sweet de. :”). Even if u did not do anythg for me, I will do it for you. beriya-iya do my psr report. Finale done. And then sleep. Keep not enuf sleep. Dinner at restaurant with koko. This time, daddy is more caution on timing and I can see changes in him. Hehe.. happy. :P quickly did slides and sleep. but still somehow awake whole night. sighhs..

Week 2 Finale Term

Hi~ it's week deux. well, today is Thursday. the week not finished yet.
hmnnn... this week mostly mark down some emotional moment.

Monday- Was in a rush for nothing. The whole day is like tat. Had our FnB theory and Front Office class. Today Ben was suppose to bring my things from his car. my shoes and jacket. Since he did not bring down from his car, i wore heels. I know girls will look nicer when wearing secret weapon heels, but hey, i appreciate u gave me the opportunity. but those heels really killing me and making me ache for sometime. >.< went home and did not have the appetite to eat also. haizz... my results is so bad. i really got no mood to play anymore. no outing n no appetite. i am a little stress but did not show. i wanna scire in my final so badly. Guilty about my term 5 results. But i did not regret spending those time together with them. Having fun instead of being serious. Give and take in life.

Tuesday- Today morning we had housekeeping practical. The class went well. One thing remarkable was, i did not join any of them for group assignment. when i say that i don't want, all i got is a walk away reaction. that time seriously broke my heart. I am not angry or kiasu joining others. is a matter of friendship. i seriously wonder what level of friendship are we sharing..? Is there any care or at least help..? it's okie. to motivate myself, i think on the bright side. thinking it's good to join some different personnel. i came to uni to learn to handle all these. at least i am trying and learning different things~ To avoid facing the situation more, i ran to toilet and cry silently. chillax. trying to comfort myself all is well. During lunch also another problem. When deciding where to eat, we r divided into deux groups. some will eat at luxury stall while some will remain as commoner. I will say it's luxury because i am from a class or a person of people that cannot afford to eat at these stalls everyday. perhaps once or twice in a week depending on my economic. And we ate at Korean stall. Happy and satisfied my meal. :) Bought Chatime for Karen. Sometimes i wish there is a friendship that i can share in uni. Those people who i known as friend is actually someone i trust, i care and i love. but when people don't treat me the same, my little heart is a little cracked. yea.. i am this stupid. i know this~ it's just a small world and life is short. where is the love..? Went to library to search for books and kickstart PSR. Ended up reading Bobbi Brown book. At least i did something for myself that day.

Wednesday- Arghh... has been busy borrowing and returning book from library. Attend morning class again. Duex classes and until 12noon. Borrowed books from library. A lot, and collected RM200 voucher from government. Hooray, suddenly 4 pieces of paper can change into Rm200. i am fascinated. hahas.. i am so going to change it into cash by hook or crooks. Went home, wash clothes, take bath, eat late lunch and sleep. whole night very sien. read tea book. i did not bring my lappie go back. Books content my empty soul of everynight. Packed and rest. got ready to go back Sban and celebrate Chinese New Year.

Thursday- Woke up late as i sleep late. And then, have French class. I was playing with ku~ku~ so happily. Entered beverage study class and have lunch at Zhia's Kitchen. Koko drop by and carry all my books back. i am so glad. hehe.. one thing that i cannot and don't wish to accept, ku~ku~ went missing. T.T i don't know where he went... i don't know when i lost it.... i am so terrible. i felt so sad. i am sorry. i lost you. >.< went back Sban after class. huh~Although there are things that i am happy to see, it's Chinese New Year. got drinks, biscuits, crackers and hampers. Not to forget about, new year clothes. But behind these, they r $$$$$$$$. i know the value of celebrations. But i understand more deeply what is happening from another point of view. And there are also fights and curses. where is the harmonious family i've been staying in..? i am broke. Financially started long time ago while mentally is starting. i maybe strong n tough. deep inside it is all broken actually.

There is no no for books now. I realized that, i don't spent much. I spent on my very very basic necessity.Some people will think i am kiam siap or treat myself cruelly. But this is the fact of who i am. i seriously got no money. Who will doesn't want to spend money buy pretty clothes, change style, wear heels, eat well, and use good product..? but i gotta think that money is not earn by me and when it is like this, i got only minimum right to spent them. Sometimes i feel guilty not able to buy things for people i love. Eat romantic dinner together. I purposely left out myself for gathering to cut cost. I avoid any event or places that need to use money. I noe all these could end up forever alone or anti-social. but do i have a choice..? in this reality world where many many people is so up to material, and the class of people that i join, do u think they will understand my situation..? understand and action is also different things. i am lucky that i still got friend that appreciate my bufdae text while one ignore like nothing happen. =.='' This show who you are to them. i am lucky. very that one. When nobody in this entire world know what i am facing, i can at least share it here. like this, i will feel better. you won't noe how much n how much of pressure i have inside me. T.T Living like a zombie, not able to live life that you want for almost 2 years. i wish i could live like a normal 20 years old girl.

Friday- spend my day at daddy's house. when i think back our old moment, really old as in like 4yrs ago, i am happy. Happy that we started. Maintaining is good at start but nowadays. . .  we r lazy to give surprises and do further for each other. last time, we use to text each other when both at high school. when daddy went for pre-U i can only see him during weekend and chat/ text at night. when he is having degree and i am at diploma, we only chat at night. sometimes for a while or sometimes there is none. >< and now, there will be less and less text/ call/ chat. this is what maturity and time changed us. Finger cross that when he is having intern or we are both working, we will contact each other once in a week. T.T tat time, i wonder, is it really have to be like this..? everyone will be busy and have their things to do. Agreed with Ivan very much. time is like cleavage, need to me squeeze out. hmnn... we shall see.. And then i watched a little thing called love. what a nice, naive and romantic movie. hehe..

Saturday- spend my day at home. can be called as a boring day. i did a while my psr and linger around hse. hohoho~ cnt watch dramas scard get addicted. not able to open and face the book. then sweep floor, blogging and .. . . hahas.. k la. i really need to start reading. i don't do anything that i will regrets. hehe..

Week 1 Finale Term

huh.. after 3 weeks holidays.. finally.. finally the class has started. the nerves are shivering because of PSR reports and examination. haizzz... i am scard duhh... no doubt that i've spend my holiday wisely. last week of it, i maple throughtout till lvl 106 ady. wulalalaa~ now come back to reality.

Monday- packed stuff and took bus back to sunway in a tired way. and i carry super duper heavy stuff. oh..gosh.. when i say heavy, it must b real heavy. maybe 7-10kgsssss. haizzz.. what to do. i don't wanna waste money ask koko fetch me back. it's wasting time and money. Moreover, today, the very first day is also serving class. Nedd to find guests, print reports and menu. luckilly is first week. most of the classes end early and we got excuses and time to do preparation. kinda stress before class start. when class is going and end, everything was good. huh~ so called manager of the day. trololololol... went back home late and just throw everything. is too tiring. and my body is aching. ><

Tuesday- our class started at 11am. having tourism environment with mr.gopi. yeah.. this term, we can see his face almost like everyday. Then is Miss Lisa HR class. Not bad. She is able to persuade me y i need to dress up+ groom properly. Well... i will try my best in changing. hoho.. Last class would be Mr.Omar French class. Well.. he can teach. after 2 terms, i would say that i prefer miss natalie. :( i cooked vege and rice. simple yet tempting. hehe..

Wednesday- wakakaka.. i love wednesday the best. we got only one class for odd week and 2 classes for even week. damn.. :) maximum also class finish at noon. got whole day to do own stuff. hehe.. After asking about F&B psr with mr.mayukh, we went for pasta buffet to celebrate and welcome finale term. hehe.. the buffet was nice and got a nice view. 8 choices of pasta with freeflow drinks and soups as well as salad. we end our buffet with ice- cream and walk walk around the area. got to take a few epic picture too. :) after that, lauren and benji went to 1 utama. luckilly i din go. if not. . . . zzzz... sudah back pain want me walk walk summore. i slept quite late too. watching dramasssss... ishh.. hate myself de bah. finale term and finding a lot dramas.. attracting myself. making my life miserable. grrr~

Thursday- Is our last day of every week. muahahahhaa... Friday is empty. hulalala~ we had french. i was late 30mins. coz i watched drama till 4.30am. then 7.30am woke up. eat koko crunch summore. more n more daring to be late. wakaka.. then, we have beverage study with mr.gopi again. he is choosing people for tomolo Taylor's Preview day. since i am scholarship student, he choose me. haizzz.. i did not say no or agreed to it. >< need to stayback for another day. my plan failed. We got quite long break tat day. went to library borrow books, some print notes, some sleep in cinema room. after that, we enter revision class. hmnn.. class ended early too. again we got nothing to do. went to library again. this time is to wait for mr.adrian lecture about bm thingy. 4-6pm. hehe.. of course i am choosing bm since i am semi-ripe banana. hehe.. went back home, prepared dinner and nom nom nom. watched drama, packed stuff and dooze of early. too tiring.

Friday- it's the day. woke up late and continue drama-ing. Currently watching The Princess Man. sad and the later on scene was boring. >< ate some cookies and head off to uni. haizz.. i spend my friday terrible-ly. The event was a phail one. Nobody or only 5 upon 30 people. haizz.. wasting my time. and then i head off to Seremban. The journey took 3 hrs i guess. From 6pm till 9pm i step on Sermban. i don;t understand y KL is so traffic jam all the time. Reached home and watch a while drama and slept. Only got a mini chance to say goodnight with daddy.

Saturday- woke up, hungry and nothing to eat. called mom and she tapao KFC. :) evil me. enjoying the time of my life. hehe.. whole day spent like that. Drama and drama and more drama. Finished up Korean --> Hong Kong. hehe.. i got no charger. so cannot contact daddy. but whole day he din find me. sobzz.. sobzzz.. i wonder what is he doing..? does he miss me..? haizzz...

Sunday- woke up, took bath and no food, hungry again. isshhh.. dislike de bah. then charge hdp. Found out that daddy tot i am at kl or sumthg and he din find me. i was like, harrr... is there any boyfriend that dunno where and what their gf doing one mie.. you don't event bother to ask or care. all u care was the damn freaking on9 game. anyway, no matter how many times or how the game and i, it will always and always be like that. heart officially broken that i've got this kind of clumsy bf. Well, all i can say is, the one who spoil him is me. So, i deserve it. Evening time, to cheer me up, daddy brought me to buy ice-cream and a&w drink. we r producing homemade float. slurppps... credit to the ice-cream. yeap, a simple float n him and make me forget everything. Can't deny he is this charming to me. Spend some time together and we r heading back to kl in a rush. He need to go hospital while i just follow. Karen is fetching me back to taylor. so no transport issue here. :) this would be how i end my week 1. hehe..

Week 11 Term 5

Week 11

Wednesday- went back to sunway. 3pm for F&B commis. Hmnn.. not bad. at first I tot was a waste of time. At least we got some exposure on how final in term 6 gonna be like. Hehe.. went home and study for law. @.@

Thursday- law tests. Law law law… after paper, went home to study French and English. Dunnoe y feel so relaks. Took a nap. Woke up study French. Hmnn… doesn’t feel like studying. Wanna sleep but keep rolling on bed. Maybe I feel excited about 16.12. can’t deny the fact that this date bring great impact on me. I am an emotional people. I wish this day I can spend with someone important. Maybe we cannot have fine food but I don’t mind. I don’t mind eating hawker stall. I just wish you were here accompanying me on this memorable day. But we are living in a realistic world. People don’t see the value in it. Money money money. Busy busy busy. Time time time. I don’t wish to surrender just like this. I hope I can go against it but I remain quite. Well... I’m just standing in his point of view. The day has past means it’s over. Even if we celebrate on another day, for me, it will not be the same anymore. It’s just like valentine and bufdae. I hope to spend it with somebody special and not anybody. if you say can we celebrate now, I’ll reply nah… it’s fine and I am broke now. If things like this is not important for you, I shall not hold a grudge on it too. Let things flow by itself is the best!

Celebrated my Christmas yesterday with uni’s friends. freaking awesome day. How am I suppose to store them in my memory so that they are fresh all the time. Hehehhee…. On the 16^th which was Friday, we had French and English final paper. After 5pm, we are all officially freeeee… yahuuu… then we went to sunway pyramid. Some hunting for present while some finding for wrappers and boxes. Elaine, lauren and I did some shopping too. Nothing good was found. Hehe.. after that, I quickly went back home to pack some stuff like presents and daily routine care products. Coz imma gonna sleep together with elaino that night. Hehe.. once reach, we went to put things and settle a while. Then, eat nasi goring kampong. !@@##$$%^^ the fried rice is super good yet super spicy. Arghhh…. After that, kickstart my present surprise. Hehe… do and do. No matter how tiring, I must keep it done so they can get surprise gift on that very special day. I’m so guilty that I cannot prepare for all on time. There are still certain people that not yet recive. In progress… hahhaas… je suis desole~ slept at 4am.

Saturday- 17^th

Woke up by ben’s morning call. Quickly continue doing ponda and wrap all of them. Huh~ shower and wake elaino up. hahaha… took a pic of her when she is sleeping. Her sleeping style is damn imba. Sleep with her phone beside like talking and the main thing is thr is connection with Daniel lerh. Their conversation is not off. @.@ packed and get ready. Imma bought the wrong size box. Went sunway to change. After that headed to Ben’s apartment. After he got ready, we wanted to eat pasta buffet nearby his place. However, it’s not available on weekend. Yeerssszzz… went to giant kelana jaya to eat KFC à sushi king. Hahahas… had my dunnoe what set. It was yummie. Then everyone gather at Ben’s place. We are heading to i-city shah alam. Yuhuuu… it was raining heavily. Went to play laser tag. Nyahahhaha… it was fun and a new experience. Laser tag tag tag tag… shout’s from elaino. Ivan’s secret hiding place and running here and thr. One word FUN. Hehe.. after play, next destination is to Mr.Adrian’s house. His house is well decorated. Everything has a touch. His toilets, bedroom, guestroom, living room and kitchen. His house is not common. Is like a ikea showhouse with a beautiful decorated Christmas tree. Hahahas.. coz most of his things bought from ikea. Hahahas.. that day, ah young ni got rape by those guys. Muaahhaa… Then we go to pasar malam together with jervonn and catherine. At first I tot just walk walk around and have dinner. Mana tau I shop with elaino. Bought this and that. Seriously cheap and nice looking. That’s y it attract us. Hehe.. we even buy until no money. Elaino need to walk all the way till the end for atm. Pai she arhh.. I din bring much cash. So, I owe her RM45 and zhen han Rm5.50 for pan mee. I think I owe zhen han a lot. Coz he fetch me home always. I dunnoe how to say thanks. Perhaps a gift. But what ya..???? sakit-nya kepala. Among everyone, I am the only one that did not walk the whole pasar malam. I got stranded at that one stall. Huh~ after some time, we are called to balik. Hahahas.. reached mr.adrian rumah. We started our climax activity. Hehe… 

mr.adrian’s gift was indeed to me. Wahahhaa.. it was a French dictionary. I don’t have one and always wanted to have one. Now I got it. Thank cute very much sir. I’ll use it forever. After diploma still got degree. It will be very very useful.

Peter by zhen han – police underwear.

Ivan by ah young ni- Malaysia ball

Lewlica by ben- catty

Karen by peter- catty

Mr.lim by Karen- tumblr

Ben by lewlica- tumblr

Ah young ni by eujin kor- shirt

Zhen han by mr.lim- shirt

Mr.adrian by teddy- decoration things

Yi ling by Elaine- soaps

Elaine by ivan- domokun with a lot newspaper. =.=’’’

Conclusion, you get to see 2 pair of people give the same things. Lewlica and Karen receive and gift the same presents. Hahahas…

Last but not least, each of us got a gingerbread kid from lewlica. Ah young ni, ivan, ben and panda got my handmade jumping clay. They are so happy to receive my mini gifts. Je suis happy. I’m in love to see their reaction once they saw what they get. It’s like happily ever after. My effort is appreciated. Thank god. Hehe..

We had some chat zone with snacks and drinks provided by mr.adrian. mr.lim was sick and unable to join us. L chat and chat and chat. It’s around 1.30am. we are tired and yi ling start to fall sick already. Quickly say our farewell and went home. Thanks zhen han for sending us. Went home, bath and sleep. It’s tiring~ before sleep, I recall what we have done whole day. Sleep with smile. Hehe..

Sunday- woke up naturally, roll and roll on bed. Slowly clean everywhere, packed, have a light brunch and start my journey. Dunnoe y, I am enjoying taking public transport and kinda like the feel. I am getting use to it already. Adapting real well. Muahaha… reached home. And now, I’m getting ready for Overtime later with ma darlings.. muahahha…

Week 10 Term 5

I’ve forgotten that there are rules to follow in love. Maybe some will continue to follow while some take things for granted. And some go beyond limit. Never disturb or involve in the activities of your partner. No matter how much you wanna be with them, just let go and dun give a damn. Be honest. You may not know how deep you can hurt the person although it’s just a white lie. Never demand never request never expect. Never question why. Just answer tres bien. Never show your true feeling. In your opinion it’s just simple care. But for him, it will be control, burden and torturing. Things will never be the same anymore. Some little tradition you wish to follow might not interest him anymore. Just accept fact that people change throughout time. This is reality and my fantasy love life can only happen in my dream.

Before criticize, look at yourself and judge. I am not that good either. I do have my weaknesses. I follow my heart to deal with things while you think logically. That’s why we are different.

No matter what happen, you can never complaint. Because your soul mate is choosen and accepted by you. Even if he bully or doesn’t treat you good, you can only say sorry to yourself. Cannot blame others and cannot tell others, Nobody will understand especially him.

Week 10

Monday- is a hapi hapi day. Went to uni with eugin kor and sau sau Karen. Hehee… early in the morning got called to wake up by hubby boy. What a lovely morning. Ate cornflakes as breakfast. Quickly went back to my apartment and take bath. Huh… I’m late. Hehe… then, got back home early coz got no mr.kenny class. But tomolo got his assessment. Hmnn.. studied and sleep early. coz very tired.!

Tuesday- class at 10am. But we are the judge for thinking skill. First day of presentation by group 1,2,3. Walao e… new experience through this project for being a judge. Get to see ivan’s the other side. Shooting ppl side. =.=’’’ then continue for account class and law. Account need to do as much as possible. Coz Saturday is account as first exam. And law is freaking complicated. Gotta work out on it. There goes midterm assessment from mr.kenny at week 10. Ishh.. anyway, six questions and there are all good. Hahahas…At home, did account prepare for exam.

Wednesday- Law class at 8am. Esshhh… then got a long break. We went to grub and library theatre. Was so sleepy for the whole day. Got chef shaari test. 20 true or false questions and .. .  hahhaas… went home and prepared dinner. Hmn.. studied for mr.gopi assessment.

Thursday- went to Mr.Adrian cubicle. Checked that they have airasia promotion. Wanted to go Bangkok. Look at bank account and cancel that plan. No money. Where also cannot go. >< presentation from 2^nd group. I think first group is better. Hahahs.. went for kitchen class. This time, it’s gao gao lik. There is a lot of strange object in the tool box. Hahhahaa.s…

Friday- woke up early and went uni to study for assessment. Quite well. And then went out to have lunch. After French, it’s mr.kenny final assessment. We draw names to pick ppl who we are giving gifts. Very happy. Then we deliberate the champion for DH40 thinking skill assignment. Chat until 7pm lerh. It was fun. Ahahhas.. Went home after that. Cooked egg toast. Wash clothes packed luggage and slept at 10.30pm. it was too tiring and I not yet study for account!

Saturday- woke up at 6am. Study study study account. Luckilly still got some time for me to sleep. Woke again quicky get ready and go uni.  Sat for account paper. What… the objectives is more difficult than subjective Haizzz… took bus to pudu. Got sesated at kl for awhile. Hmnn.. dislike. Then found Pudu bus station. Went back sban. Reached, went to tapao food with mom. Mom say, tomolo follow me go kl. I said I don’t want. Then mom force me to go. If not she will go alone. As the youngest, just follow only lorh. Then mei kee said she is at Times Square. I am around that area also what. Ishhh.. anyway, my plan is to shop at Terminal one. Hiak hiak~! Went to try dresses nearby my house. Not very fitting. Then went to boyfie house. Slept while he played Dota. At night, need to go cousins bufdae party. Went with boyfie and mummy. Hmnn,…. Eat , walked around and talked. Quite romantic. Hehe.. on lappie, download drama and sleep..zzz

Sunday-  woke up, get ready and went to kl. Uncle fetched us from Sri Petaling. I freakingly dislike dislike dislike going there. Going to a place that doesn’t belong to me. I don’t like. There is a gap between us by money. Anyway, the show just start for a while and ended soon went cousin sister is sick and send us to Mid Valley. Shop with mommy at there. Bounce into lai ma and family. I’m so happy to see them. ^^ urghhh.. after shop then only saw a lot of things ngam me at momoe. Hmnn.. should have go there earlier. And then mom din get to buy her dinner dress. I spend quite a lot. Bags, clothes and shoes. Haizz… sinful sinful. But I feel like buying more better if I can buy whole range. Haha.. So, I decide maybe I cancel going to penang and shop more. Teehee…

Week11

Monday- huh…. I am stuck with all presents for the whole day. You guys better appreciate what I do for you all. And of course, I sincerely hope all of you like it. Hehee… is a little little surprise. ^^

Tuesday- here I am now. Sitting in front of lappie. Should be studying for French and Law. Hmnn.. later will kickstart. Mom went to try evening dress with auntie. Leaving me at home foodless. Ishh.. k la. Story stop till here. good luck to all my friends that sit for exams. 

and festive mood is officially ON!